innerlight00
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So I don’t got OCD in the typical way it’s portrayed in media where i have to count everything and do actions multiple times.
My ocd is mainly about my health. And/or worrying that something bad is gonna happen.
So basically i am extremely germaphobic. Like to the point where today i was gonna go to the gym, but then a homeless man simply brushed my shoulder and i got extremely stressed and felt like i had to go home and shower and wash all my clothes. I also hate sitting on public busses and trains.
But i also struggle with worrying bad stuff will happen to me. I am constantly stressed about if im gonna develop some random sickness or illness ive never heard of or some accident is gonna happen or anything. Anything in life i worry about the miniscule chance something bad can happen.
Im fucking tired of this bullshit. It is so incredibly tiring to constantly be a slave to my mind and not be able to think about anything else other than the negative. Im so angry at myself and my brain for being like this. I dont give a fuck anymore. Im angry at myself. They say u cant cure OCD but i dont give a fuck. I will force myself to not worry whether i like it or not. I will force myself to stop being germaphobic and washing my hands a milliom times a day. Mark my fucking words i will rewire my brain to be normal if its the last thing i do.
My ocd is mainly about my health. And/or worrying that something bad is gonna happen.
So basically i am extremely germaphobic. Like to the point where today i was gonna go to the gym, but then a homeless man simply brushed my shoulder and i got extremely stressed and felt like i had to go home and shower and wash all my clothes. I also hate sitting on public busses and trains.
But i also struggle with worrying bad stuff will happen to me. I am constantly stressed about if im gonna develop some random sickness or illness ive never heard of or some accident is gonna happen or anything. Anything in life i worry about the miniscule chance something bad can happen.
Im fucking tired of this bullshit. It is so incredibly tiring to constantly be a slave to my mind and not be able to think about anything else other than the negative. Im so angry at myself and my brain for being like this. I dont give a fuck anymore. Im angry at myself. They say u cant cure OCD but i dont give a fuck. I will force myself to not worry whether i like it or not. I will force myself to stop being germaphobic and washing my hands a milliom times a day. Mark my fucking words i will rewire my brain to be normal if its the last thing i do.