Unmoggablegingercel
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I've come to realize that its not all about looks. I am 22 years old and until a couple months ago i was KHHV. I had to girls fawning over me because of my looks that i lost because i am autistic around women. Believe it or not I work a door to door sales job, so I should be very social and NT, and I am great at my job, but i can not come up with things on the spot in normal conversations with women. and i don't know how to talk to women my age. So basically over the summer we have our team of 15 sales guys. And a girl came to visit one of them. He was my really good friend, and she was his really good friend. She was probably a 6.5/10 on the looks scale. white, Pretty attractive face, with a fat ass. So when she came I hung around my friend and she was there, and she was there for 2 days. During those 2 days i was incredibly weird and we were around each other maybe 8 hours in total. She took EXTREME interest in me of all the 15 guys due to me being best friends with her mutual friend, and him respecting me. She also LOVED my height, she constantly talked about how she only likes men over 6 feet. She also said specifically she liked my bone structure.Well after she left i thought she was gone and i felt a connection and was sad. Well, SHE added ME on snapchat and she wanted me to visit her in oregon ASAP. But i didnt really jump on it and we started talking for a couple months.
She lived in a different state than me. SO basically, she was all obsessed with me and she eventually bought a ticket to come visit me at my cabin in the middle of the woods in a different state... I talked all about how i was gonna fuck her and it was sexual before she came. But we spent 3 days together and we didn't have sex. I didnt know how to initiate. We cuddled and watched movies and flirted the entire time and i have never felt that kind of love from a women in my entire life. To lay on her boobs shirtless while she stroked me and caressed me and holding her in my arms for hours was orgasmic. and even slept together jfl... I DIDNT EVEN HAVE THE COURAGE TO KISS HER once when she gave me so many chances. and she told me after she left she was so frustrated. WE EVEN SHOWERED TOGETHER. So basically she initiated and kissed me twice and that was my first real kiss... and we held hands a lot. Then after she went home she still liked me for a couple weeks but then she realized that something was off and she cut me off. i was not NT. So she ended up contacting her bbc ex and that was the end of that.
I then had a girl from tinder that i met and talked to for 3 weeks. She told me how hot she thought i was. I took her on a date to a restaurant and after she said she could already see herself falling for me and that i was "so hot". we made out in her car heavily but she said before teh date she was not gonna have sex the first date no matter what. She fantasized about me after the date and we talked non stop about all the crazy sex we were gonna have together. But she wanted one more date before. So i took her out again. it was horrible. My driving was so bad because i have ADHD and nearly got in a car accident. (i actually got pulled over on the first date). And we clashed hard on politics, She carried the conversation hard i did not hardly even speak because i was trying to act like i did not care because that is what chad does right? And worst of all i made an autistic comment about the food she was eating i said "that's a lot of carbs" i didnt even mean it like that but it offended her horribly and made her feel bad. The combination of all those things brought her interest from 10 all the way to 0 in a mere 1 hour session, because she realized this was not going to last long term, and she went for some other chad on tinder over me. she was probably a 6.5/10 in looks.
I have had me ego shattered brutally twice in the span of 1-2 months. I thought looks were everything. I can get into the door but i cant keep them around. And i will admit i have had girls that were just down to come over and fuck but i never did that. So i guess volcel. I just want an ltr and i want to fall in love man thats all. Maybe fuck around and have 10 different concubines for a while. Maybe its over for me. Im just glad i got to feel the touch of a women like that. Im making progress though so i guess that is good. Im 6'4 completely gymcelled with a 5-6 psl face. But being aspie is a death sentence. Im Currently rotting at home jobless because i work during the summer and make 6 figures, and i also dont go to school. So online dating is my only hope.
She lived in a different state than me. SO basically, she was all obsessed with me and she eventually bought a ticket to come visit me at my cabin in the middle of the woods in a different state... I talked all about how i was gonna fuck her and it was sexual before she came. But we spent 3 days together and we didn't have sex. I didnt know how to initiate. We cuddled and watched movies and flirted the entire time and i have never felt that kind of love from a women in my entire life. To lay on her boobs shirtless while she stroked me and caressed me and holding her in my arms for hours was orgasmic. and even slept together jfl... I DIDNT EVEN HAVE THE COURAGE TO KISS HER once when she gave me so many chances. and she told me after she left she was so frustrated. WE EVEN SHOWERED TOGETHER. So basically she initiated and kissed me twice and that was my first real kiss... and we held hands a lot. Then after she went home she still liked me for a couple weeks but then she realized that something was off and she cut me off. i was not NT. So she ended up contacting her bbc ex and that was the end of that.
I then had a girl from tinder that i met and talked to for 3 weeks. She told me how hot she thought i was. I took her on a date to a restaurant and after she said she could already see herself falling for me and that i was "so hot". we made out in her car heavily but she said before teh date she was not gonna have sex the first date no matter what. She fantasized about me after the date and we talked non stop about all the crazy sex we were gonna have together. But she wanted one more date before. So i took her out again. it was horrible. My driving was so bad because i have ADHD and nearly got in a car accident. (i actually got pulled over on the first date). And we clashed hard on politics, She carried the conversation hard i did not hardly even speak because i was trying to act like i did not care because that is what chad does right? And worst of all i made an autistic comment about the food she was eating i said "that's a lot of carbs" i didnt even mean it like that but it offended her horribly and made her feel bad. The combination of all those things brought her interest from 10 all the way to 0 in a mere 1 hour session, because she realized this was not going to last long term, and she went for some other chad on tinder over me. she was probably a 6.5/10 in looks.
I have had me ego shattered brutally twice in the span of 1-2 months. I thought looks were everything. I can get into the door but i cant keep them around. And i will admit i have had girls that were just down to come over and fuck but i never did that. So i guess volcel. I just want an ltr and i want to fall in love man thats all. Maybe fuck around and have 10 different concubines for a while. Maybe its over for me. Im just glad i got to feel the touch of a women like that. Im making progress though so i guess that is good. Im 6'4 completely gymcelled with a 5-6 psl face. But being aspie is a death sentence. Im Currently rotting at home jobless because i work during the summer and make 6 figures, and i also dont go to school. So online dating is my only hope.
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