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parachuteman
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sorry i rant so much, i have no one to talk to outside of school and this is how i get my emotions how to cope and lower cortisol.
the question i have is at the bottom (QIM), paragraph 3 is funny if you know anything about water polo or even sports in general. paragraph 4 is about my first time ordering off of indiamart going shit
1) my past weeks of school have been shit, mainly with girls spreading false rumors, pointing and staring at me, and laughing when they walk past me.
2) on top of this, my only actual friend at school is depressed about his weight and never comes to school (leaving me friendless 3/5 times a week), i know people have it worse but it sucks and i feel your pain partially if you don’t have any friends in general
3) then, i get fucking benched in water polo
as a goalie at the first game i have family coming to, after i tell my whole family that im good and have a high block percentage, and that the school was shit. our score was 13-10 today and i got 6 minutes of playtime, which had me go 0/5 on blocks 
4) finally, my fucking package from india is going to take a shit load of time, he said it won’t even get passed customs until monday, im not sure if he meant indian or american, i assume indian since i cant wven track it on the indian website i was given for tracking.
5) not even finally, i have more to complain about, i already fucking hate everything, with the people i know in pe i make jokes that no one understands so no one laughs and now im a fucking loser in front of my friends because they don’t get these relatively “niche” things i see on tiktok, i don’t get it, why can’t i be low inhib where i don’t try making jokes every 3 seconds.
QIM (question in mind, new lingo im trying to make more popular): does life ever get better? when does it become worth living, when you’re born 6’3 chad with low inhib and high social status? when you post on tiktok your face and have girls saying they’ll leave your boyfriends for you?
i was thinking of just fucking my life over and taking erda and oral steroids without setting safety measures like blood work or stuff to help my liver because im tired of doing this everyday. im a 4.5 GPA student who bedrots everyday and i don’t study, only thing that carries me is just having common sense when i test, but this is besides the point. i can have a long future ahead of me like being a doctor or something or becoming what used to be my goal, being a pilot, but i don’t fucking care anymore, i want this pain to be over with or i just want love, but love doesn’t fucking exist does it?
the question i have is at the bottom (QIM), paragraph 3 is funny if you know anything about water polo or even sports in general. paragraph 4 is about my first time ordering off of indiamart going shit
1) my past weeks of school have been shit, mainly with girls spreading false rumors, pointing and staring at me, and laughing when they walk past me.
2) on top of this, my only actual friend at school is depressed about his weight and never comes to school (leaving me friendless 3/5 times a week), i know people have it worse but it sucks and i feel your pain partially if you don’t have any friends in general
3) then, i get fucking benched in water polo
as a goalie at the first game i have family coming to, after i tell my whole family that im good and have a high block percentage, and that the school was shit. our score was 13-10 today and i got 6 minutes of playtime, which had me go 0/5 on blocks 4) finally, my fucking package from india is going to take a shit load of time, he said it won’t even get passed customs until monday, im not sure if he meant indian or american, i assume indian since i cant wven track it on the indian website i was given for tracking.
5) not even finally, i have more to complain about, i already fucking hate everything, with the people i know in pe i make jokes that no one understands so no one laughs and now im a fucking loser in front of my friends because they don’t get these relatively “niche” things i see on tiktok, i don’t get it, why can’t i be low inhib where i don’t try making jokes every 3 seconds.
QIM (question in mind, new lingo im trying to make more popular): does life ever get better? when does it become worth living, when you’re born 6’3 chad with low inhib and high social status? when you post on tiktok your face and have girls saying they’ll leave your boyfriends for you?
i was thinking of just fucking my life over and taking erda and oral steroids without setting safety measures like blood work or stuff to help my liver because im tired of doing this everyday. im a 4.5 GPA student who bedrots everyday and i don’t study, only thing that carries me is just having common sense when i test, but this is besides the point. i can have a long future ahead of me like being a doctor or something or becoming what used to be my goal, being a pilot, but i don’t fucking care anymore, i want this pain to be over with or i just want love, but love doesn’t fucking exist does it?
