Anyone else struggle with OCD?

[innerlight00]

So I don’t got OCD in the typical way it’s portrayed in media where i have to count everything and do actions multiple times.

My ocd is mainly about my health. And/or worrying that something bad is gonna happen.

So basically i am extremely germaphobic. Like to the point where today i was gonna go to the gym, but then a homeless man simply brushed my shoulder and i got extremely stressed and felt like i had to go home and shower and wash all my clothes. I also hate sitting on public busses and trains.

But i also struggle with worrying bad stuff will happen to me. I am constantly stressed about if im gonna develop some random sickness or illness ive never heard of or some accident is gonna happen or anything. Anything in life i worry about the miniscule chance something bad can happen.

Im fucking tired of this bullshit. It is so incredibly tiring to constantly be a slave to my mind and not be able to think about anything else other than the negative. Im so angry at myself and my brain for being like this. I dont give a fuck anymore. Im angry at myself. They say u cant cure OCD but i dont give a fuck. I will force myself to not worry whether i like it or not. I will force myself to stop being germaphobic and washing my hands a milliom times a day. Mark my fucking words i will rewire my brain to be normal if its the last thing i do.

 

[Surfsup]

Are u non NT cause of this

 

[innerlight00]

Are u non NT cause of this

Nah. Other than that im completely normal and i would even say a bit above avarage when it comes to holding conversations and stuff. Only problem is some people think im a bit weird when i dont wanna shake hands all the time or hug and stuff but other than that nah. I also developed this ocd later in life unfortunately

 

[Surfsup]

Nah. Other than that im completely normal and i would even say a bit above avarage when it comes to holding conversations and stuff. Only problem is some people think im a bit weird when i dont wanna shake hands all the time or hug and stuff but other than that nah. I also developed this ocd later in life unfortunately

I also have ocd when I shower
Especially washing my hair
I feel like I missed a spot and spend way too long

 

[innerlight00]

It fucking sucks man. Mine also started with small stuff like than and spread to other aspects of life. It literally feels like im a slave to my own brain and brainwashed by my own brain to do what it says. Its hard to explain.

But the best advice i could give u is DO NOT FEED INTO IT. Trust me my ocd also started with just washing my hands a bit longer until it spiraled. Whatever u do try ur best to ignure ur brain. The more u feed it the worse it becomes. Do the opposite of what ur brain says. But its easier said than done

 

[blimp]

OCD more like ODNR

 

[innerlight00]

Whats odnr stand for i cant figure it out

 

[NoReedemingFeature]

Yes it was very severe and dementing for me but I managed to tame it and not care but still retain the anxious thought process in many regards, not a bad thing though it helps me be careful and think things through

 

[innerlight00]

Yes it was very severe and dementing for me but I managed to tame it and not care but still retain the anxious thought process in many regards, not a bad thing though it helps me be careful and think things through

Did you do anything to be able to tame it? If so please tell me how.

 

[NoReedemingFeature]

Did you do anything to be able to tame it? If so please tell me how.

It was a while ago but I think you just let the thoughts pass and ignore them, easier said than done though. That in itself could be bad if you intentionally put focus on getting rid of them, just let it happen, heavy breathing to alleviate anxiety and condition yourself to not act out the compulsion for relief but simply pull through the anxiety and over time It'll get lesser and you won't feel as much need to do your compulsion and deal with whatever impulses.

 

[carved]

yea i have, not diagnosed yet but no way this is normal behavior, I'm talking to my therapist about it

 

[lykoris]

So I don’t got OCD in the typical way it’s portrayed in media where i have to count everything and do actions multiple times.

My ocd is mainly about my health. And/or worrying that something bad is gonna happen.

So basically i am extremely germaphobic. Like to the point where today i was gonna go to the gym, but then a homeless man simply brushed my shoulder and i got extremely stressed and felt like i had to go home and shower and wash all my clothes. I also hate sitting on public busses and trains.

But i also struggle with worrying bad stuff will happen to me. I am constantly stressed about if im gonna develop some random sickness or illness ive never heard of or some accident is gonna happen or anything. Anything in life i worry about the miniscule chance something bad can happen.

Im fucking tired of this bullshit. It is so incredibly tiring to constantly be a slave to my mind and not be able to think about anything else other than the negative. Im so angry at myself and my brain for being like this. I dont give a fuck anymore. Im angry at myself. They say u cant cure OCD but i dont give a fuck. I will force myself to not worry whether i like it or not. I will force myself to stop being germaphobic and washing my hands a milliom times a day. Mark my fucking words i will rewire my brain to be normal if its the last thing i do.

OCD ASD ADHD and NPD here. I struggle with my OCD a lot - But for me its mostly thoughts about abusing others(not necessarily only rape but its been in my head before)