Anyone else struggle with OCD?

[innerlight00]

So I don’t got OCD in the typical way it’s portrayed in media where i have to count everything and do actions multiple times.

My ocd is mainly about my health. And/or worrying that something bad is gonna happen.

So basically i am extremely germaphobic. Like to the point where today i was gonna go to the gym, but then a homeless man simply brushed my shoulder and i got extremely stressed and felt like i had to go home and shower and wash all my clothes. I also hate sitting on public busses and trains.

But i also struggle with worrying bad stuff will happen to me. I am constantly stressed about if im gonna develop some random sickness or illness ive never heard of or some accident is gonna happen or anything. Anything in life i worry about the miniscule chance something bad can happen.

Im fucking tired of this bullshit. It is so incredibly tiring to constantly be a slave to my mind and not be able to think about anything else other than the negative. Im so angry at myself and my brain for being like this. I dont give a fuck anymore. Im angry at myself. They say u cant cure OCD but i dont give a fuck. I will force myself to not worry whether i like it or not. I will force myself to stop being germaphobic and washing my hands a milliom times a day. Mark my fucking words i will rewire my brain to be normal if its the last thing i do.

 

[Surfsup]

Are u non NT cause of this

 

[innerlight00]

Are u non NT cause of this

Nah. Other than that im completely normal and i would even say a bit above avarage when it comes to holding conversations and stuff. Only problem is some people think im a bit weird when i dont wanna shake hands all the time or hug and stuff but other than that nah. I also developed this ocd later in life unfortunately

 

[Surfsup]

Nah. Other than that im completely normal and i would even say a bit above avarage when it comes to holding conversations and stuff. Only problem is some people think im a bit weird when i dont wanna shake hands all the time or hug and stuff but other than that nah. I also developed this ocd later in life unfortunately

I also have ocd when I shower
Especially washing my hair
I feel like I missed a spot and spend way too long

 

[innerlight00]

It fucking sucks man. Mine also started with small stuff like than and spread to other aspects of life. It literally feels like im a slave to my own brain and brainwashed by my own brain to do what it says. Its hard to explain.

But the best advice i could give u is DO NOT FEED INTO IT. Trust me my ocd also started with just washing my hands a bit longer until it spiraled. Whatever u do try ur best to ignure ur brain. The more u feed it the worse it becomes. Do the opposite of what ur brain says. But its easier said than done

 

[blimp]

OCD more like ODNR

 

[innerlight00]

Whats odnr stand for i cant figure it out

 

[innerlight00]

Yes it was very severe and dementing for me but I managed to tame it and not care but still retain the anxious thought process in many regards, not a bad thing though it helps me be careful and think things through

Did you do anything to be able to tame it? If so please tell me how.

 

[carved]

yea i have, not diagnosed yet but no way this is normal behavior, I'm talking to my therapist about it

 

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So I don’t got OCD in the typical way it’s portrayed in media where i have to count everything and do actions multiple times.

My ocd is mainly about my health. And/or worrying that something bad is gonna happen.

So basically i am extremely germaphobic. Like to the point where today i was gonna go to the gym, but then a homeless man simply brushed my shoulder and i got extremely stressed and felt like i had to go home and shower and wash all my clothes. I also hate sitting on public busses and trains.

But i also struggle with worrying bad stuff will happen to me. I am constantly stressed about if im gonna develop some random sickness or illness ive never heard of or some accident is gonna happen or anything. Anything in life i worry about the miniscule chance something bad can happen.

Im fucking tired of this bullshit. It is so incredibly tiring to constantly be a slave to my mind and not be able to think about anything else other than the negative. Im so angry at myself and my brain for being like this. I dont give a fuck anymore. Im angry at myself. They say u cant cure OCD but i dont give a fuck. I will force myself to not worry whether i like it or not. I will force myself to stop being germaphobic and washing my hands a milliom times a day. Mark my fucking words i will rewire my brain to be normal if its the last thing i do.

OCD ASD ADHD and NPD here. I struggle with my OCD a lot - But for me its mostly thoughts about abusing others(not necessarily only rape but its been in my head before)