
mediacel
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- Feb 9, 2025
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Like genuinely I might just kill myself literally nothing makes me happy the only thing that would make me happy is ascending, and I can’t even do that because I don’t have the money. It feels like my whole life Im just waiting for it to get good, lying to myself saying “when this happens, I’ll finally enjoy life!” And it either isn’t that good, or it never happens. Like I know what I need to do to ascend but I don’t have the fucking money and I have exams for the next two months Jesus Christ and I hate seeing attractive people knowing im not one of them it infuriates me, the only reason I haven’t deadass just tied a fucking noose around my neck yet is because I know my spirit won’t accept looking like this forever, one day I inevitably will look good because I will literally kill myself if not, it’s life or death. But it hurts to much that I can’t do anything about it right now because I’m poor. Someone tell me how to make money fast before I blast my fucking brains please please