karbo
300 iq mastermind sociopath manipulator demi-god
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cannot cope with this. none of you can. the early years of one's life are extremely crucial stepping stones to developing a stable and healthy mental state.
unfortunately i failed succeeding at this.
due to being a weird autistic nigger i did not get to experience being an important, significant person of a group of other teenagers. i did not get to have fun and being careless, doing crazy spontaneous shit and genuinely loving life, yet i had, and still have to witness others doing exactly this in front of my eyes.
i used to not think about it, i guess i hoped it would get better? but as time goes on, i realized what youth really means. i processed the fact that time keeps going on, and my youth is going to slip away extremely soon. i spent my life in front of a computer for the past 18 years, and i will continue doing so until i die. when i see a video of attractive people partying i immediately skip it, because i dont wanna face the harsh truth that that is not my life. like a schizophrenic when they see a monster in the corner of the room, they try to disregard it, but they know they cant hold it in so much longer and its going to creep up on them sooner or later
i wish i hadnt gone to those few houseparties back in 2019 with some of my classmates. those 2 parties gave me a glimpse of what life could have been. just being there, being appreciated by everyone, talking to people like a perfect normie because of alcohol, having extremely funny moments, being appreciated by females, feeling like you are in the spotlight and have everyone's attention.
imagine reminiscing over some random houseparty because your life is so utterly empty. i try to cope with meeting apps, but high status people never touch that, they simply do not have the need to use an app for socializing. being good looking and uploading pics to instagram is enough for them to get sufficient messages to never download a dating app. whenever i get dm'ed by yubo females, i immediately think about all the attractive people my age, and imagine then having fun in huge friend groups, while i sit at home, and believe getting a message on some app is something worthy of mention. they are living life, i am not.
if you are a youngcel reading this, you NEED to make friends and you unironically need to put yourself out there, because if you dont you will be a miserable faggot forever.
unfortunately i failed succeeding at this.
due to being a weird autistic nigger i did not get to experience being an important, significant person of a group of other teenagers. i did not get to have fun and being careless, doing crazy spontaneous shit and genuinely loving life, yet i had, and still have to witness others doing exactly this in front of my eyes.
i used to not think about it, i guess i hoped it would get better? but as time goes on, i realized what youth really means. i processed the fact that time keeps going on, and my youth is going to slip away extremely soon. i spent my life in front of a computer for the past 18 years, and i will continue doing so until i die. when i see a video of attractive people partying i immediately skip it, because i dont wanna face the harsh truth that that is not my life. like a schizophrenic when they see a monster in the corner of the room, they try to disregard it, but they know they cant hold it in so much longer and its going to creep up on them sooner or later
i wish i hadnt gone to those few houseparties back in 2019 with some of my classmates. those 2 parties gave me a glimpse of what life could have been. just being there, being appreciated by everyone, talking to people like a perfect normie because of alcohol, having extremely funny moments, being appreciated by females, feeling like you are in the spotlight and have everyone's attention.
imagine reminiscing over some random houseparty because your life is so utterly empty. i try to cope with meeting apps, but high status people never touch that, they simply do not have the need to use an app for socializing. being good looking and uploading pics to instagram is enough for them to get sufficient messages to never download a dating app. whenever i get dm'ed by yubo females, i immediately think about all the attractive people my age, and imagine then having fun in huge friend groups, while i sit at home, and believe getting a message on some app is something worthy of mention. they are living life, i am not.
if you are a youngcel reading this, you NEED to make friends and you unironically need to put yourself out there, because if you dont you will be a miserable faggot forever.
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