Amnesia
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Long story short, a Tinder girl i had hung out with once before invited over to her friends house where there were 2 girls and 3 guys. After the girls went to sleep us 3 guys were just chillin, they were friendly NT, talking about drugs, music, rap, etc. I wasnt participating that much in the convo since I dont do drugs and dont know current music so already I started to feel out of place
Anyway they wanna play a game where you just put on a beat and spit a few verses and then pass it to the next guy in the circle, he does the same thing, etc.Suddenly my anxiety jumps cause there's like no chance I can participate in this game, like I cant just freestyle rap even if its just a few lines, like no chance. They start it off and are rhyming well, even if its stupid stuff. And the guy looks to me as if I am to go and Im like lemme take this round out bro dont think Ive ever played it, hes like sure no prob.
They keep going back and forth and my autistic mind is sitting there in wonder on how these NTs are just able to shoot the shit with verses to some beat they never heard of. I am quickly trying to come up with SOME type of verse in my head but literally blank total blank.
This goes on a while and I keep sitting the rounds out to the point they genuinely are trying to be bros and cool like, Man just give it a shot its all good, say anything bro, its just for fun.
I start to feel bad like I am being a jerk and Im like "S-sorry guys, my brain just isnt wired like that, I think imma take off." They're like Bro its all good, we're sorry if we were pressuring you, just come back you dont gotta play, we feel bad now. But I just stumbled to the door and left
Anyway they wanna play a game where you just put on a beat and spit a few verses and then pass it to the next guy in the circle, he does the same thing, etc.Suddenly my anxiety jumps cause there's like no chance I can participate in this game, like I cant just freestyle rap even if its just a few lines, like no chance. They start it off and are rhyming well, even if its stupid stuff. And the guy looks to me as if I am to go and Im like lemme take this round out bro dont think Ive ever played it, hes like sure no prob.
They keep going back and forth and my autistic mind is sitting there in wonder on how these NTs are just able to shoot the shit with verses to some beat they never heard of. I am quickly trying to come up with SOME type of verse in my head but literally blank total blank.
This goes on a while and I keep sitting the rounds out to the point they genuinely are trying to be bros and cool like, Man just give it a shot its all good, say anything bro, its just for fun.
I start to feel bad like I am being a jerk and Im like "S-sorry guys, my brain just isnt wired like that, I think imma take off." They're like Bro its all good, we're sorry if we were pressuring you, just come back you dont gotta play, we feel bad now. But I just stumbled to the door and left
