Don’t take your sight for granted

[Prøphet]

I started losing my vision at just 2 months old. Over the years my contacts and glasses have gotten stronger and stronger and stronger, but no matter what I do, I’m slowly losing my vision. Things are becoming unclear and ambiguous the past few years when I try to look in the distance. It’s gotten really bad this year, and now I’m facing just how truly fragile life is. My eye has become so stretched that the retina is basically being torn apart very slowly as I go through my life. 18 years old, and my own grandparents have about twice as good vision as mine. You have 99 problems until you have a health problem. Then you just have 1.

I’m bothered that I’m a subhuman, I’m frustrated that I’m an autist with mental issues, but all of it pales in comparison to the prospect of losing the most complex and beautiful sense of your consciousness. I’ve never been one to cope with “someone always has it worse”, but if you’re not paralyzed, not in a war zone, and your body works properly, please take some time to go see some beautiful things. What else do we have?

I think if my vision ever gets that much worse than it is now, I’ll be done. It’s something that I will never be able to accept, and have never been able to accept. I’m not looking for pity but I find peace letting out my thoughts that torment me in my isolation, and I’m sure a bunch of blackpillers will understand more than the bluepilled copers of the blind community, desperately gorging on comforting lies to obscure the excruciating truth.

Just as two equal souls diverge into drastically different lives from day 1, one born into the body of a Chad and the other a subhuman, the same goes for nearly every aspect of life. There is no reason to your suffering. The most important day of your life is the day of your birth. There is no salvation in denial.

 

[lnceIs]

Format and maybe I'll read

 

[Prøphet]

Format and maybe I'll read

Shit how much more formatting do you want

 

[lnceIs]

Shit how much more formatting do you want

You're right. I just read it.

The vision pill is brutal, thankfully I got perfect vision. Never date a girl that doesn't have perfect vision.

 

[CollioureViews]

I started losing my vision at just 2 months old. Over the years my contacts and glasses have gotten stronger and stronger and stronger, but no matter what I do, I’m slowly losing my vision. Things are becoming unclear and ambiguous the past few years when I try to look in the distance. It’s gotten really bad this year, and now I’m facing just how truly fragile life is. My eye has become so stretched that the retina is basically being torn apart very slowly as I go through my life. You have 99 problems until you have a health problem. Then you just have 1.

I’m bothered that I’m a subhuman, I’m frustrated that I’m an autist with mental issues, but all of it pales in comparison to the prospect of losing the most complex and beautiful sense of your consciousness. I’ve never been one to cope with “someone always has it worse”, but if you’re not paralyzed, not in a war zone, and your body works properly, please take some time to go see some beautiful things. What else do we have?

I think if my vision ever gets that much worse than it is now, I’ll be done. It’s something that I will never be able to accept, and have never been able to accept. I’m not looking for pity but I find peace letting out my thoughts that torment me in my isolation, and I’m sure a bunch of blackpillers will understand more than the bluepilled copers of the blind community, desperately gorging on comforting lies to obscure the excruciating truth.

Just as two equal souls diverge into drastically different lives from day 1, one born into the body of a Chad and the other a subhuman, the same goes for nearly every aspect of life. There is no reason to your suffering. The most important day of your life is the day of your birth. There is no salvation in denial.

I feel deep for you, but honestly, it seems you're the one who's coping, not those "bluepillers" you refer to.

I mean that with all sincerity. I don't know what it's like to be in your position; that must be some freaky shit to ruminate on and experience daily.

But by the sounds of it, you should be spending every waking moment seeing as much as you can before this eventuality.

Didn't I talk to you the other day about hiking mountains? Go fucking do it. That, and much more. What the fuck are you waiting for???

 

[SmallEggplantFailer]

I have perfect vision but I do have annoying floaters. I heard papain from pine apples can dissolve them and make them small into crumbs.

 

[Prøphet]

I feel deep for you, but honestly, it seems you're the one who's coping, not those "bluepillers" you refer to.

I mean that with all sincerity. I don't know what it's like to be in your position; that must be some freaky shit to ruminate on and experience daily.

But by the sounds of it, you should be spending every waking moment seeing as much as you can before this eventuality.

Didn't I talk to you the other day about hiking mountains? Go fucking do it. That, and much more. What the fuck are you waiting for???

I’m probably coping because it only fuels my anguish further to see beauty while being fully aware of my limitations. I don’t really have a rational answer, I mean by my logic no one would do anything because life itself will also end in a blink. Ive always been one to run away from the pain so I’m still searching for the answer that allows me to embrace life in it’s entirety rather than grimace and shudder and shrink away.

 

[CollioureViews]

I’m probably coping because it only fuels my anguish further to see beauty while being fully aware of my limitations. I don’t really have a rational answer, I mean by my logic no one would do anything because life itself will also end in a blink. Ive always been one to run away from the pain so I’m still searching for the answer that allows me to embrace life in it’s entirety rather than grimace and shudder.

Shit.

Ok, so you need to change your mindset then, which isn't easy, but it sounds like your only solution.

Faking it till you make it is a viable option for that. Even if it feels ridiculous in the moment.

Then, just step out of your front door. I dunno what to tell you. If there isn't anyone else to drag you out...

Whatever your inhibitions, it all beats wasting the last of your sight looking at a monitor all day.

 

[SmallEggplantFailer]

What’s the thing you wanted to see irl?

 

[Hess]

What a truly tragic fate jfc, my condolences man

 

[Psl King]

Man I feel for you, I always thought that not being able to see anything would the most brutal shit ever. Is there any surgery or something you can do to regain your vision?

 

[Isle of sippy]

I have perfect vision but I do have annoying floaters. I heard papain from pine apples can dissolve them and make them small into crumbs.

I drank pineapple juice for years and it did nothing
my options are surgery or laser for my right eye

 

[LooksOrDeath]

Lasik?

 

[SmallEggplantFailer]

I hope this helps you out:

I have pulse width modulation and temporal flickering sensitivity of OLED display and some IPS LCD display panels.

The only display I could use are IPS panel with DC dimming.

Whenever I used display with PWM flickering or temporal flickering. My vision went blurry and sensitivity to lights and my colors were distorted for a few days.

For this reason I wear sunglasses to protect my eyes in public.

You should try and switch to a display type that is eye friendly and try it for a few weeks. It might be related to the vision worsening but in most cases it is reversible.

hope this helps.

a lot of smart phones now uses OLED Pulse width modulation that flickers aggressively to your eyes.

You can see those flicker if you use an iPhone and record it at Slow motion. You’ll know what I mean when you see those flickers. They are very agitating to your nervous system.

Your pupil contracts and close rapidly causing eye strain.

Can you do a test now?

 

[Prøphet]

Man I feel for you, I always thought that not being able to see anything would the most brutal shit ever. Is there any surgery or something you can do to regain your vision?

Lasik?

There’s no cure

Except acceptance

 

[LooksOrDeath]

Format and maybe I'll read

Shit how much more formatting do you want

mf is hypergamous for formatting

 

[LooksOrDeath]

There’s no cure

Except acceptance

actually what is your vision number?
my brother has a similiar condition with 8 vision but he has never been negative over it

 

[lnceIs]

mf is hypergamous for formatting

Tbh I don't know what I was on about.

 

[LooksOrDeath]

Tbh I don't know what I was on about.

Nah you were onto something
raising standards of formatting in the forum
death to all nonparagraphcels

 

[tomahawk]

 

[Prøphet]

actually what is your vision number?
my brother has a similiar condition with 8 vision but he has never been negative over it

-11 prescription

After wearing lenses I still have 20/50 vision

My retina is too damaged to ever reach 20/20