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if you are retard or an autistic w 0 empathy or a nigger that cant relate dont interact w this post. if you do you are gay and are coming out doing so.
if you have +100 IQ we can proceed
long story short i've gone through some stuff in my life and it kinda game me suicidal thoughts but since i aint no bitch i thug ts out and i said that maybe if i had +10k $ on my banck accunt then i wouldnt want to kms. so thats what i did.
i mixed drugs + 10h of minimum slavewage job + very bad sleeping habits AND EATING HABITS + raves etc.
completally neglecting myself and kept my mind busy to i didnt had to deal w my thoughts.
i've always been well built i used to go to the gym n being healthy and sober n shi before. not like a body builder but an althetic kind of guy
anyway i saved the money in less than a year which i am very proud of bc no one helped me and doing ts in europe is very difficult.
my brain is still fucked but fuck it. the thing is that i lost like 15kg IN LESS THAN 1 year. (didnt even know that was possible)
i probably was bind by it bc i look at my self everyday in the mirror and i never had problems slaying or cheatin on my nih even lookin anorexic and unhealty.
BUT my foid said i look 'slighly' disgusting bc she can see my ribs and my pelvis bone. and then i called her nigger. she is htn so its fine if she talks about apperence and looks. at the moment she didnt understand that she just bodyshamed me but she proceeded to tell me she loved me and all that shi
i dont really care that much bc im not insecure abt my looks and my appearence, but why would she say that, i love that bitch. how dare is she saying that to me after all the work and the quality of life i gave her in that year.
all the money i wasnt saving or spending in normal life stuff i was spendin mainly on her. (i cheat very occasionally and i never paid for drugs)
i cant blame her for not knowing im mentally not good and i've been in derealization for 1 year+ working like a robot bc i would never talk about whats inside me w anyone. imagin a foid. but she supposed to be empathic, she used to.
now lets be clear, i dont have any hard feelings about that. i know i have to better my self and work on myself to be fix my shi and bla bla bla, im doing what i need to do.
i genuinly have some eating problem. its a genuine mental problem, my brain does not work like yours. so you cant say im a bih bc i cant 'just lift the spoon' or 'being picky or whatever' its a real mental problem so if you are an iqlet and cant understand that kys.
what bothers me is that she is not sensitive abt that. i dont think she knows the problem on what she said.
so what i did is this: i took her phone and sterted interacting a lot of eating disorder posts on tiktok and instagram (ofc without leaving ay trace behind)
now her fyp will occasionally hook her up with some videos that will sensibilize her towards this topic.
i did this multiple times with diffrent things
i did it months ago with the 'i love my bf' side of tiktok
i did it with the 'loyal' side of tiktok and she been loyal
i dit it with the 'study instead of havin fun' side of titok and she been doing very good at uni
i did it with a lof of diffrent topics shaping her mind the way i wanted on some real mind control shit.
i question myself if this is sadic or psycho or too much bc i dont think is a good thing to do so. i believe every one should have the freedom to think and believe what they want so why should i come and do some stuff like that to control them if i am a nigger human like anyone else.
but i mean every foid i've ever meet was an iqlet and they would genuinly get easly brainwashed by tiktok onlyfans bitched into bad stuff yk.
and i dont mind other foids choosing who to listen to or doing what they want as anyone is free to do what they want in their life.
but i love my foid, so idk... i dont want her to be like the others. iykwim
anyway if what i did was bad the error is already done. and maybe i have communication skils, but idc. id rather doing so than have a conversation about my problems w a foid.
i am conflicted.
i think i am patriarcally brainwashed fag, thinking my girl would lose respect for me if i tell her that what she said was a bad thing.
so we are all brainwashed.
its a brainwashing circle jerk.
tell me what you think pls.
if you have +100 IQ we can proceed
long story short i've gone through some stuff in my life and it kinda game me suicidal thoughts but since i aint no bitch i thug ts out and i said that maybe if i had +10k $ on my banck accunt then i wouldnt want to kms. so thats what i did.
i mixed drugs + 10h of minimum slavewage job + very bad sleeping habits AND EATING HABITS + raves etc.
completally neglecting myself and kept my mind busy to i didnt had to deal w my thoughts.
i've always been well built i used to go to the gym n being healthy and sober n shi before. not like a body builder but an althetic kind of guy
anyway i saved the money in less than a year which i am very proud of bc no one helped me and doing ts in europe is very difficult.
my brain is still fucked but fuck it. the thing is that i lost like 15kg IN LESS THAN 1 year. (didnt even know that was possible)
i probably was bind by it bc i look at my self everyday in the mirror and i never had problems slaying or cheatin on my nih even lookin anorexic and unhealty.
BUT my foid said i look 'slighly' disgusting bc she can see my ribs and my pelvis bone. and then i called her nigger. she is htn so its fine if she talks about apperence and looks. at the moment she didnt understand that she just bodyshamed me but she proceeded to tell me she loved me and all that shi
i dont really care that much bc im not insecure abt my looks and my appearence, but why would she say that, i love that bitch. how dare is she saying that to me after all the work and the quality of life i gave her in that year.
all the money i wasnt saving or spending in normal life stuff i was spendin mainly on her. (i cheat very occasionally and i never paid for drugs)
i cant blame her for not knowing im mentally not good and i've been in derealization for 1 year+ working like a robot bc i would never talk about whats inside me w anyone. imagin a foid. but she supposed to be empathic, she used to.
now lets be clear, i dont have any hard feelings about that. i know i have to better my self and work on myself to be fix my shi and bla bla bla, im doing what i need to do.
i genuinly have some eating problem. its a genuine mental problem, my brain does not work like yours. so you cant say im a bih bc i cant 'just lift the spoon' or 'being picky or whatever' its a real mental problem so if you are an iqlet and cant understand that kys.
what bothers me is that she is not sensitive abt that. i dont think she knows the problem on what she said.
so what i did is this: i took her phone and sterted interacting a lot of eating disorder posts on tiktok and instagram (ofc without leaving ay trace behind)
now her fyp will occasionally hook her up with some videos that will sensibilize her towards this topic.
i did this multiple times with diffrent things
i did it months ago with the 'i love my bf' side of tiktok
i did it with the 'loyal' side of tiktok and she been loyal
i dit it with the 'study instead of havin fun' side of titok and she been doing very good at uni
i did it with a lof of diffrent topics shaping her mind the way i wanted on some real mind control shit.
i question myself if this is sadic or psycho or too much bc i dont think is a good thing to do so. i believe every one should have the freedom to think and believe what they want so why should i come and do some stuff like that to control them if i am a nigger human like anyone else.
but i mean every foid i've ever meet was an iqlet and they would genuinly get easly brainwashed by tiktok onlyfans bitched into bad stuff yk.
and i dont mind other foids choosing who to listen to or doing what they want as anyone is free to do what they want in their life.
but i love my foid, so idk... i dont want her to be like the others. iykwim
anyway if what i did was bad the error is already done. and maybe i have communication skils, but idc. id rather doing so than have a conversation about my problems w a foid.
i am conflicted.
i think i am patriarcally brainwashed fag, thinking my girl would lose respect for me if i tell her that what she said was a bad thing.
so we are all brainwashed.
its a brainwashing circle jerk.
tell me what you think pls.
kissed
