Can you relate or is it just me?

[chudcell999]

I have lost almost all of my motivation to live dying sounds pretty good this is not meant for your pitty like "bro please don't rope" I don't want your support I just want to know do other people make it past a year and a half I kind of feeling I feel like I have a terminal illness of some sort but that terminal illness is my own mind if I had a judge home defender .45 revolver and was in Arizona I would kill myself tonight but until I acquire both those I'll stay alive I need about $750 for the gun and some sort of reliable vehicle to drive me there I wanted to sightsee before I do it I'll be documenting it but no point of talking about it now this is going to be probably at least 8 months from now I'm getting distracted does anyone else relate

 

[johnxz]

i know you say you dont want sympathy or anything but i urge you to please read this bhai

https://looksmax.org/threads/anti-s...ive-its-never-over-lifemaxxing-gtfih.1969281/

 

[bnugly]

I have lost almost all of my motivation to live dying sounds pretty good this is not meant for your pitty like "bro please don't rope" I don't want your support I just want to know do other people make it past a year and a half I kind of feeling I feel like I have a terminal illness of some sort but that terminal illness is my own mind if I had a judge home defender .45 revolver and was in Arizona I would kill myself tonight but until I acquire both those I'll stay alive I need about $750 for the gun and some sort of reliable vehicle to drive me there I wanted to sightsee before I do it I'll be documenting it but no point of talking about it now this is going to be probably at least 8 months from now I'm getting distracted does anyone else relate

sad

 

[chudcell999]

i know you say you dont want sympathy or anything but i urge you to please read this bhai

https://looksmax.org/threads/anti-s...ive-its-never-over-lifemaxxing-gtfih.1969281/

It's basically saying people don't know how to kill themselves and there have been come back stories they're doing it performatively if you want to die you'll die that's why I specifically said that gun that gun with the mini shotgun shell I'll look like the Ronnie McNutt video. You're not surviving a .45 shot gun with the barrel right behind my top row of teeth pointing towards my maxilla at a 15° angle so it hits my brain it'll be like a small bomb went off in the middle of my face also I know my dreams cannot come true so I do not want to live anymore living is not that great I've failed at being human I know it's sad some guy is going to kill himself but what's worse is me bothering people with my unwanted company and living with desires never to be fulfilled I'm nearly 100% sure I want to kill myself and I don't think there is anything that can change my mind for the simple fact I simply don't like waking up it's not that I don't like my life of course I don't but I don't think there's a realistic life outcome I could like enough that would overcome the urge to drive to Arizona smoke my first cigarette find the girl I've been stalking and then pull up my soon to be home defender .45 revolver rest the barrel on my palate and pull the trigger wial looking into her eyes I feel like it is the perfect end to my story.