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I've been seeing a really attractive girl for almost a year, but we've only been on 5 dates, because she kept canceling. I gave up multiple times, but she would keep messaging me and trying to arrange something.
Now, I'm someone who's lonely, and have been dealing with FA issues my whole life. This girl looks like a model. I'm also 30, and she's 23.
Because I have nothing going on with anyone else, I never cut contact with her, and about two weeks ago she asked for one last try to meet up, and I said yes to one last time. We agreed to meet at my place last Thursday, and lo and behold, she actually showed up.
I'm relaxed buy nervous, because I knew it would be now or never to try to cement this relationship with sex. We made dinner and talked for hours, and .. the one good thing about me is that I can make a girl laugh. I'm also very conscientious, and you know, I could tell she was having a good time.
The one thing that's held me back my whole life in terms of hooking up with girls is my penis size, which I'm absolutely ashamed and embarrassed by; 13cm. It's why I waited until she basically had to leave to make my move, but I managed to go for it, and we immediately began embracing each other.
We go into my bedroom and she's totally wild. We start fucking, and she has the body of a pornstar, and fucks like one too. I'm having trouble getting fully erect because of nervs and just, everything, so I know it's not my best performance, but I'm trying. I also hold back on fingering and oral, because I feel most girls are uncomfortable with that on the first time?
Anyways, we fuck twice, and I ask if she wants to spend the night (it's like 1am) and she said yes. The last thing we did before falling asleep was I massaged and scratched her back a bit, and she asked me to keep going, which i did, until she fell asleep.
The next morning, she seemed very rushed to leave. I work from home, and had to get online shortly, but she quickly got on her clothes and was out the door.
I had a bad feeling right away, and we didn't text that day. I sent her a message on snapchat yesterday, which she took hours to open, and didn't respond, and today I noticed she's deleted me from snapchat and instagram.
I feel crushed. We talked so much, and it's been so long, and then she just ghosts me like that.
But it made me think.. this girl gets solicited by guys all the time; guys even offering her thousands of dollars for her underwear and stuff on instagram, and she can get any guy she wants.
If my penis and sex really was terrible, I get why she wouldn't want to put up with it, and why ghosting me is the easiest way to get out.
But I still feel terrible, and alone.
Now, I'm someone who's lonely, and have been dealing with FA issues my whole life. This girl looks like a model. I'm also 30, and she's 23.
Because I have nothing going on with anyone else, I never cut contact with her, and about two weeks ago she asked for one last try to meet up, and I said yes to one last time. We agreed to meet at my place last Thursday, and lo and behold, she actually showed up.
I'm relaxed buy nervous, because I knew it would be now or never to try to cement this relationship with sex. We made dinner and talked for hours, and .. the one good thing about me is that I can make a girl laugh. I'm also very conscientious, and you know, I could tell she was having a good time.
The one thing that's held me back my whole life in terms of hooking up with girls is my penis size, which I'm absolutely ashamed and embarrassed by; 13cm. It's why I waited until she basically had to leave to make my move, but I managed to go for it, and we immediately began embracing each other.
We go into my bedroom and she's totally wild. We start fucking, and she has the body of a pornstar, and fucks like one too. I'm having trouble getting fully erect because of nervs and just, everything, so I know it's not my best performance, but I'm trying. I also hold back on fingering and oral, because I feel most girls are uncomfortable with that on the first time?
Anyways, we fuck twice, and I ask if she wants to spend the night (it's like 1am) and she said yes. The last thing we did before falling asleep was I massaged and scratched her back a bit, and she asked me to keep going, which i did, until she fell asleep.
The next morning, she seemed very rushed to leave. I work from home, and had to get online shortly, but she quickly got on her clothes and was out the door.
I had a bad feeling right away, and we didn't text that day. I sent her a message on snapchat yesterday, which she took hours to open, and didn't respond, and today I noticed she's deleted me from snapchat and instagram.
I feel crushed. We talked so much, and it's been so long, and then she just ghosts me like that.
But it made me think.. this girl gets solicited by guys all the time; guys even offering her thousands of dollars for her underwear and stuff on instagram, and she can get any guy she wants.
If my penis and sex really was terrible, I get why she wouldn't want to put up with it, and why ghosting me is the easiest way to get out.
But I still feel terrible, and alone.