Britmaxxer
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dead serious.
before covid I was blackpilled but still keen as fuck.
lifting heavy everyday, working hard, was motivated to make my social skills better and get laid. I had festivals, travelling, a whole bunch of NT shit planned to do as well as starting university. I felt like life was really beginning. occasionally I had some bouts of insecurity over looks but i was actually talking to girls way more and getting a lot more play.
now three years later after all the shit that went on in covid I feel like an oldcel husk who has no youth left, all I am doing this summer is working and gaining IT qualifications. i’m not even as motivated for the gym and I have gone from having 30 friends and massive social circle to like 3 friends who I rarely talk to. no one messaged me on my birthday this year but a couple years ago people would be posting me on their snapchat stories saying happy birthday.
I was invited to go to Boomtown (UK edm festival) buy the normies I know at university but I immediately said no because my drive to socially ascend has evaporated.
I’m still in the first half of my twenties and the only thing that keeps me going is the thought of earning money and getting a nice place and comfy IT job I can rot in peace at
am I depressed or has this happened to anyone else since the golden days of 2019.
before covid I was blackpilled but still keen as fuck.
lifting heavy everyday, working hard, was motivated to make my social skills better and get laid. I had festivals, travelling, a whole bunch of NT shit planned to do as well as starting university. I felt like life was really beginning. occasionally I had some bouts of insecurity over looks but i was actually talking to girls way more and getting a lot more play.
now three years later after all the shit that went on in covid I feel like an oldcel husk who has no youth left, all I am doing this summer is working and gaining IT qualifications. i’m not even as motivated for the gym and I have gone from having 30 friends and massive social circle to like 3 friends who I rarely talk to. no one messaged me on my birthday this year but a couple years ago people would be posting me on their snapchat stories saying happy birthday.
I was invited to go to Boomtown (UK edm festival) buy the normies I know at university but I immediately said no because my drive to socially ascend has evaporated.
I’m still in the first half of my twenties and the only thing that keeps me going is the thought of earning money and getting a nice place and comfy IT job I can rot in peace at
am I depressed or has this happened to anyone else since the golden days of 2019.