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The life of despair is too much to bare
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I am tired of feeling. I am tired of feeling happy, sad, angry, and guilty. I just wish I was numb. numb to my life, numb to my pleasures, numb to other people's presence. Why do I want to feel numb? Because under all these emotions is sadness. Anger is from confusion or sadness towards society, guilt leads to sadness, happiness is a cope for sadness, and last, sadness leads to more sadness. Once the coping is over, the roping comes to mind. I have that thought from time to time. And I know we all do. Even bluepillers can't cope sometimes. Even bluepillers rope. I've only been alive for 16 years and I feel like ending it deep down in my archive of thoughts. If existing is such a mental battle for everyone, why be scared of dying?
Death is a very underrated topic in my opinion because death is like another god, a higher entity. Death will keep you warm, it will keep you safe, it will protect you from the brutality of life. It's your eternal resting place. I'm doing this self improvement shit everyday and nothing is changing. I still feel the same. Anyways, that's it for this thread. I'll probably repost this with more text later on.
Death is a very underrated topic in my opinion because death is like another god, a higher entity. Death will keep you warm, it will keep you safe, it will protect you from the brutality of life. It's your eternal resting place. I'm doing this self improvement shit everyday and nothing is changing. I still feel the same. Anyways, that's it for this thread. I'll probably repost this with more text later on.