frendly
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No one truly understands how badly I want to get my fathers gun and just shoot myself. I find everything meaningless, nothing truly makes me happy anymore. Everything is a cope, I am exhaling and inhaling copium. I just want to feel something, I force happiness onto myself. I pretend I enjoy my life, I pretend to be happy, I pretend to enjoy the company of others when in reality nothing will ever make me happy. Even when I ascend I will be unhappy with myself and my life. How did things get to this point? Is it too much to ask for someone to beat me up until my face is unrecognizable? Or to cry on someone’s shoulder. I remeber telling my mom I want to die and kill myself and she told me it was selfish of me since she has worked so hard just for me to give up. How is it selfish? I simply do not want to be here anymore. Goodnight.