
Whatashame
Only environment hurts / Hoping for a miracle
- Joined
- Oct 6, 2022
- Posts
- 7,461
- Reputation
- 6,239
My goal in life is not to earn money (My family is well off and I know that money doesn't matter after the basics), I want to build my own wooden house, raise my children, have a sailboat, grow my own plants and animals, and the rest of the time reading. This is the life I want today. It was never a doubt that I would go to college, I was always interested in all intellectual subjects and I always participated in all the debates I could. But exactly because I like knowledge as a whole, I can't decide what to do. I basically spent my 18 and 19 years (Today I'm 20) thinking endlessly about it, I reduced my choice to a few courses and ended up deciding on economics. The idea was that I would gain some mathematical, social, practical, theoretical and broad knowledge that would make it possible to change in a possible future. Now I don't know if I made the right choice, the problem with economics is that I often feel like it's not a science. Theories in the wind, often treated as universal laws, but which do not work in any system. It is basically a study of the capitalist economy. I don't want to work in a bank. I'm in my sophomore year and I think a lot about switching to either philosophy or computer science. The problem is that my parents sent me to study abroad and each month they spend about 6000. I don't want to waste their money. What do I do? I really don't know who else to ask, and it's something that haunts me from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep.