Vermilioncore
god make my life great inc
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My days are filled with complete wandering and the full definition of hopelessness and aimlessness.
I literally wake up and I have the whole day ahead of me and yet there’s nothing for me in this world. Have no money, no job, no car, no bed to lay in (I sleep on the floor in the hallway), no room to go in and cry, no love, no happiness, nothing to look forward to.
It’s times like these when I wonder, if God exists, why is it a sin to commit suicide? If this pain is so much that an individual finds that death is a better option than life, then why should he have to suffer in hell for his choice?
I don’t know. I don’t know anything. All I know is that I’m utterly lost, broken, and praying that either God helps me back to happiness or simply takes my life away as I’m sleeping. There’s nothing else.
I literally wake up and I have the whole day ahead of me and yet there’s nothing for me in this world. Have no money, no job, no car, no bed to lay in (I sleep on the floor in the hallway), no room to go in and cry, no love, no happiness, nothing to look forward to.
It’s times like these when I wonder, if God exists, why is it a sin to commit suicide? If this pain is so much that an individual finds that death is a better option than life, then why should he have to suffer in hell for his choice?
I don’t know. I don’t know anything. All I know is that I’m utterly lost, broken, and praying that either God helps me back to happiness or simply takes my life away as I’m sleeping. There’s nothing else.