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Aspiemogger
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(LONG READ)
Ever since I discovered
this community back in 2019 (yes I know my account is new my old one got banned) I have been focused on nothing but looksmaxxing and the blackpill, and to be honest it's ruined my life.
Before I was a happy skinny kid who didn't have a clue in the world about his fwhr, his esr, his hollow orbitals, his slightly recessed maxilla, gonial angle, PSL gods, hunter eyes and so on, I was 100% normal, my only concern was when I was going to be able to play fortnite with my friends from school next.
The discovery of this community for me originated in highschool, i had thought I was also somewhat gl because all my family members gave me the stereotypical "you're so handsome I bet you pull all the girls" crap growing up......I was wrong.
There was this girl I was interested in who was in the same classes as me, she was a 4"9 brunette mtb with hazel eyes, we had a decent connection, exchanging jokes, hanging out with each other at school etc, you can probably guess where this is going.
So I eventually started to flirt with her with the idea that it'd work, at first she brushed it off as if it never happened and then later as the weeks went by she finally told me straight to my face "I don't have feelings for you like you do for me" I asked her why and she replied: "you have no jawline" I went home and instantly googled 'how to get a better jawline' I was presented with the common gua shua and facial exercise tutorials I was smart enough to know that these wouldn't work at the time. A couple hours went past and I discovered a mewing video by Brett maverick.
I was captivated by the science supporting this exercise, so I looked in deeper and came across this website. Ever since I signed up for this website in 2019 I have been captivated by the concepts and topics discussed here, but unfortunately those topics also include my facial rating, my rating as you can imagine was gutting to see, my self confidence instantly diminished, extreme body dysmorphia, resulting in high inhib, I quickly became a mentalcel. It ruined my life... all my friends switched up on me and offered no help not even a word of concern towards me. It's been like this for 3 years now.
My reputation in society is permanently damaged, sub par social skills due to being an outcast for most of my adolescence, I was never the smartest kid in school so compensating for everything else by becoming rich via an ethical high paying job is out of the question, iam pretty good at sports and physical activity but nothing I can profit enough from.
All this has lead me down the road of inceldom, average looking, + mentalcel = incel, I thought I could play off my failos in real life because the normies wouldn't be analysing my bone structure enough for it to them consider me a subhuman. But this recent trend of blackpill content being posted on tiktok has me scared that more normies will catch onto the pill and make them aware to mine and everyone else's failos, thus making life even more difficult by inflating the beauty standard.
If you have read this far I appreciate you taking the amount of time out of your day to read this thread, iam scared to admit that the only thing I can clearly see helping me get over all this shit... is suicide
Ever since I discovered
this community back in 2019 (yes I know my account is new my old one got banned) I have been focused on nothing but looksmaxxing and the blackpill, and to be honest it's ruined my life.
Before I was a happy skinny kid who didn't have a clue in the world about his fwhr, his esr, his hollow orbitals, his slightly recessed maxilla, gonial angle, PSL gods, hunter eyes and so on, I was 100% normal, my only concern was when I was going to be able to play fortnite with my friends from school next.
The discovery of this community for me originated in highschool, i had thought I was also somewhat gl because all my family members gave me the stereotypical "you're so handsome I bet you pull all the girls" crap growing up......I was wrong.
There was this girl I was interested in who was in the same classes as me, she was a 4"9 brunette mtb with hazel eyes, we had a decent connection, exchanging jokes, hanging out with each other at school etc, you can probably guess where this is going.
So I eventually started to flirt with her with the idea that it'd work, at first she brushed it off as if it never happened and then later as the weeks went by she finally told me straight to my face "I don't have feelings for you like you do for me" I asked her why and she replied: "you have no jawline" I went home and instantly googled 'how to get a better jawline' I was presented with the common gua shua and facial exercise tutorials I was smart enough to know that these wouldn't work at the time. A couple hours went past and I discovered a mewing video by Brett maverick.
I was captivated by the science supporting this exercise, so I looked in deeper and came across this website. Ever since I signed up for this website in 2019 I have been captivated by the concepts and topics discussed here, but unfortunately those topics also include my facial rating, my rating as you can imagine was gutting to see, my self confidence instantly diminished, extreme body dysmorphia, resulting in high inhib, I quickly became a mentalcel. It ruined my life... all my friends switched up on me and offered no help not even a word of concern towards me. It's been like this for 3 years now.
My reputation in society is permanently damaged, sub par social skills due to being an outcast for most of my adolescence, I was never the smartest kid in school so compensating for everything else by becoming rich via an ethical high paying job is out of the question, iam pretty good at sports and physical activity but nothing I can profit enough from.
All this has lead me down the road of inceldom, average looking, + mentalcel = incel, I thought I could play off my failos in real life because the normies wouldn't be analysing my bone structure enough for it to them consider me a subhuman. But this recent trend of blackpill content being posted on tiktok has me scared that more normies will catch onto the pill and make them aware to mine and everyone else's failos, thus making life even more difficult by inflating the beauty standard.
If you have read this far I appreciate you taking the amount of time out of your day to read this thread, iam scared to admit that the only thing I can clearly see helping me get over all this shit... is suicide
