Alexg_lover
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Kinda serious post, but I have always struggled with this shit. I used to be able to keep it under control when I had lots of shit I HAD to do every day, but university life fucked me. I have way too much control over every day life, and because I'm a chud and don't have any friends in uni, I've essentially been home all day. I have always very actively tried to avoid bpa, bps, phalates, microplastics, etc, but now it has gotten out of control. I'm tryna read some math and physics but my sleep schedule is fucked and I always stress about getting some substances in my bed so I can't even fucking fix it. Like if I touch a reciept I have to wash my hands like 7 times, and even then I wont touch anything for hours. If I touch some polyester fabric I have to shower and even showering takes ages because I stress about the soap being on my body. I already go to a psychatrist for various reasons, she is suggesting like ocd group sessions, but I'd rather kms than go to that retarded shit. Idk how to fix this though.... like most people with health anxiety worry about dying. I don't really gaf, I just don't want to impair my current life. Like I'd rather die in a car crash than get 2 fingers chopped off istg. Asking here because normal people are usually retards. I know the stress is worse for me than the dosages of these substances, but for me it seems to be the choice of stressing about getting it away, or stressing about it being there + the negative physical effects it has. ND life is so hard man

