almost slit my wrists at the barber today

[wateriswet]

for context, I've been leanmaxxing for about 3-4 months, went from 190 pounds to 165 @ 6 ft (I've been lifting for 2-3 years so I was bulked up, this is my first ever cut), at the same time I let my hair grow, used retina, told myself I would get a haircut when I get lean enough to put the final touch for the entire process. also I have been kind of avoiding mirrors the entire time because at one point I was checking like every 10 minutes like a retard, tryna see if my face got leaner. so I decided to cut back on it since it was causing unnecessary stress for me.


so today after seeing 165 on the scale, I decided this would be the day that I get the proper haircut, see where I stand and decide where to go from here. I arrived at the barber, the guy was super nice & professional. made it clear what i wanted, he understood well and gave me some recommendations , we agreed and he starts cutting.


as he's cutting my hair at the front, more of my face is slowly revealing, at one point he starts a small talk and asks me a couple of questions about school and shit, I open my mouth and start talking to him... but as soon as I start talking suddenly I notice how subhuman my face looks.
HOLY
FUCKING
SHIT.

I'm such a bloated subhuman, what the fuck? what was all the leanmaxxing for, all the times I was hungry as shit going on runs, sweating at the gym, refusing to eat high calorie foods, sticking to my diet, for absolutely 0 fucking results???????? I swear I almost had a fucking panic attack. as he's fixing the back of my hair with the trimmer, I glance at the scissors on the counter, think to myself: what's the fucking point anyway? none of this shit is gonna work out at the end of the day, just fucking end it here...

but of course I didn't because I decided way back that I never will no matter what. roping isn't the solution bhais, never go down without a fight, try your best, even if it doesn't work out at the end of the day, there are billions of ''copes'' you can keep yourself busy with. go queue up for a game of league, take a vacation to the far east, hang out with the boys, devote your life to becoming a hitman, sell drugs, produce beats, whatever it is. endless fucking void can never be worth it. never give up
have a great day.

unrelated midget drake

 

[Deleted member 9003]

Barbershop mirrors always make you look worse

 

[Deleted member 4645]

The midget Drake is really what made this thread worth reading tbh

 

[ThreadMatters]

drndrd

But looksmaxing by losing weight dont count do orbitslboxosteotomy with lefort3 or kys faggot

 

[some1h0peless]

 

[wateriswet]

Barbershop mirrors always make you look worse

I tried this cope, doesn't seem to work

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

Barbershop mirrors always make you look worse

Cope, copity, cope cope.

 

[some1h0peless]

Spoiler: remember.

This forum is hinged on the blackpill, which believes that looks are a very if not the most important aspect in life since they make or break your success at the social scene

This is the same reason the blackpill appeals to so many failures and losers that rot 24/7 in their basement. Instead of leading them to improve themselves in all aspects, it turns them into defeatist grumblers that give up on everything just because "their genetics predisposed them this way"​

 

[Deleted member 6382]

 

[JustAFewMM]

Brutality

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

I tried this cope, doesn't seem to work

Do you have any signs of a zygomatic arch? Ogee curve? Are your cheekbones high or lowset?

In my case, I have highset cheekbones but shitty fat distribution so it gives the bloated potato-cel. Maybe buccal fat removal is a potential solution? If you're boneless, then it's over. No leanness for your bones.

 

[EckhartTollemaxx]

Stay calm the average guy is very ugly so you're probably not that bad.

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

Spoiler: remember.

This forum is hinged on the blackpill, which believes that looks are a very if not the most important aspect in life since they make or break your success at the social scene

This is the same reason the blackpill appeals to so many failures and losers that rot 24/7 in their basement. Instead of leading them to improve themselves in all aspects, it turns them into defeatist grumblers that give up on everything just because "their genetics predisposed them this way"​

No, it's over.

 

[some1h0peless]

No, it's over.

 

[Mouthbreath]

when I'm talking my face looks completely structureless. It looks like I'm getting fucked in the ass and relax every muscle in my body somehow

 

[wateriswet]

Do you have any signs of a zygomatic arch? Ogee curve? Are your cheekbones high or lowset?

In my case, I have highset cheekbones but shitty fat distribution so it gives the bloated potato-cel. Maybe buccal fat removal is a potential solution? If you're boneless, then it's over. No leanness for your bones.

I have always had chubby cheeks as a kid despite being pretty skinny, my dad has them too.
But I had an appliance called MARPE at the age of 13-14 (pretty much MSE for kids whose suture hasn't closed yet) I suspect it made my already chubby cheeks worse by further widening my face. (My face is pretty wide), but on the other hand it had some benefits like improving my forward growth, widening zygos, better teeth and etc. I always have this debate in my head whether it was worth it or not. at the end of the day it doesn't really matter tbh, just improve what you have, I can't go back and stop myself from getting it so...

 

[Deleted member 7863]

when I'm talking my face looks completely structureless. It looks like I'm getting fucked in the ass and relax every muscle in my body somehow

Just never speak theory

 

[wateriswet]

when I'm talking my face looks completely structureless. It looks like I'm getting fucked in the ass and relax every muscle in my body somehow

couldn't relate more holy shit

 

[Lev Peshkov]

Thought your story was gonna be I teresting like you slipped on his razor or smth

 

[Deleted member 7863]

couldn't relate more holy shit

Maybe because When talking you arent clenching your jaw or some shit?

 

[Mouthbreath]

couldn't relate more holy shit

Maybe one has to talk with more intention, like actually tensing the facial muscles with every word one speaks. And looking straight in the other persons eyes or in this case straight into the mirror with confidence (maybe a cope, but I think confidence could make a difference when talking)

 

[Deleted member 4430]

 

[penis3]

you need bones to not be bloated

 

[EckhartTollemaxx]

Spoiler: remember.

This forum is hinged on the blackpill, which believes that looks are a very if not the most important aspect in life since they make or break your success at the social scene

This is the same reason the blackpill appeals to so many failures and losers that rot 24/7 in their basement. Instead of leading them to improve themselves in all aspects, it turns them into defeatist grumblers that give up on everything just because "their genetics predisposed them this way"​

This is the problem with blackpill. Seeing too much causes you to become worse than what you would've been if you hadn't thought about it and just lived in blissful ignorance, trying your best.

 

[Deleted member 7192]

I have always had chubby cheeks as a kid despite being pretty skinny, my dad has them too.
But I had an appliance called MARPE at the age of 13-14 (pretty much MSE for kids whose suture hasn't closed yet) I suspect it made my already chubby cheeks worse by further widening my face. (My face is pretty wide), but on the other hand it had some benefits like improving my forward growth, widening zygos, better teeth and etc. I always have this debate in my head whether it was worth it or not. at the end of the day it doesn't really matter tbh, just improve what you have, I can't go back and stop myself from getting it so...

what bodyfat are you 12% or death. is the fat on your stomach as thin as the fat on the back of your hand?

 

[wateriswet]

definitely not that lean. I'd say I'm around 15% tho still I shouldn't be this bloated.