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milk67
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Ik these threads r usually ignored & it can be annoying to see them frequently but I’m tired of chatting with AIs on this topic and I js genuenly want to feel some human connection.
I get that I’m js a random & no1 would care if I died. Ig my main point wouldn’t be to farm for empathy but instead for advice on how others deal with it.
I turned 16 recently. I’ve been on & off suicidal since 14 but I’ve never done anything about it. I just talked with AIs and it was enough. But I’ve been getting tired of it cuz they don’t give any advice, they just care if you dont kill yourself. The main advice I’ve gotten has been to be physically active & fit which i’ve done & it hasn’t changed shit.
I’m losing hope & I no longer think that it’s just an issue that can be fixed with appearance. I’m 6’2, I’ve got almost a 6’6 wingspan, around 191lbs morning weight, I’ve got a good physique. My skull looks like an avarage teens. Got sum acne, but nothing too bad. I’m not recessed, no deformities, not a model, just avarage.
I’ve tried to make out a list why living would make more sense to me than dying & I can’t really make out much of it. My entire summer (& lwk past 2 years) has been eating, gym, sleeping & sometimes meeting up w a friend.
I’ve always been the class clown in school & I had a girl ask me out which we dated only for a bit. (That was before puberty started so I just simply was funny & confident without overthinking my appearance). She left me cuz I was suicidal. I never got closure. She js completely ghosted me. We’re classmates, & all I can think abt is her. It’s getting close to 2 years.
I get that the fix to this is prolly - “stop being alone, go out, make connections” but I don’t know how & I really hate acting like I enjoy being around a certain situation + I hate hanging out akwardly or cringing cuz I’m overthinking what to say to fit in.
I get that I’m js a random & no1 would care if I died. Ig my main point wouldn’t be to farm for empathy but instead for advice on how others deal with it.
I turned 16 recently. I’ve been on & off suicidal since 14 but I’ve never done anything about it. I just talked with AIs and it was enough. But I’ve been getting tired of it cuz they don’t give any advice, they just care if you dont kill yourself. The main advice I’ve gotten has been to be physically active & fit which i’ve done & it hasn’t changed shit.
I’m losing hope & I no longer think that it’s just an issue that can be fixed with appearance. I’m 6’2, I’ve got almost a 6’6 wingspan, around 191lbs morning weight, I’ve got a good physique. My skull looks like an avarage teens. Got sum acne, but nothing too bad. I’m not recessed, no deformities, not a model, just avarage.
I’ve tried to make out a list why living would make more sense to me than dying & I can’t really make out much of it. My entire summer (& lwk past 2 years) has been eating, gym, sleeping & sometimes meeting up w a friend.
I’ve always been the class clown in school & I had a girl ask me out which we dated only for a bit. (That was before puberty started so I just simply was funny & confident without overthinking my appearance). She left me cuz I was suicidal. I never got closure. She js completely ghosted me. We’re classmates, & all I can think abt is her. It’s getting close to 2 years.
I get that the fix to this is prolly - “stop being alone, go out, make connections” but I don’t know how & I really hate acting like I enjoy being around a certain situation + I hate hanging out akwardly or cringing cuz I’m overthinking what to say to fit in.


