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bumo
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I've stated in a previous thread, (I will link upon request,) that I have lost all will to live. However, now as college is starting again and I'm in a poor position. As I now have no reason to work for any goal I may have once. What's the point of studying hard to become a scientist, an author, a musician, if I can't be 6'5 and attractive? I would be taken less seriously, less people would read me, and trying to become a musician when you're ugly is a joke unless you're trying to hide your face 24/7 (and then you get doxxed lol.)
Had my life circumstances been the exact same bar a few centimeters of bone. I'd be far much more respect, more adored, I'd earn more money just by existing. The trajectory of my life would have change and could have changed, but I will never live to my fullest, since I have been robbed of this chance.
I really want to change, because I feel as though if I don't put in effort this year I'll regret it for my entire life. I already got shit results last year. I got a U in Maths and Physics, and an E in Biology, and even my teacher said if he did better in his A-Levels at college he'd be working a far better job, and regrets not putting in time to extracurriculars, searching for unis and his studies, and although I've wasted a year, I can still try salvage what remains if I can muster the hope to do so. This is UK college btw. So it's aged 16-18. What Americans call college, we call university.
Roping is pretty much not an option at this point.
Had my life circumstances been the exact same bar a few centimeters of bone. I'd be far much more respect, more adored, I'd earn more money just by existing. The trajectory of my life would have change and could have changed, but I will never live to my fullest, since I have been robbed of this chance.
I really want to change, because I feel as though if I don't put in effort this year I'll regret it for my entire life. I already got shit results last year. I got a U in Maths and Physics, and an E in Biology, and even my teacher said if he did better in his A-Levels at college he'd be working a far better job, and regrets not putting in time to extracurriculars, searching for unis and his studies, and although I've wasted a year, I can still try salvage what remains if I can muster the hope to do so. This is UK college btw. So it's aged 16-18. What Americans call college, we call university.
Roping is pretty much not an option at this point.
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