has your heart ever been broken?

[LowInhibNoSMV]

and if yes, what was the first time?

im smoking a J rn and im feeling talkative so heres a little story time, turn the music on if its too boring:

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for me it was a girl from my village i really liked
id run to see her on the bus every thursday

she was about 3 years older than me at that point, probably 17.

i had never seen such a beautiful girl
she was blonde with freckles and always wore sunflower dresses

i was too shy to speak to her, but one day I did dare to and asked what music she was listening to
it was Life is Beautiful by Lil Peep

i was 14 at the time and had never been in love, so i did what i thought was logical
i wrote her a love letter, my friend was her neighbor so i knew where she lived

i told her she was beautiful and who i was
and i gave her my phone number

that night i randomly woke up at 3 am, which never happened before
i checked my phone and saw a imessage

i opened it and read the text, it went along the lines of:
„your a creep, im not interested and never will be, dont sit next to me on the bus ever again and leave me alone“

that really hurt me, and although minor to my second heartbreak, it gave me a peak at what my life would be like

thanks for reading

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[pexy]

YESZ

 

[SPAM]

HOPEFULLY YOU GREW FROM IT. MOST GUYS GET THERE HEART BROKEN SADLY

 

[polarpop]

no

 

[Jibba]

I had a huge crush on a transfer student and she liked me aswell

but I started making it obvious too late and she went back to her country

I would have married her if I could

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

I had a huge crush on a transfer student and she liked me aswell

but I started making it obvious too late and she went back to her country

I would have married her if I could

sad, same thing happened to my friend, but he moved away years ago

 

[DysgenicArtery]

and if yes, what was the first time?

im smoking a J rn and im feeling talkative so heres a little story time, turn the music on if its too boring:

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for me it was a girl from my village i really liked
id run to see her on the bus every thursday

she was about 3 years older than me at that point, probably 17.

i had never seen such a beautiful girl
she was blonde with freckles and always wore sunflower dresses

i was too shy to speak to her, but one day I did dare to and asked what music she was listening to
it was Life is Beautiful by Lil Peep

i was 14 at the time and had never been in love, so i did what i thought was logical
i wrote her a love letter, my friend was her neighbor so i knew where she lived

i told her she was beautiful and who i was
and i gave her my phone number

that night i randomly woke up at 3 am, which never happened before
i checked my phone and saw a imessage

i opened it and read the text, it went along the lines of:
„your a creep, im not interested and never will be, dont sit next to me on the bus ever again and leave me alone“

that really hurt me, and although minor to my second heartbreak, it gave me a peak at what my life would be like

thanks for reading

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It's crazy how low inhib people are as preteens and teenagers

Would have never even dared to do some shit like this

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

It's crazy how low inhib people are as preteens and teenagers

Would have never even dared to do some shit like this

it was the first and basically last time

as my name says „low inhib no smv“
thats actually based on this moment

since i was very young this really changed my life
made me scared of women for years, resentful even
now i dont feel anything towards them

 

[jflmeister]

if my heart was never broken i would have never made an account here

 

[jflmeister]

i'd say the most vapid and useless people on forums are people who have no deep seated emotional resentment or trauma

you can tell by how they talk

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

i'd say the most vapid and useless people on forums are people who have no deep seated emotional resentment or trauma

you can tell by how they talk

thats true
ive let go though

its all connected and seperate
they are not bad people for what they did
good people do bad things
and bad people do good things

once you accept this you start to move on

 

[Absurdist]

and if yes, what was the first time?

im smoking a J rn and im feeling talkative so heres a little story time, turn the music on if its too boring:

---

for me it was a girl from my village i really liked
id run to see her on the bus every thursday

she was about 3 years older than me at that point, probably 17.

i had never seen such a beautiful girl
she was blonde with freckles and always wore sunflower dresses

i was too shy to speak to her, but one day I did dare to and asked what music she was listening to
it was Life is Beautiful by Lil Peep

i was 14 at the time and had never been in love, so i did what i thought was logical
i wrote her a love letter, my friend was her neighbor so i knew where she lived

i told her she was beautiful and who i was
and i gave her my phone number

that night i randomly woke up at 3 am, which never happened before
i checked my phone and saw a imessage

i opened it and read the text, it went along the lines of:
„your a creep, im not interested and never will be, dont sit next to me on the bus ever again and leave me alone“

that really hurt me, and although minor to my second heartbreak, it gave me a peak at what my life would be like

thanks for reading

---

Yes.

Blonde and green eyes.

Chased hard after me.

We both loved reading books and listening (funnily enough) to The Smiths.

It was pretty nice.

My first taste of what intimacy and affection could feel like.

But then I got into a huge depressive episode combined with some other mixed state.

I isolated from her and basically forgot about her.

Then I did some crazy shit (supposedly manic) and got cops involved.

After that I tried to hide it but rumors were spread.

She heard about them and I lied.

But she found out the truth and from there it all went downhill.

In the end she told me the classic "its not you its me. i think we should stay friends."

And went on to fuck other guys and be intimate with my close friend.

The end.

 

[Hess]

I was abt 15-16 and it was the first time a girl ever willingly approached me and intiated and even asked me out and showed interest, she gave me a lot of attention but it lasted only for a week and it broke my heart cuz she dumped me for whatever, before that i was indifferent to women as i thought i would be alone forever and didnt care but it showed me that women can like me and find me attractive which made me looksmax and eventually experincing more relationships, having my heart broke and finding the one i really do love

 

[Hess]

I was abt 15-16 and it was the first time a girl ever willingly approached me and intiated and even asked me out and showed interest, she gave me a lot of attention but it lasted only for a week and it broke my heart cuz she dumped me for whatever, before that i was indifferent to women as i thought i would be alone forever and didnt care but it showed me that women can like me and find me attractive which made me looksmax and eventually experincing more relationships, having my heart broke and finding the one i really do love

it felt shit and ripped my heart out multiple times with different girls but it made me grow which is why i don't regret a thing

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

Yes.

Blonde and green eyes.

Chased hard after me.

We both loved reading books and listening (funnily enough) to The Smiths.

It was pretty nice.

My first taste of what intimacy and affection could feel like.

But then I got into a huge depressive episode combined with some other mixed state.

I isolated from her and basically forgot about her.

Then I did some crazy shit (supposedly manic) and got cops involved.

After that I tried to hide it but rumors were spread.

She heard about them and I lied.

But she found out the truth and from there it all went downhill.

In the end she told me the classic "its not you its me. i think we should stay friends."

And went on to fuck other guys and be intimate with my close friend.

The end.

thank you for the story
mine had green eyes too
its a different kind of beauty

have you moved on in any way?

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

it felt shit and ripped my heart out multiple times with different girls but it made me grow which is why i don't regret a thing

last line is very important
thank you for sharing, its sad but all heartbreak has some beauty in it

 

[Absurdist]

thank you for the story
mine had green eyes too
its a different kind of beauty

have you moved on in any way?

I try to convince myself i've moved on, but I know damn well I still check her out and want her.

But I can't have her.

Its a tragedy.

So i just ldar.

 

[Hess]

last line is very important
thank you for sharing, its sad but all heartbreak has some beauty in it

Love goes hand in hand with tragedy, you can't separate the two, which is what makes it even more beautiful

 

[supremeltn]

sad

„your a creep, im not interested and never will be, dont sit next to me on the bus ever again and leave me alone“

how hard is it for foids to have empathy

 

[lovend]

yes only once tho

 

[lowinhibragecel]

2 years ago i sat next to this girl in geography class

and thanks to her genuinely bubbly and refreshing personality, she got my low inhib ass talking and we would just converse for so long.
It felt euphoric. I had never been really happy at all in life and Im not now anymore either. But i think i experienced what real joy and warmth was like.

and she was so beautiful

i acctually wasn't a pussy for once and i texted her first and we were talking for months

but alas i was too coward to make a move and she eventually ghosted me

a month later i see her walking around all the time with a 6ft white guy ( who wasn't even gl) who was older than her

and I just broke

I have never been able to get over her since

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

2 years ago i sat next to this girl in geography class

and thanks to her genuinely bubbly and refreshing personality, she got my low inhib ass talking and we would just converse for so long.
It felt euphoric. I had never been really happy at all in life and Im not now anymore either. But i think i experienced what real joy and warmth was like.

and she was so beautiful

i acctually wasn't a pussy for once and i texted her first and we were talking for months

but alas i was too coward to make a move and she eventually ghosted me

a month later i see her walking around all the time with a 6ft white guy ( who wasn't even gl) who was older than her

and I just broke

I have never been able to get over her since

you werent meant for eachother then
you cant change what happened
dont punish yourself by becoming stuck

you are letting the temporary intertwining of your karmic cycles govern your life permanently

you are no longer connected, and as long as you dont accept that, you‘ll forever bleed your positive emotions into the emptyness

 

[lowinhibragecel]

you werent meant for eachother then
you cant change what happened
dont punish yourself by becoming stuck

you are letting the temporary intertwining of your karmic cycles govern your life permanently

you are no longer connected, and as long as you dont accept that, you‘ll forever bleed your positive emotions into the emptyness

yeah i really have to learn to accept it

a guy like me was just never meant to experience genuine reciprocated feelings

also what happened with her really opened my eyes to how much I had been coping about my height and looks my whole life

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

yeah i really have to learn to accept it

a guy like me was just never meant to experience genuine reciprocated feelings

also what happened with her really opened my eyes to how much I had been coping about my height and looks my whole life

hey bro, i was depressed for 2 years until i realized something 2 weeks ago

it doesnt matter what you were „made for“.
you are yourself
you have control over your life
you are a person that can walk around with confidence

maybe not because your looks back it up
but because your heart does, your soul does.

if you adapt this mindset, harder said than done (i only managed to do so by going on a one week trip to berlin which made me very independant)
you will also want to do good,
i for example cant stop giving to the homeless now

you wont care what others think
you realize whatever you want, can happen

 

[lowinhibragecel]

hey bro, i was depressed for 2 years until i realized something 2 weeks ago

it doesnt matter what you were „made for“.
you are yourself
you have control over your life
you are a person that can walk around with confidence

maybe not because your looks back it up
but because your heart does, your soul does.

if you adapt this mindset, harder said than done (i only managed to do so by going on a one week trip to berlin which made me very independant)
you will also want to do good,
i for example cant stop giving to the homeless now

you wont care what others think
you realize whatever you want, can happen

idk man

do i really have control over my life

i just feel so pessimistic

as if no matter what I do, there are so many things in the world out of my control that can indirectly work against me. All my work and struggle now will probably never lead me to the things i desire and dream of.

i feel as if I will never able to have a genuine human connection with anyone outside of my family, sometimes i even feel as I struggle to connect with my family

i really admire you giving to the homeless

one christmas night a few years ago I went around the local train station and gave some bread and drink to the homeless sleeping around. I felt good about myself.

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

idk man

do i really have control over my life

i just feel so pessimistic

as if no matter what I do, there are so many things in the world out of my control that can indirectly work against me. All my work and struggle now will probably never lead me to the things i desire and dream of.

i feel as if I will never able to have a genuine human connection with anyone outside of my family, sometimes i even feel as I struggle to connect with my family

i really admire you giving to the homeless

one christmas night a few years ago I went around the local train station and gave some bread and drink to the homeless sleeping around. I felt good about myself.

in my heart i always want to help others
and i used to hate myself at the same time
it made me more and more hateful
but then i realized

if others hate you for something that doesnt show your true inner worth

why do you hate yourself for it too?

you know you are a good person at the core
good people do very bad things
forgive yourself
your future is full of light if you just let it shine on you

please really think about this
you have to go inside yourself

do you listen to sad music alot?

 

[lowinhibragecel]

in my heart i always want to help others
and i used to hate myself at the same time
it made me more and more hateful
but then i realized

if others hate you for something that doesnt show your true inner worth

why do you hate yourself for it too?

you know you are a good person at the core
good people do very bad things
forgive yourself
your future is full of light if you just let it shine on you

please really think about this
you have to go inside yourself

do you listen to sad music alot?

hmm seems I do

not neccesarily sad tho? would you consider bedroom pop sad music

im guessing youll say that contributes to my depression

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

hmm seems I do

not neccesarily sad tho? would you consider bedroom pop sad music

im guessing youll say that contributes to my depression

it did for mine
i just did this, i went back to the newest music i listened to before i fell into depression
for me that was german gangster rap
but i went back to that for a week, and now im going into all happy music directions
it helps alot

 

[mrtjlvl]

okay straight ropefuel but ill tell it anyways
it was around a year ago maybe a bit longer
i met this asian girl she was really cute and funny i actually got my ass to talk to her and we clicked
we started talking more and more i was 5'10 at the time one day she said i was really handsome after that we got in a relationship
at first we talked allot if we where not with each other i would text i was downbad asf
then when i looked in her repost she was reposting these jacked anime dudes what made me insecure asf bc im skinny
so i started working out for her really high effort in trying to look better for her too then she became more distend all of the sudden she started reposting asian dudes while i was a white guy made me even more insecure looking at that while i was working out for her
i didn't want to leave bc she made me feel wanted and loved for the first time since my parents always liked my little brother more and didn't like me at all
then on random night while i was working out she texted me saying she wasn't ready for a relationship yet and some other bs
i ran to the showers locked the door and turned it on so no one would hear me break down sat there for hours
and to make it even worse where the actual ropefuel started was when i checked her acc everyday after that i saw myself slowly getting replaced by some other random dude and way to quick what means that he probably already was there while i had a relationship with her
always at the gym i would look at her acc seeing these sweet repost she was reposting about him everyday i would break down in the shower knowing even tho i tried everything even changing myself to her preferences i still get replaced by some dude who doesn't even try

 

[lowinhibragecel]

it did for mine
i just did this, i went back to the newest music i listened to before i fell into depression
for me that was german gangster rap
but i went back to that for a week, and now im going into all happy music directions
it helps alot

yeah i do agree my music probably contributes to my feelings

but id say it more builds onto already existing feelings rather than causes it i guess

i have always been quite a pessimistic and negative person, even before i discovered media e.g music

i remember i was 4 and coming back from a nice bookstore and I saw a homeless man without his arms or legs begging on a walkbridge

and I remember being feeling dreadful and upset in a way I couldn't describe

the sight was just so harrowing and i felt so bad for the man

dozens of people just walking past him everyday

I always had feelings like that since being young

 

[czar.x]

I remember it happened around these days, September end & October. That was the beginning. It was going pretty good back then, we used to talk alot lol. Barely used to sleep. She had some problems going on in her life, her studies, some family shit & something else too. It got real bad at some point, and I was there when she hit the rock bottom. Then it got a little better but after a few months she abandoned me lol. Being a dumbass I still tried to text her (i regret why tf i texted her again ). Yeah so she left and told me never fucking text again & get your shit outta here. I'm glad I didn't get into smoking and shit, after all this happened, I just used to blast music 24/7 at full volume lol. And barely used to go outside

But whatever, I realised I'm an ugly mfker who was just chasing things which were way out of my league. She was pretty yeah, but what else can I do. Whatever happened idgaf anymore tho, or maybe I do ? Idk. Well that was all

The beginning was good, I atleast felt some love and kindness even if it was for a while.

 

[lowinhibragecel]

okay straight ropefuel but ill tell it anyways
it was around a year ago maybe a bit longer
i met this asian girl she was really cute and funny i actually got my ass to talk to her and we clicked
we started talking more and more i was 5'10 at the time one day she said i was really handsome after that we got in a relationship
at first we talked allot if we where not with each other i would text i was downbad asf
then when i looked in her repost she was reposting these jacked anime dudes what made me insecure asf bc im skinny
so i started working out for her really high effort in trying to look better for her too then she became more distend all of the sudden she started reposting asian dudes while i was a white guy made me even more insecure looking at that while i was working out for her
i didn't want to leave bc she made me feel wanted and loved for the first time since my parents always liked my little brother more and didn't like me at all
then on random night while i was working out she texted me saying she wasn't ready for a relationship yet and some other bs
i ran to the showers locked the door and turned it on so no one would hear me break down sat there for hours
and to make it even worse where the actual ropefuel started was when i checked her acc everyday after that i saw myself slowly getting replaced by some other random dude and way to quick what means that he probably already was there while i had a relationship with her
always at the gym i would look at her acc seeing these sweet repost she was reposting about him everyday i would break down in the shower knowing even tho i tried everything even changing myself to her preferences i still get replaced by some dude who doesn't even try

same exact shit happened to me ( not with a girl i liked tho)

she texted me first, texted me all the time, called me handsome and then after 2 months said she wasn't ready for anything

i don't really care at all cus i never truly liked her

but its still kinda brutal

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

okay straight ropefuel but ill tell it anyways
it was around a year ago maybe a bit longer
i met this asian girl she was really cute and funny i actually got my ass to talk to her and we clicked
we started talking more and more i was 5'10 at the time one day she said i was really handsome after that we got in a relationship
at first we talked allot if we where not with each other i would text i was downbad asf
then when i looked in her repost she was reposting these jacked anime dudes what made me insecure asf bc im skinny
so i started working out for her really high effort in trying to look better for her too then she became more distend all of the sudden she started reposting asian dudes while i was a white guy made me even more insecure looking at that while i was working out for her
i didn't want to leave bc she made me feel wanted and loved for the first time since my parents always liked my little brother more and didn't like me at all
then on random night while i was working out she texted me saying she wasn't ready for a relationship yet and some other bs
i ran to the showers locked the door and turned it on so no one would hear me break down sat there for hours
and to make it even worse where the actual ropefuel started was when i checked her acc everyday after that i saw myself slowly getting replaced by some other random dude and way to quick what means that he probably already was there while i had a relationship with her
always at the gym i would look at her acc seeing these sweet repost she was reposting about him everyday i would break down in the shower knowing even tho i tried everything even changing myself to her preferences i still get replaced by some dude who doesn't even try

brutal rice pill…
thanks for sharing my bro

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

The beginning was good, I atleast felt some love and kindness even if it was for a while.

you will feel it again if you let it into your life
do good and you will recieve it back

thank you for the story. good read.

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

yeah i do agree my music probably contributes to my feelings

but id say it more builds onto already existing feelings rather than causes it i guess

i have always been quite a pessimistic and negative person, even before i discovered media e.g music

i remember i was 4 and coming back from a nice bookstore and I saw a homeless man without his arms or legs begging on a walkbridge

and I remember being feeling dreadful and upset in a way I couldn't describe

the sight was just so harrowing and i felt so bad for the man

dozens of people just walking past him everyday

I always had feelings like that since being young

ive just always wanted to help things
i used to come to school way to late after rainys days

I had to save every single rainworm before they dried out

 

[mrtjlvl]

same exact shit happened to me ( not with a girl i liked tho)

she texted me first, texted me all the time, called me handsome and then after 2 months said she wasn't ready for anything

i don't really care at all cus i never truly liked her

but its still kinda brutal

yeah to make it worse after that i got replaced 2 more times by my other gfs ill tell the second one

 

[lowinhibragecel]

ive just always wanted to help things
i used to come to school way to late after rainys days

I had to save every single rainworm before they dried out

sounds really nice

you sound like a really good person

rare to hear or see about nowadays

you are much better than me

i haven't been treated the greatest by this world and sometimes i struggle to do good things out of pure will

 

[mrtjlvl]

this girl i knew for verry long always been close with her was she goodlooking not that much but i wasn't either back then
her bf dumped her and since she was the only one that was nice to me i helped her
we found out that her ex bf just replaced her for a better girl

so we started going out almost every night it was during the winter season she complimented me allot
so ofc bc is some stupid loser i fell for her at some point she even held my hand she was genuinely so sweet to me
she even leaned against me on a bench when we where watching the stars
then one day she stopped replying not going out anymore i was so confused thinking i did smth wrong
she went back to her ex

to make it even worse i found out before she went back her ex had raped her
forcing her to suck his dick in the relation ship before i started talking to her

so when i found that out i lowk cried myself to sleep and OD on my own meds
i can't possibly be that bad

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

sounds really nice

you sound like a really good person

rare to hear or see about nowadays

you are much better than me

i haven't been treated the greatest by this world and sometimes i struggle to do good things out of pure will

thank you

there is always two sides to a coin
ive hurt countless people because of my ego
but ive recieved my fair punishment from the world back at me

my enviroment has always been pretty bad for me and i used to let it change me

and the fault of that is on me
ill never let it happen again though

i think your a good person too
you always get what you deserve
so stop thinking about doing good
do good
because even if its the same thing
only one will come back to you in the end

 

[lowinhibragecel]

thank you

there is always two sides to a coin
ive hurt countless people because of my ego
but ive recieved my fair punishment from the world back at me

my enviroment has always been pretty bad for me and i used to let it change me

and the fault of that is on me
ill never let it happen again though

i think your a good person too
you always get what you deserve
so stop thinking about doing good
do good
because even if its the same thing
only one will come back to you in the end

i will take your advice

i will do good

i will try to look for volunteering oppurtunities if possible

maybe as little as helping my sibling with school

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

i will take your advice

i will do good

i will try to look for volunteering oppurtunities if possible

maybe as little as helping my sibling with school

do it because you want too though
because it truly makes you happy
and that is only possible if you love yourself too
its like trying to put out fire but you keep grabbing the oil instead of the water

 

[lowinhibragecel]

do it because you want too though
because it truly makes you happy
and that is only possible if you love yourself too
its like trying to put out fire but you keep grabbing the oil instead of the water

yeah fixing myself will be complicated

i will take my time

it will be worth it

helping my sibling really make me happy tho i think thats a good place to start

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

yeah fixing myself will be complicated

i will take my time

it will be worth it

helping my sibling really make me happy tho i think thats a good place to start

so happy to hear that good luck, give me some updatws

 

[lowinhibragecel]

will make sure too

will be slow but progress is progress

so happy to hear that good luck, give me some updatws

 

[czar.x]

you will feel it again if you let it into your life
do good and you will recieve it back

thank you for the story. good read.

I guess man