Psychophilly
Oxytocin explosion
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I just wanna know if im mentally ill or everyone is like this. ofc most yall won't understand since young but behing khhv near 30 you start to get existential and shit, you have given up but you can't just live normally knowing you are gonna die virgin you need something as a source of hope or root causality of everyday decisions, to keep pushing. ts is not easy to cope.
i've reached a point where getting laid is behind several tall thick walls of issues, and even after managing to find gf there is another level of retarded shit u need to do till u get laid with her.
and in my situation, i just instinctual can't help but feeling like the rape path is extremely shorter than the normal path. and humans being lazy and always picking the easiest way, i wonder why most people don't think like me.
in the backbone of my head i always have rape as the safety guard, it's what keeps me alive, to know that, one day i can just *censored* and do based shit with her body. this has it's own walls, like buying a van and a house that has basement but its way easier than the normal way, to me at least.
it's like intuitive thoughts, not planning to act on it, just for sanity sake.
i've reached a point where getting laid is behind several tall thick walls of issues, and even after managing to find gf there is another level of retarded shit u need to do till u get laid with her.
and in my situation, i just instinctual can't help but feeling like the rape path is extremely shorter than the normal path. and humans being lazy and always picking the easiest way, i wonder why most people don't think like me.
in the backbone of my head i always have rape as the safety guard, it's what keeps me alive, to know that, one day i can just *censored* and do based shit with her body. this has it's own walls, like buying a van and a house that has basement but its way easier than the normal way, to me at least.
it's like intuitive thoughts, not planning to act on it, just for sanity sake.