mopheadcody
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Around December I went on a holiday for the first time in a while and I was really happy then because I was looking good (i thought i did) and I was with family. I hadn't properly learnt about the BP but I would eventually. Around the 18th my Grandpa had a fall and was moved into the hospital, we had to cut our holiday short because of that and around then I didn't really the BP was (I only knew about surface level looksmaxxing before). My Grandpa died around Christmas time or right before and I was pretty much rotting in bed all the time and seriously numb. Late December to January was a blur but in January I had seen a video about James Sapphire and that lead me to the BP and this website. From January 1st-25th I pulled all nighters daily just obsessed in taking photos of myself and rotting in bed and listening to music. This is around when the BP had gotten me at my worst because I was going insane from the exposure. Around this time my brother was smoking a lot and drinking a lot of alcohol then proceeded to crash a vehicle from stress. At the time I was obsessed with James Sapphire and wanted to live like how he did but I have changed since. If you know about James he also had a crash out around my age (14-17) so he did drag me down this rabbit hole. I still listen to some of his music such as Facade angel (my favourite) or Blackpill curse (tiktok song kinda). I have improved since and now go to the gym and am genuinely more connected with family improving my status but every now and then I do miss the days in January when BP had me in a chokehold and I was cucked in how looks get you everything. I don't even know why I am writing this I guess it's just for future me to read 
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