how can i truly remove this hatred in my heart?

[injecting]

If Ive been filled with hatred for years what can I do?

I’ve done immense amounts of mental health work like journaling, meditating, gratitude 3 months in a row with no WiFi throughout a summer, and yet I still hold insane hatred for myself and the people in my life. I have no escape to these people who hold hatred towards me (brother and parents). They’ve abused me physically and mentally my whole life treating me like the failure of the house and family.

It’s like they prize my older brother for being the taller and obviously more attractive brother even though he ruins my life daily (breaking my belonging, making fake stories for my parents to hate me, and mentally belittling me as much as he can). Even my parents sometimes tell him to stop yet they could care less. I’ve really tried to ignore this all and never fight back but it’s gotten to me multiple times where I destroy things and lash out. I know I can’t do a thing because i still live with them. It’s been impossibly to focus with this nagging hatred and pain. They deserve hell yet I can’t do a thing about it. I know that becoming successful won’t be enough to fill this void and I’d much rather just harm them. I’m filled with health problems that they could give two shits about too. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea/deviated septum or breathing problems and basically 0 energy and life in me)

i've been so close to fixing this yet so close to giving into hatred and ruining my life even more. It seems so easy just to give in and commit to knifing them all.
I just want to remove this self hatred and hatred towards everything in my life. I feel as if the only way to fix this emotion is action towards them. They deserve it.

the only cope i tell myself is "ill get successful and ignore them or ruin their lives by suing them"

I know so many of you all faced these horrible issues due to your looks or inferiority which just cause a boomerang of horrible mental health and life problems.

what can i do in an entrepreneurial spirit?

 

[injecting]

its like i cant shake this hatred off me, even trying to re-guide it towards work is impossible because i only think of two things; my parents and jews causing them to act this way.

ldaring my whole teen years fuels this self hatred..

how can i use this hatred instead of letting it ruin me

 

[Deleted member 48352]

I’ve done immense amounts of mental health work like journaling, meditating, gratitude 3 months in a row with no WiFi throughout a summer, and yet I still hold insane hatred for myself and the people in my life.

jfl big cope

I’m filled with health problems that they could give two shits about too. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea/deviated septum or breathing problems and basically 0 energy and life in me)

then that is the problem

 

[Deleted member 48352]

its like i cant shake this hatred off me, even trying to re-guide it towards work is impossible because i only think of two things; my parents and jews causing them to act this way.

ldaring my whole teen years fuels this self hatred..

how can i use this hatred instead of letting it ruin me

hatred useful for destroying others

 

[injecting]

jfl big cope

literally though.

then that is the problem

but i hopped on test and nothing changed. i felt a bit better but the hatred is still ruining me day by day.

 

[JeanneDArcAlter]

Listen to ur heart

 

[Deleted member 48352]

literally though.

but i hopped on test and nothing changed. i felt a bit better but the hatred is still ruining me day by day.

muh artificial test

retard. eat animal based diet only it may not fix problems but it is best to do

 

[injecting]

Listen to ur heart

so kill them?

muh artificial test

retard. eat animal based diet only it may not fix problems but it is best to do

i try to go to a farm when i can and get raw liver and raw meat and dairy. its hard though, i practically starve myself unless i get raw meat and dairy. hasnt helped in years anyway, it only helps if ur under 15

 

[Deleted member 48352]

just stop thinking

 

[BonesmashFinalBoss]

literally though.

but i hopped on test and nothing changed. i felt a bit better but the hatred is still ruining me day by day.

probably too low of a dose, how much was it?

 

[injecting]

just stop thinking

probably too low of a dose, how much was it?

130mg monday 130mg thursday +5mg asin & daily dhea + pregnenolone. doesnt do much because i have sleep issues from narrow maxilla and thyroid shit. wish it did something tho

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

paypal me 500 USD and the hatred will go away

 

[Mike456]

If Ive been filled with hatred for years what can I do?

I’ve done immense amounts of mental health work like journaling, meditating, gratitude 3 months in a row with no WiFi throughout a summer, and yet I still hold insane hatred for myself and the people in my life. I have no escape to these people who hold hatred towards me (brother and parents). They’ve abused me physically and mentally my whole life treating me like the failure of the house and family.

It’s like they prize my older brother for being the taller and obviously more attractive brother even though he ruins my life daily (breaking my belonging, making fake stories for my parents to hate me, and mentally belittling me as much as he can). Even my parents sometimes tell him to stop yet they could care less. I’ve really tried to ignore this all and never fight back but it’s gotten to me multiple times where I destroy things and lash out. I know I can’t do a thing because i still live with them. It’s been impossibly to focus with this nagging hatred and pain. They deserve hell yet I can’t do a thing about it. I know that becoming successful won’t be enough to fill this void and I’d much rather just harm them. I’m filled with health problems that they could give two shits about too. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea/deviated septum or breathing problems and basically 0 energy and life in me)

i've been so close to fixing this yet so close to giving into hatred and ruining my life even more. It seems so easy just to give in and commit to knifing them all.
I just want to remove this self hatred and hatred towards everything in my life. I feel as if the only way to fix this emotion is action towards them. They deserve it.

the only cope i tell myself is "ill get successful and ignore them or ruin their lives by suing them"

I know so many of you all faced these horrible issues due to your looks or inferiority which just cause a boomerang of horrible mental health and life problems.

what can i do in an entrepreneurial spirit?

Go boxing or something you cant hold your emotions all the time.

 

[buzzhaze]

If Ive been filled with hatred for years what can I do?

I’ve done immense amounts of mental health work like journaling, meditating, gratitude 3 months in a row with no WiFi throughout a summer, and yet I still hold insane hatred for myself and the people in my life. I have no escape to these people who hold hatred towards me (brother and parents). They’ve abused me physically and mentally my whole life treating me like the failure of the house and family.

It’s like they prize my older brother for being the taller and obviously more attractive brother even though he ruins my life daily (breaking my belonging, making fake stories for my parents to hate me, and mentally belittling me as much as he can). Even my parents sometimes tell him to stop yet they could care less. I’ve really tried to ignore this all and never fight back but it’s gotten to me multiple times where I destroy things and lash out. I know I can’t do a thing because i still live with them. It’s been impossibly to focus with this nagging hatred and pain. They deserve hell yet I can’t do a thing about it. I know that becoming successful won’t be enough to fill this void and I’d much rather just harm them. I’m filled with health problems that they could give two shits about too. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea/deviated septum or breathing problems and basically 0 energy and life in me)

i've been so close to fixing this yet so close to giving into hatred and ruining my life even more. It seems so easy just to give in and commit to knifing them all.
I just want to remove this self hatred and hatred towards everything in my life. I feel as if the only way to fix this emotion is action towards them. They deserve it.

the only cope i tell myself is "ill get successful and ignore them or ruin their lives by suing them"

I know so many of you all faced these horrible issues due to your looks or inferiority which just cause a boomerang of horrible mental health and life problems.

what can i do in an entrepreneurial spirit?

kill your brother

 

[´´´´´´´´]

Don't

 

[Bitchwhipper2]

Some things are genuinely impossible to help

 

[我需要阴部]

Delusion

 

[CadBaneee]

If Ive been filled with hatred for years what can I do?

I’ve done immense amounts of mental health work like journaling, meditating, gratitude 3 months in a row with no WiFi throughout a summer, and yet I still hold insane hatred for myself and the people in my life. I have no escape to these people who hold hatred towards me (brother and parents). They’ve abused me physically and mentally my whole life treating me like the failure of the house and family.

It’s like they prize my older brother for being the taller and obviously more attractive brother even though he ruins my life daily (breaking my belonging, making fake stories for my parents to hate me, and mentally belittling me as much as he can). Even my parents sometimes tell him to stop yet they could care less. I’ve really tried to ignore this all and never fight back but it’s gotten to me multiple times where I destroy things and lash out. I know I can’t do a thing because i still live with them. It’s been impossibly to focus with this nagging hatred and pain. They deserve hell yet I can’t do a thing about it. I know that becoming successful won’t be enough to fill this void and I’d much rather just harm them. I’m filled with health problems that they could give two shits about too. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea/deviated septum or breathing problems and basically 0 energy and life in me)

i've been so close to fixing this yet so close to giving into hatred and ruining my life even more. It seems so easy just to give in and commit to knifing them all.
I just want to remove this self hatred and hatred towards everything in my life. I feel as if the only way to fix this emotion is action towards them. They deserve it.

the only cope i tell myself is "ill get successful and ignore them or ruin their lives by suing them"

I know so many of you all faced these horrible issues due to your looks or inferiority which just cause a boomerang of horrible mental health and life problems.

what can i do in an entrepreneurial spirit?

I don't know how old you are or what you're doing in life but all this meditating stuff is bs. Get a job make money, go to the gym and get lean or start martial arts, eat whole foods(no processed things) and move out asap and get your own place. Your family prob going to tell that you won't achieve anything once you start to look for yourself but you have to go through that

 

[_MVP_]

drugs can help...

 

[enlightful]

If Ive been filled with hatred for years what can I do?

I’ve done immense amounts of mental health work like journaling, meditating, gratitude 3 months in a row with no WiFi throughout a summer, and yet I still hold insane hatred for myself and the people in my life. I have no escape to these people who hold hatred towards me (brother and parents). They’ve abused me physically and mentally my whole life treating me like the failure of the house and family.

It’s like they prize my older brother for being the taller and obviously more attractive brother even though he ruins my life daily (breaking my belonging, making fake stories for my parents to hate me, and mentally belittling me as much as he can). Even my parents sometimes tell him to stop yet they could care less. I’ve really tried to ignore this all and never fight back but it’s gotten to me multiple times where I destroy things and lash out. I know I can’t do a thing because i still live with them. It’s been impossibly to focus with this nagging hatred and pain. They deserve hell yet I can’t do a thing about it. I know that becoming successful won’t be enough to fill this void and I’d much rather just harm them. I’m filled with health problems that they could give two shits about too. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea/deviated septum or breathing problems and basically 0 energy and life in me)

i've been so close to fixing this yet so close to giving into hatred and ruining my life even more. It seems so easy just to give in and commit to knifing them all.
I just want to remove this self hatred and hatred towards everything in my life. I feel as if the only way to fix this emotion is action towards them. They deserve it.

the only cope i tell myself is "ill get successful and ignore them or ruin their lives by suing them"

I know so many of you all faced these horrible issues due to your looks or inferiority which just cause a boomerang of horrible mental health and life problems.

what can i do in an entrepreneurial spirit?

Go er

 

[pope]

What do u hate about urself

 

[injecting]

I don't know how old you are or what you're doing in life but all this meditating stuff is bs. Get a job make money, go to the gym and get lean or start martial arts, eat whole foods(no processed things) and move out asap and get your own place. Your family prob going to tell that you won't achieve anything once you start to look for yourself but you have to go through that

dude, i'm filled with health problems like sleep apnea and hypothyroidism. i can even remember passwords and the jews fucked me up medically before the age of 14. I worked out as a coping mechanism and guess what, benching 275 just lost me friends due to envy. i need revenge for the people who persecuted and exploited me at such a young age.

I can speak out for all my people who have gone through this jewish exploitation at such young ages. from being injected with grams of metals before consciousness leading to neuro-degeneration, being forced antibiotics before puberty leading to damaged gut and suicidal/depressed problems, to being given braces in order to initiate sleep apnea and a plethora of other health problems. Its a demonic act of erosion and abuse to our people in order to wipe us out of existence. It stems from indignation and hatred ever since we took over the western world. It is becoming more and more clear their exact agenda, and the scary part, its working.

so, yes I am trying. I believe if I can finally get my surgeries and not have ADHD, Autism and horrible mental health, I can finally make money via business and play at their own game.
(btw meditating is the best thing I can do right now, it helps incredibly, although its coping mechanism for sleep apnea and such)

 

[injecting]

drugs can help...

drugs cant change facial, body and nasal structure.