mats.v
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Backstory:
Been friends with this foid for a few years now. Always had a liking for her. Never had the guts to ask her out though. Didn’t see her for a few months and we saw each other one on one the other night. Previously she made comments that I looked good. So I said fuck it. She straight rejected me. She was confused. I’m glad this puts an end to it and I don’t have to fake being her friend now cause I just wanted a relationship, I now can’t get back all the time I wasted. All the years, of hoping and waiting for the right moment.
This just reminds me that I still have so much more to do.
Love has never worked for me. My best friend had a long time friend who randomly he had sex with one night and is in a long term relationship. Me? Girls end up liking me but some shit like, they move away, stop coming to social events where I met them, or they’re too much of a good girl, ends up happening.. this shit never works out for me. Atp I feel like God wants me to be a monk or a priest and dedicate my life to Christianity so he keeps blocking this from me
This girl I asked out btw is always with ugly guys, I don’t get why I couldn’t be one of them, even though I’m literally better looking than them all.
This shit is fuckng brutal, and my parents keep asking me how my night was out with this girl and I can’t just tell them what happened. That I’m a loser. I can’t. And they keep persisting and asking it’s like holy fuck stop making my life more miserable
I just have the urge to blast steroids now, and abuse amphetamine to make a million dollars. I don’t give a fuck. I think this might’ve flipped a switch in me genuinely. I did it on purpose because somehow I knew this was going to happen and figured it was gonna fuel me for the next year
I was scared to take Roids and take risks but now it just seems like I’m not gonna think twice about it
I already ordered them they’re on the way from china rn from a trusted meso seller. I’ll start with 200mG of test and probably add another 100mG sometime between months 2-4. And then moderate dose Anavar for the last month on a deficit
And then plastic surgery probably next year, this was the last straw for me
Js posting this for anyone who can relate
Been friends with this foid for a few years now. Always had a liking for her. Never had the guts to ask her out though. Didn’t see her for a few months and we saw each other one on one the other night. Previously she made comments that I looked good. So I said fuck it. She straight rejected me. She was confused. I’m glad this puts an end to it and I don’t have to fake being her friend now cause I just wanted a relationship, I now can’t get back all the time I wasted. All the years, of hoping and waiting for the right moment.
This just reminds me that I still have so much more to do.
Love has never worked for me. My best friend had a long time friend who randomly he had sex with one night and is in a long term relationship. Me? Girls end up liking me but some shit like, they move away, stop coming to social events where I met them, or they’re too much of a good girl, ends up happening.. this shit never works out for me. Atp I feel like God wants me to be a monk or a priest and dedicate my life to Christianity so he keeps blocking this from me
This girl I asked out btw is always with ugly guys, I don’t get why I couldn’t be one of them, even though I’m literally better looking than them all.
This shit is fuckng brutal, and my parents keep asking me how my night was out with this girl and I can’t just tell them what happened. That I’m a loser. I can’t. And they keep persisting and asking it’s like holy fuck stop making my life more miserable
I just have the urge to blast steroids now, and abuse amphetamine to make a million dollars. I don’t give a fuck. I think this might’ve flipped a switch in me genuinely. I did it on purpose because somehow I knew this was going to happen and figured it was gonna fuel me for the next year
I was scared to take Roids and take risks but now it just seems like I’m not gonna think twice about it
I already ordered them they’re on the way from china rn from a trusted meso seller. I’ll start with 200mG of test and probably add another 100mG sometime between months 2-4. And then moderate dose Anavar for the last month on a deficit
And then plastic surgery probably next year, this was the last straw for me
Js posting this for anyone who can relate



