anyone else feel like they have aged a decade in the past 3 years?

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dead serious.

before covid I was blackpilled but still keen as fuck.

lifting heavy everyday, working hard, was motivated to make my social skills better and get laid. I had festivals, travelling, a whole bunch of NT shit planned to do as well as starting university. I felt like life was really beginning. occasionally I had some bouts of insecurity over looks but i was actually talking to girls way more and getting a lot more play.

now three years later after all the shit that went on in covid I feel like an oldcel husk who has no youth left, all I am doing this summer is working and gaining IT qualifications. i’m not even as motivated for the gym and I have gone from having 30 friends and massive social circle to like 3 friends who I rarely talk to. no one messaged me on my birthday this year but a couple years ago people would be posting me on their snapchat stories saying happy birthday.

I was invited to go to Boomtown (UK edm festival) buy the normies I know at university but I immediately said no because my drive to socially ascend has evaporated.

I’m still in the first half of my twenties and the only thing that keeps me going is the thought of earning money and getting a nice place and comfy IT job I can rot in peace at

am I depressed or has this happened to anyone else since the golden days of 2019.
 
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No. My body has from addictions but that’s only physical

Mentally I’m forever in a high school mentality
 
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No. My body has from addictions but that’s only physical

Mentally I’m forever in a high school mentality
yeah physically i am severely worn down.

I have done massive damage to my body in the past few years through addictions and harsh environments

I need to be suspended in a tank of liquid like boba fett or just have some time in my life doing truly nothing unironically

I sleep for up to 15 hours at the weekends I am frail as fuck
 
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yeah physically i am severely worn down.

I have done massive damage to my body in the past few years through addictions and harsh environments

I need to be suspended in a tank of liquid like boba fett or just have some time in my life doing truly nothing unironically

I sleep for up to 15 hours at the weekends I am frail as fuck
What are your addictions / drug abuses?

For me nicotine ruined my cardio/ alcohol fucked me up/ drank 10 standard drinks a night for 2 months straight
 
What are your addictions / drug abuses?

For me nicotine ruined my cardio/ alcohol fucked me up/ drank 10 standard drinks a night for 2 months straight
ketamine
mdma
steroids
cocaine
nicotine
painkillers

but these are minor, the things that had the worst effect of me was alcohol abuse and a period of insane stimulant abuse. daily modafinil + coffee, and at weekends I would sometimes add coke or MDMA to that, whilst in modafinil. drinking and smoking also on top of course. that went on for about 4 months straight.

as for drinking, I would blackout three times a week minimum and always have a few cans a day and got to the point I was shaking constantly.

still managed to do ok in my degree the whole time if you can believe it

luckily I have kicked all of it aside from nicotine, but trust me my health is absolute shit. I used to be indestructible and physically elite tbh. i hope I can get back to how I was but I think it might take a couple of years.
 
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ketamine
mdma
steroids
cocaine
nicotine
painkillers

but these are minor, the things that had the worst effect of me was alcohol abuse and a period of insane stimulant abuse. daily modafinil + coffee, and at weekends I would sometimes add coke or MDMA to that, whilst in modafinil. drinking and smoking also on top of course. that went on for about 4 months straight.

as for drinking, I would blackout three times a week minimum and always have a few cans a day and got to the point I was shaking constantly.

still managed to do ok in my degree the whole time if you can believe it

luckily I have kicked all of it aside from nicotine, but trust me my health is absolute shit. I used to be indestructible and physically elite tbh. i hope I can get back to how I was but I think it might take a couple of years.
reading this out loud should I see a psychologist for this kind of behaviours?
 
yeah it feels like I just got out of prison. I worked hard but im trying to bring that 2019 vibe back
 
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Should a coulda woulda
 
Me too, I felt so motivated and determined in 2019.
 
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Just saw you're uk. Countries a shithole right now, so not surprising you cba.
 
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ketamine
mdma
steroids
cocaine
nicotine
painkillers
thats whats causing it.

I have always been ugly and old looking so even if I did drugs it would be irrelevant cause I would look like a crack addict either way
 
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ketamine
mdma
steroids
cocaine
nicotine
painkillers

but these are minor, the things that had the worst effect of me was alcohol abuse and a period of insane stimulant abuse. daily modafinil + coffee, and at weekends I would sometimes add coke or MDMA to that, whilst in modafinil. drinking and smoking also on top of course. that went on for about 4 months straight.

as for drinking, I would blackout three times a week minimum and always have a few cans a day and got to the point I was shaking constantly.

still managed to do ok in my degree the whole time if you can believe it

luckily I have kicked all of it aside from nicotine, but trust me my health is absolute shit. I used to be indestructible and physically elite tbh. i hope I can get back to how I was but I think it might take a couple of years.
Modafinil+coffee ruined your health more than the other things?
 
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Modafinil+coffee ruined your health more than the other things?
modafinil did more damage as it was combined with all the other stuff, so the oxidative stress levels were insane. my body had at least a high dose of modafinil in it at all times.

physically, alcohol did the most damage by far

all the other crap just mixed together to fry my brain
 
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thats whats causing it.

I have always been ugly and old looking so even if I did drugs it would be irrelevant cause I would look like a crack addict either way
yea I realised way too late that drugs are major cope. im slowly getting back to where I was but the damage is done.
 
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yea I realised way too late that drugs are major cope. im slowly getting back to where I was but the damage is done.
yeah pretty much permanent 😢
 
I am an 80 year old man
 
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I have aged many years due to my acne
 
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Yes. Stress, sleep deprivation and starvation has unironically accelerated my puberty, gave me slight gyno/bad fat distribution, aged my skin very badly (did lots of tanning 2 years ago which was dumb aswell, literally woke up and went to the sun to tan jfl no food even). This extreme stress has been basically non stop since 2016. All started from bullying in 6th grade, then went to more extreme bullying, then isolation, discord/porn/furry pipeline, then got better and times were very good... Then I got worse and starved, didn't sleep, didn't see the sun for weeks at a time... Then I had psychiatric abuse and mental abuse from older people... I have been abused a lot and let it happen, that's the worse part

I don't know how to recover. Sometimes I feel extremely drained and I'm very anxious. I want to cry. I feel like I haven't slept in years sometimes. Very hard to live like this


All this aged me a lot and probably my bone age is older now and growth plates more closed then need to be because of higher Estrogen from stress
Skin very bad
 
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Yes. Stress, sleep deprivation and starvation has unironically accelerated my puberty, gave me slight gyno/bad fat distribution, aged my skin very badly (did lots of tanning 2 years ago which was dumb aswell, literally woke up and went to the sun to tan jfl no food even). This extreme stress has been basically non stop since 2016. All started from bullying in 6th grade, then went to more extreme bullying, then isolation, discord/porn/furry pipeline, then got better and times were very good... Then I got worse and starved, didn't sleep, didn't see the sun for weeks at a time... Then I had psychiatric abuse and mental abuse from older people... I have been abused a lot and let it happen, that's the worse part

I don't know how to recover. Sometimes I feel extremely drained and I'm very anxious. I want to cry. I feel like I haven't slept in years sometimes. Very hard to live like this


All this aged me a lot and probably my bone age is older now and growth plates more closed then need to be because of higher Estrogen from stress
Skin very bad
im sorry to hear this has happened to you. tretinoin cream can rejuvenate your face, otherwise, I hope you can find a low-cortisol environment to finally relax in. maybe take a holiday somewhere.
 
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im sorry to hear this has happened to you. tretinoin cream can rejuvenate your face, otherwise, I hope you can find a low-cortisol environment to finally relax in. maybe take a holiday somewhere.
Yeah I'm thinking about it, along with Vitamin C serums etc.
skincare confuses me a lot tbh aside from pharmaceutical side of it, I've yet to start it. I'm also hesitant, have heard Tret can go semi-systematic, gotta see if that can be harmful to my IGF-1 levels.

Eating raw beef liver helps a ton for some reason, makes my skin awesome for 1-2 days.

I heard holidays can really snap you out of some shit, just going into a new environment is very powerful
And thank you man. Someday. at least I have some good people in my life like my brother and father...

Sadly the bone aging cant be undone


And hey, at the very least I'm able bodied and free and can kill myself whenever I want to.
 
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