Fuck being chad it is a lie

[Dorogi]

Fuck deaming about people admiring me or being loveable i know that shit is bullshit even if it did magically happen i will always remember how it "used to be" (NOW) and its clear not a single chad chadlite or htn has those memories he has "innerlight" becausr he grew up around people he was MADE to be around people. The only reason looks/status/charisma matter is because of OTHER PEOPLE, when you take them out of the equasion its worthless thats why i now dream of being alone and for that i dont need a pretth face (because im not in some fucking watpadd where y/n the 4'11 hypergamous girl discovers the 6'3 CL hermit in the woods) god crafted me to be alone and that included looking repulsive and having an unlikable personality, fuck those bluepillers with their "well if you know it that means you can change it" fuck you i dont want to life a live of faking ill just be unloveable but unloveable in hiding thats no diffrence to me. In soceity i have NO ONE and NOTHING to life for everyday i just get proven how much i hate people and how much people hate me, i could stay here and rot on ssris but thats just delaying the inevitable and my family can have fun scraping my brains of the wall in a few years (Fuck them they think im crazy too).
Theres no point for me in going ER and killing everyone because no matter how much i scream how much i yell and scream at them to understand they will never even LISTEN to me, their world and mine is an entire diffrent thing when im talking to anyone outside of .org it feels like everything is behind some kind of filter, i cannot connect in a human way only through logic and observations throughout the years. When i blow my brains out and god is real even if he gave me another chance i wouldnt be able to believe in him because why would he create me? Out of all those billions of souls why create one that will always be disconected from others on any spiritual/mental/psychological plane, they say god is all knowing and only god knows what live has in mind for you but i know and he knows that i will stay on this slow descent to eventual suicide unless i decide to kill myself earlier than that.
And for all those fucks waiting to tell me to livestream it, i will and i hope my dead body will haunt you forever fuck you and fuck everyone IRL that might ever uncover this message if i havent already smashed my phone to bits

 

[jester patell]

Dnr

 

[awok]

Fuck deaming about people admiring me or being loveable i know that shit is bullshit even if it did magically happen i will always remember how it "used to be" (NOW) and its clear not a single chad chadlite or htn has those memories he has "innerlight" becausr he grew up around people he was MADE to be around people. The only reason looks/status/charisma matter is because of OTHER PEOPLE, when you take them out of the equasion its worthless thats why i now dream of being alone and for that i dont need a pretth face (because im not in some fucking watpadd where y/n the 4'11 hypergamous girl discovers the 6'3 CL hermit in the woods) god crafted me to be alone and that included looking repulsive and having an unlikable personality, fuck those bluepillers with their "well if you know it that means you can change it" fuck you i dont want to life a live of faking ill just be unloveable but unloveable in hiding thats no diffrence to me. In soceity i have NO ONE and NOTHING to life for everyday i just get proven how much i hate people and how much people hate me, i could stay here and rot on ssris but thats just delaying the inevitable and my family can have fun scraping my brains of the wall in a few years (Fuck them they think im crazy too).
Theres no point for me in going ER and killing everyone because no matter how much i scream how much i yell and scream at them to understand they will never even LISTEN to me, their world and mine is an entire diffrent thing when im talking to anyone outside of .org it feels like everything is behind some kind of filter, i cannot connect in a human way only through logic and observations throughout the years. When i blow my brains out and god is real even if he gave me another chance i wouldnt be able to believe in him because why would he create me? Out of all those billions of souls why create one that will always be disconected from others on any spiritual/mental/psychological plane, they say god is all knowing and only god knows what live has in mind for you but i know and he knows that i will stay on this slow descent to eventual suicide unless i decide to kill myself earlier than that.
And for all those fucks waiting to tell me to livestream it, i will and i hope my dead body will haunt you forever fuck you and fuck everyone IRL that might ever uncover this message if i havent already smashed my phone to bits

D to the n to the r

 

[Whiteboard7]

Fuck deaming about people admiring me or being loveable i know that shit is bullshit even if it did magically happen i will always remember how it "used to be" (NOW) and its clear not a single chad chadlite or htn has those memories he has "innerlight" becausr he grew up around people he was MADE to be around people. The only reason looks/status/charisma matter is because of OTHER PEOPLE, when you take them out of the equasion its worthless thats why i now dream of being alone and for that i dont need a pretth face (because im not in some fucking watpadd where y/n the 4'11 hypergamous girl discovers the 6'3 CL hermit in the woods) god crafted me to be alone and that included looking repulsive and having an unlikable personality, fuck those bluepillers with their "well if you know it that means you can change it" fuck you i dont want to life a live of faking ill just be unloveable but unloveable in hiding thats no diffrence to me. In soceity i have NO ONE and NOTHING to life for everyday i just get proven how much i hate people and how much people hate me, i could stay here and rot on ssris but thats just delaying the inevitable and my family can have fun scraping my brains of the wall in a few years (Fuck them they think im crazy too).
Theres no point for me in going ER and killing everyone because no matter how much i scream how much i yell and scream at them to understand they will never even LISTEN to me, their world and mine is an entire diffrent thing when im talking to anyone outside of .org it feels like everything is behind some kind of filter, i cannot connect in a human way only through logic and observations throughout the years. When i blow my brains out and god is real even if he gave me another chance i wouldnt be able to believe in him because why would he create me? Out of all those billions of souls why create one that will always be disconected from others on any spiritual/mental/psychological plane, they say god is all knowing and only god knows what live has in mind for you but i know and he knows that i will stay on this slow descent to eventual suicide unless i decide to kill myself earlier than that.
And for all those fucks waiting to tell me to livestream it, i will and i hope my dead body will haunt you forever fuck you and fuck everyone IRL that might ever uncover this message if i havent already smashed my phone to bits

Sorry to hear what your going through bhai

 

[perculezz]

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i agree with u no one wil ever truly know how u feel or understand u they will try but they never will and being lonely is prob thebbest thing cause the people are gonna leave u anyway so whats the point in having them in the first place

and i hope u are doing okay

 

[karmacita901]

it is possible to recover inner light, i've already done it twice

of course i lost it both times because i hadn't properly ascended but i know it can be done

 

[Aox Ofwar]

i dont want to life a live of

I don't want to life a live

 

[Aox Ofwar]

But honestly I kinda read that so don't kill yourself

 

[FiendFiend]

Fuck deaming about people admiring me or being loveable i know that shit is bullshit even if it did magically happen i will always remember how it "used to be" (NOW) and its clear not a single chad chadlite or htn has those memories he has "innerlight" becausr he grew up around people he was MADE to be around people. The only reason looks/status/charisma matter is because of OTHER PEOPLE, when you take them out of the equasion its worthless thats why i now dream of being alone and for that i dont need a pretth face (because im not in some fucking watpadd where y/n the 4'11 hypergamous girl discovers the 6'3 CL hermit in the woods) god crafted me to be alone and that included looking repulsive and having an unlikable personality, fuck those bluepillers with their "well if you know it that means you can change it" fuck you i dont want to life a live of faking ill just be unloveable but unloveable in hiding thats no diffrence to me. In soceity i have NO ONE and NOTHING to life for everyday i just get proven how much i hate people and how much people hate me, i could stay here and rot on ssris but thats just delaying the inevitable and my family can have fun scraping my brains of the wall in a few years (Fuck them they think im crazy too).
Theres no point for me in going ER and killing everyone because no matter how much i scream how much i yell and scream at them to understand they will never even LISTEN to me, their world and mine is an entire diffrent thing when im talking to anyone outside of .org it feels like everything is behind some kind of filter, i cannot connect in a human way only through logic and observations throughout the years. When i blow my brains out and god is real even if he gave me another chance i wouldnt be able to believe in him because why would he create me? Out of all those billions of souls why create one that will always be disconected from others on any spiritual/mental/psychological plane, they say god is all knowing and only god knows what live has in mind for you but i know and he knows that i will stay on this slow descent to eventual suicide unless i decide to kill myself earlier than that.
And for all those fucks waiting to tell me to livestream it, i will and i hope my dead body will haunt you forever fuck you and fuck everyone IRL that might ever uncover this message if i havent already smashed my phone to bits

there was only one chad btw, jon erik hexum, there is 0 psl 9s i have ever seen since