RODEBLUR
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on an old friend's discord server
there was this foid there who he referred to as a kid and said was 12 so of course i always tagged them and said weird shit just to piss him off
but after a while there i realized this foid was actually really nice and doesn't deserve to be targeted constantly so i got to know her a bit
the guys annoyed her a lot and when talking shit about her being a kid and what not it comes to light she is actually 14. anyways
i hanged with the guys in vc mostly but there was a point where some dude started streaming in 1080p 60fps and my third world tier internet couldn't even load that and they only talked about the stream, but this girl was streaming some weird ass game in another channel at a bearable quality alone so i went in there
she didn't talk at all tho, guess no mic but she just talked to me via text in general chat when she could since it was some kind of racing game
i got to know her, we exchanged questions and talked about things and what not
i would tell her things like stories from back home with my family and my experience with games, i told her i'm pretty shit at them and she said something like ''don't worry to me you are a pro'' or something
eventually she stops playing the game and offers to talk aloud in a voice call
i accept and we talk, she starts talking about how many cars her dad owns or something and asks me to guess i'm like idk 4 and she tells me it's upwards of 60 or something m like jesus man and she starts going into detail how she lives on some kind of farm and what types of cars her dad owns etc
anyways whole conversation, the day before some foid who had just joined the server through the owner advertising through omegle immediately decided to put my fucking face as her profile picture (cage) and demands the girl draws it, she accepts but the day after when i'm conversing with her she hasn't spoken or shown anything of it, she then says she tried to do it but deleted it because the hair was too hard and it was fucked up or something. i tell her she should try to do it again, not exposing that it's me obviously and this is where this thread connects to an older one where i showed the morph (not drawing) which might just be the worst i'd ever seen. she told me that she wanted to finish it tomorrow but i asked her for a preview and she showed me after insisting a lot, safe to say i don't need to see more.
i speak to a guy, also the server owner i bring up what she looks like for whatever reason, he asks me if i want a picture of her and i ask him if that's not her in her profile picture he says no, i'm dumbfounded and shows a real picture of her, her picture was a skinny e-girl emo type of girl and her real picture is a somewhat more on the heavy side normal girl. i don't like the type of girls from her profile picture too much but her personality won me over which is why i even bothered, her real self is more my type tho and i thought it would be an advantage because it means she would be easier to get and less likely to be in a relationship already
anyway, tomorrow comes, she says good morning to me first thing but i wake up much later almost at night, she is still online and i message her and she responds, asking me how i can sleep so long, then personal story about her sleep schedule i tell her mine's all over the place etc etc. boring shit
anyways, i go into vc with the boys and after an hour she asks me what i'm doing. i tell her i'm in vc with the boys. i tell her a little about how they're kind of being a dick to me so i can get sympathy points since she rambles to me sometimes how the owner is a dick to her. relatability is key
a couple of minutes later she tells me she's bored and ''idk if i should play mc''. i say shit maybe i could join as well. and she's like okay, she says hypixel ? and i'm like yeah fine i already have it added.
she tells me her username and we both boot up the game. i add her in the game and we go back and forth trying to find each other, i tell her how i'm very inexperienced and have never played any hypixel game which is true, the only reason i even had it on my quick join was to stalk my oneitis and her friends. she creates a party and warps me to her world and we finally meet. she tells me that i have such a cute skin and i tell her i made it myself, this is true.
anyways, she tells me to choose a game i say i don't even know this damn place she suggests bedwars i'm like aight fine.
we are now in the lobby, and she tells me, ''aww you look so shy'' or something. we spawn and she tells me the basics, i understand it quite quickly and start playing some bedwars with her. she dies first and i am left alone to try to win the game, there was only 1 other team left.
eventually i am ambushed by 2 maxxed out guys and die instantly. she tells me that i'm a pro player after this. eventually she suggests making the server owner play too, i tell her why not go ahead. we play together and it's pretty fun. anyways, she says she wants to take a break, i've grown tired of playing bedwars and i suggest playing skyblock instead. the guy agrees and creates a co-op.
he later suggests to let another guy join the co-op and i agree again. the first thing i do in the world is build a swastika. eventually other guy joins and we run around a bit, shit is boring af so i suggest letting them play on my creative server where there is a big world. they say that is boring but i carry them along anyway. the main guy tells me to hurry up a lot, eventually i get it to work and he joins, other guy joins later too. the first thing they do is destroy shit. other guy starts building some sort of redstone tnt contraption. i let them do their thing, this goes on for a while.
eventually guy 1 leaves and not a second after guy 2 also has to coincidentally leave. not a sign of the girl being back from her break by now. i close the minecraft and eventually she pops up in a vc channel, i come in and she says hey to me in dms. i say hey back ask her what she's doing, asks me back, tell her i played some minecraft give some details whatever whatever, she tells me she can talk if i don't want to text and again i accept.
at some point the main guy joins and for whatever reason he's speaking very quietly because his mom will wake up if he speaks up or something. initially neither of us can hear him but he gets closer to the mic and continues speaking in the tone. we all adopt this tone eventually for whatever reason. i can't seem to get a conversation off the ground with the girl like yesterday so i have to resort to the good old talking about how dead the conversation is, to which she agrees.
big silence, and then i rememeber her photo. i ask her if that's her in the photo, and she goes ''uhhhh'' for a bit and thinks for a while but eventually tells me that's not her in the picture. i ask her why she doesn't user her own photo and after some grinding she says because she is ugly, i say noooo and she says yes or something i say something stupid like it can't be because there are no ugly people from sweden. later, second part of the conversation is asking a bunch of sex-related questions so i ask her opinion on porn, which is not that weird of a question because everything is ironic and funny in this server climate.
she doesn't answer i think and i move on to asking her sexuality, the guy says she's bi which is red flag number one, but she doesn't respond and says she doesn't know, i ask her how tf she doesn't know, u know if u fucking see a guy and go DAMN SON or you see a girl and drool over her big ass titties.
anyways, still no response to this, but eventually she says she's ''bi at the moment'', whatever the fuck that means. i ask a normie question to both people there like how many kids they want, she says she wants 1-2 which is a normie fucking answer which i of course questioned because that shit is lame as fuck and i experienced it firsthand. she then asks me how many i'd want, to which i truthfully respond 7 or something and they all go wow or idfk .
we then get onto relationships and she says she has had 2 relationships before or something, i ask the guy and then i realize the relationship he is in and i'm like god fucking damn it i'm all alone again she's 14 had 2 relationships before and i'm here at 17 fucking completely dry.
she then says something like i probably shouldn't say this but i am taken rn, with this person for almost a year or something, i'm like god fucking damnit are you serious, she is the fucking average overweight normie girl and has a yearlong relationship at fucking 14 holy shit man.
anyways since we were asking each other questions in the vc taking turns she asks me what i would want my ideal bf/gf to look like. i firstly make it clear i am exclusively heterosexual and then i tell her my type is a white girl with blonde hair, optionally blue eyes and that, idc about height or weight. just the generic cute blonde girl basically type. anyways, she says ''aww'', and then says she kinda looks like that, i'm like really, and she says yes and i tell her damn i'm intrigued but i shouldn't ask further because i know you're taken and shit, she says maybe i can see a pic of her someday, not realizing i had already seen her, her hair appeared slightly curly and light brownish tho. maybe she had dyed it later.
in any case, she tells me in 2 days she will send me picture, i ask her why 2 days what happens in 2 days and she says in 2 days i will send you picture i'm like ok fine. the vc eventually dies and most people go to sleep and whatever. this is where the story is left off. she's a very nice girl but i have no business anymore messin with someone who got a bf, wasting my goddamn time. i'm gonna obviously give her a lot less attention but this is where the story subject comes in: i have bounced back to my old oneitis yet again. she distracted me but made me feel good but it all ended fucked up and now i'm back to square 1 with you know who. goddamn man
on an old friend's discord server
there was this foid there who he referred to as a kid and said was 12 so of course i always tagged them and said weird shit just to piss him off
but after a while there i realized this foid was actually really nice and doesn't deserve to be targeted constantly so i got to know her a bit
the guys annoyed her a lot and when talking shit about her being a kid and what not it comes to light she is actually 14. anyways
i hanged with the guys in vc mostly but there was a point where some dude started streaming in 1080p 60fps and my third world tier internet couldn't even load that and they only talked about the stream, but this girl was streaming some weird ass game in another channel at a bearable quality alone so i went in there
she didn't talk at all tho, guess no mic but she just talked to me via text in general chat when she could since it was some kind of racing game
i got to know her, we exchanged questions and talked about things and what not
i would tell her things like stories from back home with my family and my experience with games, i told her i'm pretty shit at them and she said something like ''don't worry to me you are a pro'' or something
eventually she stops playing the game and offers to talk aloud in a voice call
i accept and we talk, she starts talking about how many cars her dad owns or something and asks me to guess i'm like idk 4 and she tells me it's upwards of 60 or something m like jesus man and she starts going into detail how she lives on some kind of farm and what types of cars her dad owns etc
anyways whole conversation, the day before some foid who had just joined the server through the owner advertising through omegle immediately decided to put my fucking face as her profile picture (cage) and demands the girl draws it, she accepts but the day after when i'm conversing with her she hasn't spoken or shown anything of it, she then says she tried to do it but deleted it because the hair was too hard and it was fucked up or something. i tell her she should try to do it again, not exposing that it's me obviously and this is where this thread connects to an older one where i showed the morph (not drawing) which might just be the worst i'd ever seen. she told me that she wanted to finish it tomorrow but i asked her for a preview and she showed me after insisting a lot, safe to say i don't need to see more.
i speak to a guy, also the server owner i bring up what she looks like for whatever reason, he asks me if i want a picture of her and i ask him if that's not her in her profile picture he says no, i'm dumbfounded and shows a real picture of her, her picture was a skinny e-girl emo type of girl and her real picture is a somewhat more on the heavy side normal girl. i don't like the type of girls from her profile picture too much but her personality won me over which is why i even bothered, her real self is more my type tho and i thought it would be an advantage because it means she would be easier to get and less likely to be in a relationship already
anyway, tomorrow comes, she says good morning to me first thing but i wake up much later almost at night, she is still online and i message her and she responds, asking me how i can sleep so long, then personal story about her sleep schedule i tell her mine's all over the place etc etc. boring shit
anyways, i go into vc with the boys and after an hour she asks me what i'm doing. i tell her i'm in vc with the boys. i tell her a little about how they're kind of being a dick to me so i can get sympathy points since she rambles to me sometimes how the owner is a dick to her. relatability is key
a couple of minutes later she tells me she's bored and ''idk if i should play mc''. i say shit maybe i could join as well. and she's like okay, she says hypixel ? and i'm like yeah fine i already have it added.
she tells me her username and we both boot up the game. i add her in the game and we go back and forth trying to find each other, i tell her how i'm very inexperienced and have never played any hypixel game which is true, the only reason i even had it on my quick join was to stalk my oneitis and her friends. she creates a party and warps me to her world and we finally meet. she tells me that i have such a cute skin and i tell her i made it myself, this is true.
anyways, she tells me to choose a game i say i don't even know this damn place she suggests bedwars i'm like aight fine.
we are now in the lobby, and she tells me, ''aww you look so shy'' or something. we spawn and she tells me the basics, i understand it quite quickly and start playing some bedwars with her. she dies first and i am left alone to try to win the game, there was only 1 other team left.
eventually i am ambushed by 2 maxxed out guys and die instantly. she tells me that i'm a pro player after this. eventually she suggests making the server owner play too, i tell her why not go ahead. we play together and it's pretty fun. anyways, she says she wants to take a break, i've grown tired of playing bedwars and i suggest playing skyblock instead. the guy agrees and creates a co-op.
he later suggests to let another guy join the co-op and i agree again. the first thing i do in the world is build a swastika. eventually other guy joins and we run around a bit, shit is boring af so i suggest letting them play on my creative server where there is a big world. they say that is boring but i carry them along anyway. the main guy tells me to hurry up a lot, eventually i get it to work and he joins, other guy joins later too. the first thing they do is destroy shit. other guy starts building some sort of redstone tnt contraption. i let them do their thing, this goes on for a while.
eventually guy 1 leaves and not a second after guy 2 also has to coincidentally leave. not a sign of the girl being back from her break by now. i close the minecraft and eventually she pops up in a vc channel, i come in and she says hey to me in dms. i say hey back ask her what she's doing, asks me back, tell her i played some minecraft give some details whatever whatever, she tells me she can talk if i don't want to text and again i accept.
at some point the main guy joins and for whatever reason he's speaking very quietly because his mom will wake up if he speaks up or something. initially neither of us can hear him but he gets closer to the mic and continues speaking in the tone. we all adopt this tone eventually for whatever reason. i can't seem to get a conversation off the ground with the girl like yesterday so i have to resort to the good old talking about how dead the conversation is, to which she agrees.
big silence, and then i rememeber her photo. i ask her if that's her in the photo, and she goes ''uhhhh'' for a bit and thinks for a while but eventually tells me that's not her in the picture. i ask her why she doesn't user her own photo and after some grinding she says because she is ugly, i say noooo and she says yes or something i say something stupid like it can't be because there are no ugly people from sweden. later, second part of the conversation is asking a bunch of sex-related questions so i ask her opinion on porn, which is not that weird of a question because everything is ironic and funny in this server climate.
she doesn't answer i think and i move on to asking her sexuality, the guy says she's bi which is red flag number one, but she doesn't respond and says she doesn't know, i ask her how tf she doesn't know, u know if u fucking see a guy and go DAMN SON or you see a girl and drool over her big ass titties.
anyways, still no response to this, but eventually she says she's ''bi at the moment'', whatever the fuck that means. i ask a normie question to both people there like how many kids they want, she says she wants 1-2 which is a normie fucking answer which i of course questioned because that shit is lame as fuck and i experienced it firsthand. she then asks me how many i'd want, to which i truthfully respond 7 or something and they all go wow or idfk .
we then get onto relationships and she says she has had 2 relationships before or something, i ask the guy and then i realize the relationship he is in and i'm like god fucking damn it i'm all alone again she's 14 had 2 relationships before and i'm here at 17 fucking completely dry.
she then says something like i probably shouldn't say this but i am taken rn, with this person for almost a year or something, i'm like god fucking damnit are you serious, she is the fucking average overweight normie girl and has a yearlong relationship at fucking 14 holy shit man.
anyways since we were asking each other questions in the vc taking turns she asks me what i would want my ideal bf/gf to look like. i firstly make it clear i am exclusively heterosexual and then i tell her my type is a white girl with blonde hair, optionally blue eyes and that, idc about height or weight. just the generic cute blonde girl basically type. anyways, she says ''aww'', and then says she kinda looks like that, i'm like really, and she says yes and i tell her damn i'm intrigued but i shouldn't ask further because i know you're taken and shit, she says maybe i can see a pic of her someday, not realizing i had already seen her, her hair appeared slightly curly and light brownish tho. maybe she had dyed it later.
in any case, she tells me in 2 days she will send me picture, i ask her why 2 days what happens in 2 days and she says in 2 days i will send you picture i'm like ok fine. the vc eventually dies and most people go to sleep and whatever. this is where the story is left off. she's a very nice girl but i have no business anymore messin with someone who got a bf, wasting my goddamn time. i'm gonna obviously give her a lot less attention but this is where the story subject comes in: i have bounced back to my old oneitis yet again. she distracted me but made me feel good but it all ended fucked up and now i'm back to square 1 with you know who. goddamn man
