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hocuspocus23
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I was getting to know this girl at work, slowly building tension, being careful not to rush things or mess them up.
Then she started talking to this 165 cm aspie otaku coworker. At first, I wasn’t bothered. My familiarity with blackpill ideas and my life experience kept me calm about it. But over time, she started to get really entertained by this guy’s jestermaxxing behavior.
I began to feel genuinely worried around the holidays. My Christmas was fucking awful because of the whole situation. Still, whenever I talked to her, I could tell she was into me, which gave me hope for a few days at a time.
Then yesterday (Friday) happened. She started talking to this guy right next to me, and it was obvious things were escalating. The mf was talking about how he loved feet. I almost threw up and felt completely crushed — not only because I was emotionally invested in her, but because it made me question everything I believed about attraction.
How could an unattractive, clingy, autistic manlet be getting laid while I wasn’t?
Right now, I only have two copium explanations: either she’s testing me and my interest levels, using this guy to mess with my head and make me lose my frame, or this is God punishing me for getting distracted by relationships instead of focusing on myself.
There’s no explanation for this in either redpill or blackpill terms. It feels like a bluepill wet dream playing out right in front of me.
The guy is younger, uglier, shorter, and way more boring than I am, he is a bit gymmaxxed though. At this point, the only thing I’m holding onto is the hope that she’ll get bored of him pretty quickly so I can make my move. But judging by how things are going, I don’t really believe that anymore.
I should get out more. I know I have potential, and right now I see myself as HTN. I need to forget about that woman and move on, but my ego is so crushed that it honestly feels like my heart is bleeding.
How would you guys cope with such ego crushing heartbreak?
Then she started talking to this 165 cm aspie otaku coworker. At first, I wasn’t bothered. My familiarity with blackpill ideas and my life experience kept me calm about it. But over time, she started to get really entertained by this guy’s jestermaxxing behavior.
I began to feel genuinely worried around the holidays. My Christmas was fucking awful because of the whole situation. Still, whenever I talked to her, I could tell she was into me, which gave me hope for a few days at a time.
Then yesterday (Friday) happened. She started talking to this guy right next to me, and it was obvious things were escalating. The mf was talking about how he loved feet. I almost threw up and felt completely crushed — not only because I was emotionally invested in her, but because it made me question everything I believed about attraction.
How could an unattractive, clingy, autistic manlet be getting laid while I wasn’t?
Right now, I only have two copium explanations: either she’s testing me and my interest levels, using this guy to mess with my head and make me lose my frame, or this is God punishing me for getting distracted by relationships instead of focusing on myself.
There’s no explanation for this in either redpill or blackpill terms. It feels like a bluepill wet dream playing out right in front of me.
The guy is younger, uglier, shorter, and way more boring than I am, he is a bit gymmaxxed though. At this point, the only thing I’m holding onto is the hope that she’ll get bored of him pretty quickly so I can make my move. But judging by how things are going, I don’t really believe that anymore.
I should get out more. I know I have potential, and right now I see myself as HTN. I need to forget about that woman and move on, but my ego is so crushed that it honestly feels like my heart is bleeding.
How would you guys cope with such ego crushing heartbreak?
