disgusted of my self

[HorribleSideLtn]

iam so disgusted of myself, my hair is greasy and my skin is sticky because of the dried sweat on my skin. i want to shower but i cant convince myself to do anything that is boring or is like a task or chore, i cant start any task its nearly impossible for me, i have severe executive dysfunction. ive been my whole life like this but its getting even worse because my brain is more fried now because of masturbating and nicotine. i only can do stuff when the consequences are physical and unbearable. it feels painful to do anything or any task that is somewhat boring. i tried once telling my parents i need to check with a doctor but they almost kicked me out of the house, im 17 and i need to pass school and that is not gonna happen if this doesn't change, i need fucking meds or anything any kind of treatment that makes me able to function normally without feeling that im being tortured s for sitting in the same place for 5 minutes. i cant do anything abt it rn i tried every "hack" and method to focus nothing worked for longer than 10 mins. i need to get diagnosed and prescribed any kind of treatment otherwise ill fucking kill myself

 

[narrowmouthcel]

dnr

 

[HexumReincarnated]

dnr

Please shut the fuck up and you wonder why your post to rep ratio is horrid.

How dare you dnr this poor man.

I hope you get better OP!

 

[Sba_123]

Please shut the fuck up and you wonder why your post to rep ratio is horrid.

How dare you dnr this poor man.

I hope you get better OP!

kind man

 

[81xa]

your dopamine receptors are fried stop overcomplicating it

hop on nootropics like bromantane and just take a shower fs

 

[nosus35]

iam so disgusted of myself, my hair is greasy and my skin is sticky because of the dried sweat on my skin. i want to shower but i cant convince myself to do anything that is boring or is like a task or chore, i cant start any task its nearly impossible for me, i have severe executive dysfunction. ive been my whole life like this but its getting even worse because my brain is more fried now because of masturbating and nicotine. i only can do stuff when the consequences are physical and unbearable. it feels painful to do anything or any task that is somewhat boring. i tried once telling my parents i need to check with a doctor but they almost kicked me out of the house, im 17 and i need to pass school and that is not gonna happen if this doesn't change, i need fucking meds or anything any kind of treatment that makes me able to function normally without feeling that im being tortured s for sitting in the same place for 5 minutes. i cant do anything abt it rn i tried every "hack" and method to focus nothing worked for longer than 10 mins. i need to get diagnosed and prescribed any kind of treatment otherwise ill fucking kill myself

ur best bet is to do some research and buy some meds from asian research labs