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I was very worried as a child and I never made any effort to get along with the people around me. Since I was getting negative reactions from my non NT behavior I stopped interacting with others altogether besides video game friends here and there. I just played video games by myself. Now I'm 25 and still have no life even after jaw surgery which ascended me to at least LTN/MTN. It's really tough putting yourself out there with no life experience. If you go out to a bar people arent magically going to want to include you socially. I realized I have no personality Im not sure who I am. Most of social interactions seems to be showing off your ego and protecting/attacking the ego of others.
Was anyone else in this position with no life and then got a life and it was worth it? Part of me wants to get a life and see what society has to offer and become a "human", but I'm worried all society has to offer me is wage slavery and I'd rather just rot on games. Seems like we really have a dead culture I mean the only communities available to normies seem to be the people randomly assigned to live near them in college and the people who went to your high school and people at your work. My parents didn't teach me fuck all literally just said get good grades and then rot on games so I did. Maybe they forced me to do one extracurricular in high school but that didn't help cause I didn't have people skills. And then they don't have people skills either.
But yeah unless I smoke weed or something I'm usually emotionless and apathetic towards my situation. Being in an altered state made me realize that I gave up my humanity for the lifestyle I'm living of a NEET. Like I have no connection to others or any stake whatsoever in the society around me. I wasn't even thinking all that much while gaming just autopiloting away my time.
Was anyone else in this position with no life and then got a life and it was worth it? Part of me wants to get a life and see what society has to offer and become a "human", but I'm worried all society has to offer me is wage slavery and I'd rather just rot on games. Seems like we really have a dead culture I mean the only communities available to normies seem to be the people randomly assigned to live near them in college and the people who went to your high school and people at your work. My parents didn't teach me fuck all literally just said get good grades and then rot on games so I did. Maybe they forced me to do one extracurricular in high school but that didn't help cause I didn't have people skills. And then they don't have people skills either.
But yeah unless I smoke weed or something I'm usually emotionless and apathetic towards my situation. Being in an altered state made me realize that I gave up my humanity for the lifestyle I'm living of a NEET. Like I have no connection to others or any stake whatsoever in the society around me. I wasn't even thinking all that much while gaming just autopiloting away my time.