Heavily considering suicide

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Aspiemogger said:
(LONG READ)

Ever since I discovered
this community back in 2019 (yes I know my account is new my old one got banned) I have been focused on nothing but looksmaxxing and the blackpill, and to be honest it's ruined my life.

Before I was a happy skinny kid who didn't have a clue in the world about his fwhr, his esr, his hollow orbitals, his slightly recessed maxilla, gonial angle, PSL gods, hunter eyes and so on, I was 100% normal, my only concern was when I was going to be able to play fortnite with my friends from school next.

The discovery of this community for me originated in highschool, i had thought I was also somewhat gl because all my family members gave me the stereotypical "you're so handsome I bet you pull all the girls" crap growing up......I was wrong.
There was this girl I was interested in who was in the same classes as me, she was a 4"9 brunette mtb with hazel eyes, we had a decent connection, exchanging jokes, hanging out with each other at school etc, you can probably guess where this is going.

So I eventually started to flirt with her with the idea that it'd work, at first she brushed it off as if it never happened and then later as the weeks went by she finally told me straight to my face "I don't have feelings for you like you do for me" I asked her why and she replied: "you have no jawline" I went home and instantly googled 'how to get a better jawline' I was presented with the common gua shua and facial exercise tutorials I was smart enough to know that these wouldn't work at the time. A couple hours went past and I discovered a mewing video by Brett maverick.

I was captivated by the science supporting this exercise, so I looked in deeper and came across this website. Ever since I signed up for this website in 2019 I have been captivated by the concepts and topics discussed here, but unfortunately those topics also include my facial rating, my rating as you can imagine was gutting to see, my self confidence instantly diminished, extreme body dysmorphia, resulting in high inhib, I quickly became a mentalcel. It ruined my life... all my friends switched up on me and offered no help not even a word of concern towards me. It's been like this for 3 years now.

My reputation in society is permanently damaged, sub par social skills due to being an outcast for most of my adolescence, I was never the smartest kid in school so compensating for everything else by becoming rich via an ethical high paying job is out of the question, iam pretty good at sports and physical activity but nothing I can profit enough from.

All this has lead me down the road of inceldom, average looking, + mentalcel = incel, I thought I could play off my failos in real life because the normies wouldn't be analysing my bone structure enough for it to them consider me a subhuman. But this recent trend of blackpill content being posted on tiktok has me scared that more normies will catch onto the pill and make them aware to mine and everyone else's failos, thus making life even more difficult by inflating the beauty standard.

If you have read this far I appreciate you taking the amount of time out of your day to read this thread, iam scared to admit that the only thing I can clearly see helping me get over all this shit... is suicide
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Mental health crisis, looks inflation, raising beauty standards.
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You don't have a jawline now and you don't have a jawline in the afterlife. You're already there, buddy!
 
Aspiemogger said:
(LONG READ)

Ever since I discovered
this community back in 2019 (yes I know my account is new my old one got banned) I have been focused on nothing but looksmaxxing and the blackpill, and to be honest it's ruined my life.

Before I was a happy skinny kid who didn't have a clue in the world about his fwhr, his esr, his hollow orbitals, his slightly recessed maxilla, gonial angle, PSL gods, hunter eyes and so on, I was 100% normal, my only concern was when I was going to be able to play fortnite with my friends from school next.

The discovery of this community for me originated in highschool, i had thought I was also somewhat gl because all my family members gave me the stereotypical "you're so handsome I bet you pull all the girls" crap growing up......I was wrong.
There was this girl I was interested in who was in the same classes as me, she was a 4"9 brunette mtb with hazel eyes, we had a decent connection, exchanging jokes, hanging out with each other at school etc, you can probably guess where this is going.

So I eventually started to flirt with her with the idea that it'd work, at first she brushed it off as if it never happened and then later as the weeks went by she finally told me straight to my face "I don't have feelings for you like you do for me" I asked her why and she replied: "you have no jawline" I went home and instantly googled 'how to get a better jawline' I was presented with the common gua shua and facial exercise tutorials I was smart enough to know that these wouldn't work at the time. A couple hours went past and I discovered a mewing video by Brett maverick.

I was captivated by the science supporting this exercise, so I looked in deeper and came across this website. Ever since I signed up for this website in 2019 I have been captivated by the concepts and topics discussed here, but unfortunately those topics also include my facial rating, my rating as you can imagine was gutting to see, my self confidence instantly diminished, extreme body dysmorphia, resulting in high inhib, I quickly became a mentalcel. It ruined my life... all my friends switched up on me and offered no help not even a word of concern towards me. It's been like this for 3 years now.

My reputation in society is permanently damaged, sub par social skills due to being an outcast for most of my adolescence, I was never the smartest kid in school so compensating for everything else by becoming rich via an ethical high paying job is out of the question, iam pretty good at sports and physical activity but nothing I can profit enough from.

All this has lead me down the road of inceldom, average looking, + mentalcel = incel, I thought I could play off my failos in real life because the normies wouldn't be analysing my bone structure enough for it to them consider me a subhuman. But this recent trend of blackpill content being posted on tiktok has me scared that more normies will catch onto the pill and make them aware to mine and everyone else's failos, thus making life even more difficult by inflating the beauty standard.

If you have read this far I appreciate you taking the amount of time out of your day to read this thread, iam scared to admit that the only thing I can clearly see helping me get over all this shit... is suicide
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Brutal.
 
Rope is the ultimate salvation.
 
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humanoidsub7 said:
I'm on the same boat as you anyway. Like really relating a lot.

I like to remember some things i liked about my childhood like 7-10 and i enjoyed life before knowing this pile of shit called reality. It hurts, but I just keep pushing.

Imagine you die and go to hell or some shit... Just try to ascend. A lot of people including me and others are going through the same. Many are going actually insane on other platforms like youtube and even tik tok. It's too real but if ascension is not possible just ldar. Don't rope brudah
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This tbh. It's the fear of hell that holds me back. I guess I'll just lay down and rot my time away.
 
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incelconspiracy said:
You don't have a jawline now and you don't have a jawline in the afterlife. You're already there, buddy!
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Actually if he christianmaxxed, in the afterlife God will give him an epic jawline.
 
Aspiemogger said:
(LONG READ)

Ever since I discovered
this community back in 2019 (yes I know my account is new my old one got banned) I have been focused on nothing but looksmaxxing and the blackpill, and to be honest it's ruined my life.

Before I was a happy skinny kid who didn't have a clue in the world about his fwhr, his esr, his hollow orbitals, his slightly recessed maxilla, gonial angle, PSL gods, hunter eyes and so on, I was 100% normal, my only concern was when I was going to be able to play fortnite with my friends from school next.

The discovery of this community for me originated in highschool, i had thought I was also somewhat gl because all my family members gave me the stereotypical "you're so handsome I bet you pull all the girls" crap growing up......I was wrong.
There was this girl I was interested in who was in the same classes as me, she was a 4"9 brunette mtb with hazel eyes, we had a decent connection, exchanging jokes, hanging out with each other at school etc, you can probably guess where this is going.

So I eventually started to flirt with her with the idea that it'd work, at first she brushed it off as if it never happened and then later as the weeks went by she finally told me straight to my face "I don't have feelings for you like you do for me" I asked her why and she replied: "you have no jawline" I went home and instantly googled 'how to get a better jawline' I was presented with the common gua shua and facial exercise tutorials I was smart enough to know that these wouldn't work at the time. A couple hours went past and I discovered a mewing video by Brett maverick.

I was captivated by the science supporting this exercise, so I looked in deeper and came across this website. Ever since I signed up for this website in 2019 I have been captivated by the concepts and topics discussed here, but unfortunately those topics also include my facial rating, my rating as you can imagine was gutting to see, my self confidence instantly diminished, extreme body dysmorphia, resulting in high inhib, I quickly became a mentalcel. It ruined my life... all my friends switched up on me and offered no help not even a word of concern towards me. It's been like this for 3 years now.

My reputation in society is permanently damaged, sub par social skills due to being an outcast for most of my adolescence, I was never the smartest kid in school so compensating for everything else by becoming rich via an ethical high paying job is out of the question, iam pretty good at sports and physical activity but nothing I can profit enough from.

All this has lead me down the road of inceldom, average looking, + mentalcel = incel, I thought I could play off my failos in real life because the normies wouldn't be analysing my bone structure enough for it to them consider me a subhuman. But this recent trend of blackpill content being posted on tiktok has me scared that more normies will catch onto the pill and make them aware to mine and everyone else's failos, thus making life even more difficult by inflating the beauty standard.

If you have read this far I appreciate you taking the amount of time out of your day to read this thread, iam scared to admit that the only thing I can clearly see helping me get over all this shit... is suicide
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ur taking stuff way too seriously, the girl said jawline cause she wanted a jawline, so either cut down or cope, dont kys bro.. life is beautiful
 
Don't do it. It will kill you
 
sub5pslathlete said:
ur taking stuff way too seriously, the girl said jawline cause she wanted a jawline, so either cut down or cope, dont kys bro.. life is beautiful
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Cut down at 14% ?
 
Aspiemogger said:
Cut down at 14% ?
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Then in that case, fuck that girl bro, she just wants a fairytale, plus she’s 4’9 too so she’d ruin ur bloodline, ur good man honestly
 
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sub5pslathlete said:
Then in that case, fuck that girl bro, she just wants a fairytale, plus she’s 4’9 too so she’d ruin ur bloodline, ur good man honestly
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Appreciate your time bro 😃
 
No worries man
 
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I’m a genetic failure and subhuman in every aspect. I genuinely to the bone have 0 redeeming qualities. if it weren’t for my mother I would definitely have roped.
 
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ElTruecel said:
I’m a genetic failure and subhuman in every aspect. I genuinely to the bone have 0 redeeming qualities. if it weren’t for my mother I would definitely have roped.
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Based
 
You look good. Hair looks good too just grow it out even more on the top and get keep a low fade at side and back.
Pm me for jaw advice
 
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SoundnVision said:
You look good. Hair looks good too just grow it out even more on the top and get keep a low fade at side and back.
Pm me for jaw advice
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Ty bro, probably need to dye it darker also
 
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Aspiemogger said:
(LONG READ)

Ever since I discovered
this community back in 2019 (yes I know my account is new my old one got banned) I have been focused on nothing but looksmaxxing and the blackpill, and to be honest it's ruined my life.

Before I was a happy skinny kid who didn't have a clue in the world about his fwhr, his esr, his hollow orbitals, his slightly recessed maxilla, gonial angle, PSL gods, hunter eyes and so on, I was 100% normal, my only concern was when I was going to be able to play fortnite with my friends from school next.

The discovery of this community for me originated in highschool, i had thought I was also somewhat gl because all my family members gave me the stereotypical "you're so handsome I bet you pull all the girls" crap growing up......I was wrong.
There was this girl I was interested in who was in the same classes as me, she was a 4"9 brunette mtb with hazel eyes, we had a decent connection, exchanging jokes, hanging out with each other at school etc, you can probably guess where this is going.

So I eventually started to flirt with her with the idea that it'd work, at first she brushed it off as if it never happened and then later as the weeks went by she finally told me straight to my face "I don't have feelings for you like you do for me" I asked her why and she replied: "you have no jawline" I went home and instantly googled 'how to get a better jawline' I was presented with the common gua shua and facial exercise tutorials I was smart enough to know that these wouldn't work at the time. A couple hours went past and I discovered a mewing video by Brett maverick.

I was captivated by the science supporting this exercise, so I looked in deeper and came across this website. Ever since I signed up for this website in 2019 I have been captivated by the concepts and topics discussed here, but unfortunately those topics also include my facial rating, my rating as you can imagine was gutting to see, my self confidence instantly diminished, extreme body dysmorphia, resulting in high inhib, I quickly became a mentalcel. It ruined my life... all my friends switched up on me and offered no help not even a word of concern towards me. It's been like this for 3 years now.

My reputation in society is permanently damaged, sub par social skills due to being an outcast for most of my adolescence, I was never the smartest kid in school so compensating for everything else by becoming rich via an ethical high paying job is out of the question, iam pretty good at sports and physical activity but nothing I can profit enough from.

All this has lead me down the road of inceldom, average looking, + mentalcel = incel, I thought I could play off my failos in real life because the normies wouldn't be analysing my bone structure enough for it to them consider me a subhuman. But this recent trend of blackpill content being posted on tiktok has me scared that more normies will catch onto the pill and make them aware to mine and everyone else's failos, thus making life even more difficult by inflating the beauty standard.

If you have read this far I appreciate you taking the amount of time out of your day to read this thread, iam scared to admit that the only thing I can clearly see helping me get over all this shit... is suicide
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never kill yourself. It means u admit defeat and thats pretty pathetic considering you could just work hard and get better. No hate though
 
Mogs me, at least you’re average.
 
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Meganut said:
never kill yourself. It means u admit defeat and thats pretty pathetic considering you could just work hard and get better. No hate though
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No amount of hard work will realistically save me. even if I was to obtain the unobtainable, I'd still mentally be fucked
 
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Aspiemogger said:
I appeal to the male gaze more, maybe i should embrace being a faggot?
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No, you are objectively attractive. If I looked like you I would not be here.
 
Aspiemogger said:
No amount of hard work will realistically save me. even if I was to obtain the unobtainable, I'd still mentally be fucked
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your mindset changes once you put in the work alr bro. You dont know how youre gonna feel in the future so dont give up. Just like that one qoute, “If you're going through hell, keep going.”
 
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TRUE_CEL said:
No, you are objectively attractive. If I looked like you I would not be here.
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Well unfortunately I look like me and still ended up here
 
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Meganut said:
your mindset changes once you put in the work alr bro. You dont know how youre gonna feel in the future so dont give up. Just like that one quote, “If you're going through hell, keep going.”
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Maybe I'm mentalcel and need to touch grassmaxx
 
i have 300 lays and am barely better looking than u if even

ur 16 so ur in a bubble of high school or whatever

take some frauded pics edi them slightly and make a tinder acc when ur 18 and u will slay, easy as


maybe u need surgery since u didnt post profile view but u have a good base so that should be motivating
 
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Amnesia said:
i have 300 lays and am barely better looking than u if even

ur 16 so ur in a bubble of high school or whatever

take some frauded pics edi them slightly and make a tinder acc when ur 18 and u will slay, easy as


maybe u need surgery since u didnt post profile view but u have a good base so that should be motivating
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You're a delluded forum chad if you think I'm anywhere close to you in terms of looks. But nonetheless appreciate you taking the time to reply to my thread
 
Aspiemogger said:
I thought I could play off my failos in real life because the normies wouldn't be analysing my bone structure enough for it to them consider me a subhuman. But this recent trend of blackpill content being posted on tiktok has me scared that more normies will catch onto the pill and make them aware to mine and everyone else's failos, thus making life even more difficult by inflating the beauty standard.
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this affects us all and huge mayority of society is fucked if normies and ugly chicks catch onto it.
As the Chad dominance will only increase.

Btw don't give up as anything could happen in life.
 
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Aspiemogger said:
"you're so handsome I bet you pull all the girls" crap growing up......I was wrong.
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That's your fault for believing your whore mother, and then you got hit in the face with reality. lol
 
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humanoidsub7 said:
I'm on the same boat as you anyway. Like really relating a lot.

I like to remember some things i liked about my childhood like 7-10 and i enjoyed life before knowing this pile of shit called reality. It hurts, but I just keep pushing.

Imagine you die and go to hell or some shit... Just try to ascend. A lot of people including me and others are going through the same. Many are going actually insane on other platforms like youtube and even tik tok. It's too real but if ascension is not possible just ldar. Don't rope brudah
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Nvm im thinking on doing the same
 
Btw Don't do it op
 
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