Does anyone here have OCD? Diagnosed OCD?

[rambocel]

I’ve had OCD since I was conscious but was able to manage and live a relatively stress free and normal life up until the age of 13. I was popular, good-looking, smart, athletic, driven, ambitious, etc.

When I turned 13 all hell broke loose and my mind consumed me. My OCD was out of control and I started taking psych meds and going to therapy, etc. Around that time, I developed what I believe was depression (which has practically lasted every day since that point)). I went from being a hyper-worrier my whole life and very emotionally in tune, to being completely apathetic and indifferent to everything and emotionless. This was all in a matter of a few months. It was a drastic change that has still persisted to this day.

Anyway, OCD and depression have really ruined my life so far and robbed me of my youth. I’m 22 now. I was supposed to go to college, I was supposed to get together with girls, I was supposed to have a rich and fulfilling social life, because at my core, I still am a “normie”. I’m very extroverted and charismatic, but my mental illness caused me to socially withdraw and isolate. I’ve been on and off of various ssris and ssris for nearly a decade now, and I feel like they numb me and amplify the apathy. I’m finally making the changes now, but I have been overweight for like the past 6 years and essentially squandered my prime years with women. I’m really trying, but I really am having difficulties coming to terms with the past. I know it’s not my fault and that if I didn’t have mental illness I wouldn’t be here right now, but that doesn’t make it hurt any lees.

Anyway, can anyone here relate to this? Has anyone been able to overcome their mental illness and truly be at peace with the past?


TLDR;

I’m a 22 year old virgin whose life so far has been very difficult due to severe OCD and depression

 

[MixedMAscendingToCL]

I’ve had OCD since I was conscious but was able to manage and live a relatively stress free and normal life up until the age of 13. I was popular, good-looking, smart, athletic, driven, ambitious, etc.

When I turned 13 all hell broke loose and my mind consumed me. My OCD was out of control and I started taking psych meds and going to therapy, etc. Around that time, I developed what I believe was depression (which has practically lasted every day since that point)). I went from being a hyper-worrier my whole life and very emotionally in tune, to being completely apathetic and indifferent to everything and emotionless. This was all in a matter of a few months. It was a drastic change that has still persisted to this day.

Anyway, OCD and depression have really ruined my life so far and robbed me of my youth. I’m 22 now. I was supposed to go to college, I was supposed to get together with girls, I was supposed to have a rich and fulfilling social life, because at my core, I still am a “normie”. I’m very extroverted and charismatic, but my mental illness caused me to socially withdraw and isolate. I’ve been on and off of various ssris and ssris for nearly a decade now, and I feel like they numb me and amplify the apathy. I’m finally making the changes now, but I have been overweight for like the past 6 years and essentially squandered my prime years with women. I’m really trying, but I really am having difficulties coming to terms with the past. I know it’s not my fault and that if I didn’t have mental illness I wouldn’t be here right now, but that doesn’t make it hurt any lees.

Anyway, can anyone here relate to this? Has anyone been able to overcome their mental illness and truly be at peace with the past?


TLDR;

I’m a 22 year old virgin whose life so far has been very difficult due to severe OCD and depression

i dont have it diagnosed but I have a lot of symptoms of obsessive compulsive disorder, before it used to annoy me so much pretty much eat me alive. but now ive just learnt to ignore it, simple as that, any urge to perfect or do something useless just ignore it completely.

just welcome all the annoying and persistent thoughts stop trying to fight it and embrace it

 

[Deleted member 291098]

Kys you pathetic faggot

 

[catastropy]

Its impossible for me everytime i think its went away a new problem fucking arrives

 

[rambocel]

Its impossible for me everytime i think its went away a new problem fucking arrives

I’m so sorry brother. I know your pain and if you ever want to message here or add me on discord feel free

 

[registerfasterusing]

Its impossible for me everytime i think its went away a new problem fucking arrives

I’ve been in a flare up for over a year now I don’t see a way out of it tbh

 

[catastropy]

I’m so sorry brother. I know your pain and if you ever want to message here or add me on discord feel free

Yes whats ur discord?

 

[catastropy]

I’ve been in a flare up for over a year now I don’t see a way out of it tbh

Eventually i think abt it allat and do nothing and then i get fucking scolded for doing nothing because i feel so uncomfortable and this shit just makes me tired making me fall asleep and then i get scolded for falling asleep at the wrong time🫩

 

[Swarthy Knight]

Yes. I was diagnosed as a teenager. But knew I had since I was 7 or 8

 

[rambocel]

I’ve been in a flare up for over a year now I don’t see a way out of it tbh

I take meds but they come at a cost. It feels like a lose lose situation regardless of what you choose to do

 

[rambocel]

Yes whats ur discord?

rambomaxxed

 

[registerfasterusing]

I take meds but they come at a cost. It feels like a lose lose situation regardless of what you choose to do

My parents won’t let me take meds

 

[Swarthy Knight]

I take meds but they come at a cost. It feels like a lose lose situation regardless of what you choose to do

What did you take for it. I'm low key thinking of going back on a SSRI for it (and some other stuff). Have an appointment tmr

 

[Yliaster]

Suffered with OCD for almost a Decade.

What ultimately helped me to overcome it is simply finding purpose in Life as in something outside of your
everyday life that stimulates you.

I sometimes watch videos like this or of people around the world living in sub par conditions and the gratitude and
lifefuel it gives me is phenomenal

You can experiment with this and see how it goes

 

[Yliaster]

Listening to stories like this gives me phenomonal lifefuel and gratitude

 

[Kroker]

OCD is a bitch, imagine being hypochondriac OCD

SSRIs help but they come with side effects, that’s why I quit them since July last year

 

[rambocel]

What did you take for it. I'm low key thinking of going back on a SSRI for it (and some other stuff). Have an appointment tmr

I’ve taken various drugs for it over the years but most recently I’ve taken sertraline and I’ve also been taking Cymbalta for the last year now.

I tend to run into the same issues with SSRIS and SNRIS. I feel like they make me pretty apathetic, emotionally, flat, lower libido, and just generally indifferent to most things in life. But on the other hand when I’m unmedicated, I can’t function. I’ve gone off of my meds and every time the OCD always comes back. It’s not a matter of if it’ll come back it’s when it’ll come back.

 

[rambocel]

OCD is a bitch, imagine being hypochondriac OCD

SSRIs help but they come with side effects, that’s why I quit then since July last year

My OCD has always been mostly thought and rumination based but for the past 8-9 years it’s been hypochondria (so since 13-14). My worst episode by far was a couple years ago when I legit went full schizo and convinced myself I had rabies. I lived every day for over a month thinking I was going to die. Nobody and nothing around me existed and I can’t even remember what it was like to live through that, I think my mind has since blocked it out. I spent thousands of dollars on ER visits in a matter of 2-3 months during that time too. People really don’t understand how good they’ve got it sometimes

 

[Swarthy Knight]

I’ve taken various drugs for it over the years but most recently I’ve taken sertraline and I’ve also been taking Cymbalta for the last year now.

I tend to run into the same issues with SSRIS and SNRIS. I feel like they make me pretty apathetic, emotionally, flat, lower libido, and just generally indifferent to most things in life. But on the other hand when I’m unmedicated, I can’t function. I’ve gone off of my meds and every time the OCD always comes back. It’s not a matter of if it’ll come back it’s when it’ll come back.

Cymbalta is an interesting choice. My old GP told me that it apparently doesn't help for OCD. I'm guessing in your case it was more to augment the Zoloft

But I get what you mean bruh, I've been on a bunch of diff antidepressants over the years. And while nothing has helped with OCD yet, I do see a noticable difference (for better or worse) in my overall mood and functioning when on and off them. Everytime I think I don't need em anymore, I always end up circling back to it (esp Mirtazpine) Guess we just gotta accept it for what it is

 

[GonorrhoeaGobbler]

Gengar I think

 

[rambocel]

Cymbalta is an interesting choice. My old GP told me that it apparently doesn't help for OCD. I'm guessing in your case it was more to augment the Zoloft

But I get what you mean bruh, I've been on a bunch of diff antidepressants over the years. And while nothing has helped with OCD yet, I do see a noticable difference (for better or worse) in my overall mood and functioning when on and off them. Everytime I think I don't need em anymore, I always end up circling back to it (esp Mirtazpine) Guess we just gotta accept it for what it is

Yeah, idrk tbh. I just take whatever they suggest because I’m usually in such a desperate state atp. But it seems to have helped. Well, my ocd is still here, but it’s muted, and when it does happen, there is no emotional response to it like I’d have off the meds.

I’m sorry nothings worked for your ocd dude. That fucking sucks

 

[Kroker]

I’ve taken various drugs for it over the years but most recently I’ve taken sertraline and I’ve also been taking Cymbalta for the last year now.

I tend to run into the same issues with SSRIS and SNRIS. I feel like they make me pretty apathetic, emotionally, flat, lower libido, and just generally indifferent to most things in life. But on the other hand when I’m unmedicated, I can’t function. I’ve gone off of my meds and every time the OCD always comes back. It’s not a matter of if it’ll come back it’s when it’ll come back.

Cymbalta is an interesting choice. My old GP told me that it apparently doesn't help for OCD. I'm guessing in your case it was more to augment the Zoloft

But I get what you mean bruh, I've been on a bunch of diff antidepressants over the years. And while nothing has helped with OCD yet, I do see a noticable difference (for better or worse) in my overall mood and functioning when on and off them. Everytime I think I don't need em anymore, I always end up circling back to it (esp Mirtazpine) Guess we just gotta accept it for what it is

What have helped me the most are Paroxetine and Escitalopram

But they came with a price, it made me frail, like I was really scrawny and could be blown away by a gust of wind jfl

Weaker bones, basically they eroded my cheekbones and infraorbital rims, made my hair thin out

I also became desensitized to cortisol spikes and that made me do stupid things (shoplifting), more aggressive and hostile attitude

But I was more out going, I cold approached foids, and felt like I can take over the world.

It made feel good there’s no denying it, I could’ve carried on with the mental downsides to it but the physical part is what made me stop, especially that I had low libido and cognitive decline (memory issues) and insomnia with Paroxetine

Have you guys considered DMT? LSD? They can either cure you completely or exacerbate your symptoms, which the latter has more causality

 

[Swarthy Knight]

What have helped me the most are Paroxetine and Escitalopram

But they came with a price, it made me frail, like I was really scrawny and could be blown away by a gust of wind jfl

Weaker bones, basically they eroded my cheekbones and infraorbital rims, made my hair thin out

I also became desensitized to cortisol spikes and that made me do stupid things (shoplifting), more aggressive and hostile attitude

But I was more out going, I cold approached foids, and felt like I can take over the world.

It made feel good there’s no denying it, I could’ve carried on with the mental downsides to it but the physical part is what made me stop, especially that I had low libido and cognitive decline (memory issues) and insomnia with Paroxetine

Have you guys considered DMT? LSD? They can either cure you completely or exacerbate your symptoms, which the latter has more causality

Ya I seemed to do best with Paxil and Lexapro too. Although I was only each of em for about 3-6 weeks. Zoloft was garbage tho

That's crazy how it's caused u all those issues. Were you going thru puberty during that time?

Im not experienced with shrooms at all. Heard that shit ain't safe and can cause visual issues

 

[boostlock]

my shit overlaps with tourettes, dont remember a day where i didnt break something, joints and bones constantly aching and hours spent in the shower

 

[rambocel]

my shit overlaps with tourettes, dont remember a day where i didnt break something, joints and bones constantly aching and hours spent in the shower

I don’t have Tourette’s to your degree but I have tics. I know there is a well established connection between OCD and Tourette’s

And I’m sorry about that bro, that’s really shitty