chaddyboi66
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I don't think I've really ever mentioned this before but...
I started off as htn at my peak then fell off hard and fatmaxxed/depressionmaxxed when my Oneitis left and now I've been trying to pick myself back up.
I know this to be the case because I would regularly get female attention in school, not just basic iois but legit outright interest from girls approaching me and/or asking if I wanted to hang out, because I sometimes seemed oblivious to their interests when in reality I just really didn't know how to respond to them correctly and had barely been overcoming social anxiety.
This combined with a very trad upbringing [which I'm still kind of grateful for don't get me wrong] made me pretty bad with girls, and I suppose some basic redpill advice actually may have saved me back then.
All things considered, this means I would probably greatly benefit from looksmaxing and would ascend pretty hard and that's why I personally don't see it as cope tbh, but I procrastinate too much on Offtopic, am busy with school, and am a giga poorcel ngl.
I cope by constantly telling myself I'll use the knowledge here to looksmax and improve to get Her back, but honestly even if that were possible how would I cope knowing that She probably... I don't even want to think about it tbh because the very idea makes me want to puke but I really just can't stop worrying about it ngl.
Then again, She's in a ltr and doesn't have a habit of moving partners a lot so I know it's probably no where near as bad as I'm thinking it is at least.
Every year her birthday comes up I'm reminded of my mistakes and of all the things I've done wrong and all the things I didn't do that I should've when I had the chance.
I'm constantly wishing and begging God to please let me go back and fix it all or at the very least just make it all right now but it just always seems so fruitless when I never get a response.
What the fuck am I even supposed to do?
[ISPOILER] [/ISPOILER]
I started off as htn at my peak then fell off hard and fatmaxxed/depressionmaxxed when my Oneitis left and now I've been trying to pick myself back up.
I know this to be the case because I would regularly get female attention in school, not just basic iois but legit outright interest from girls approaching me and/or asking if I wanted to hang out, because I sometimes seemed oblivious to their interests when in reality I just really didn't know how to respond to them correctly and had barely been overcoming social anxiety.
This combined with a very trad upbringing [which I'm still kind of grateful for don't get me wrong] made me pretty bad with girls, and I suppose some basic redpill advice actually may have saved me back then.
All things considered, this means I would probably greatly benefit from looksmaxing and would ascend pretty hard and that's why I personally don't see it as cope tbh, but I procrastinate too much on Offtopic, am busy with school, and am a giga poorcel ngl.
I cope by constantly telling myself I'll use the knowledge here to looksmax and improve to get Her back, but honestly even if that were possible how would I cope knowing that She probably... I don't even want to think about it tbh because the very idea makes me want to puke but I really just can't stop worrying about it ngl.
Then again, She's in a ltr and doesn't have a habit of moving partners a lot so I know it's probably no where near as bad as I'm thinking it is at least.
Every year her birthday comes up I'm reminded of my mistakes and of all the things I've done wrong and all the things I didn't do that I should've when I had the chance.
I'm constantly wishing and begging God to please let me go back and fix it all or at the very least just make it all right now but it just always seems so fruitless when I never get a response.
What the fuck am I even supposed to do?
[ISPOILER] [/ISPOILER]
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