Feel so fucking empty

[seeker]

Felt crazy when I went through some of my old posts and saw how religious I was despite being extremely depressed at the time too.

I made a mistake by turning to drugs (benzos and weed) a few months ago and got caught eventually. Caught a few times actually, I was stupid and would get too high. Now my parents threaten to kick me out if I take drugs again.

But I'm geniunely suffering a lot mentally. I don't know what to do, all I know is I have to make money so I can rent a place if I get kicked out but I have my CIE exams in 2 months and don't have much time to work

Suicide won't work, I'm too scared of hell and I did attempt but it failed. What do I do man? Anyone know how to make quick money online (need at least 100USD or 30k PKR monthly)? I'm only 17 too

 

[manletmachinestream]

I just wanna scream

 

[superpsycho]

same

 

[seeker]

I just wanna scream

Let sum out bro. Crying secretely lowk help sometimes

 

[Blitz]

mirin

 

[Deleted member 130061]

same

 

[Deleted member 90909]

Don't be afraid to talk to somebody. Don't give up hope. It gets better.

 

[seeker]

Don't be afraid to talk to somebody. Don't give up hope. It gets better.

Appreciate u brother but talking kinda isnt helping. I've been to a therapist and a psychiatrist. One guy told me to 'breathe deeply everyday at 5am' and the other gave me antidepressants but parents wont let me take them

 

[Deleted member 90909]

Appreciate u brother but talking kinda isnt helping. I've been to a therapist and a psychiatrist. One guy told me to 'breathe deeply everyday at 5am' and the other gave me antidepressants but parents wont let me take them

Sorry to hear that. Yeah, a lot of therapists do suck, but that doesn't mean you should give up on finding one that doesn't.

 

[Neucher]

because you are

 

[seeker]

Sorry to hear that. Yeah, a lot of therapists do suck, but that doesn't mean you should give up on finding one that doesn't.

You're right, I would but my parents wont take me to therapy anymore. Sucks honestly

 

[Troglodyte452]

Felt crazy when I went through some of my old posts and saw how religious I was despite being extremely depressed at the time too.

I made a mistake by turning to drugs (benzos and weed)

Stopped reading. Just dont be stupid theory

 

[Palang]

Appreciate u brother but talking kinda isnt helping. I've been to a therapist and a psychiatrist. One guy told me to 'breathe deeply everyday at 5am' and the other gave me antidepressants but parents wont let me take them

Breath deeply

 

[seeker]

Stopped reading. Just dont be stupid theory

Nah I think stupidity is true happiness. What I did is called being retarded

 

[seeker]

Shit I can't take it back though. And I don't blame myself, needed an escape. Still do

 

[Troglodyte452]

Nah I think stupidity is true happiness. What I did is called being retarded

agreed, I've tried cigs, alcohol, drugs myself but I always did it in a correct way I feel like, with friends, no randoms around and never went back (to the drugs and cigs)

 

[seeker]

agreed, I've tried cigs, alcohol, drugs myself but I always did it in a correct way I feel like, with friends, no randoms around and never went back (to the drugs and cigs)

Yeah, addiction is terrible