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This is gunna be quite a ramble so be prepared for a moderate wall of text.
I used to like drinking but it's almost as if I've developed some weird intolerance to it, and whenever I get drunk I feel like shit all day after, not just in the morning, like all day until night.
The problem is tho, I fucking hate being sober, I can't get my hands on any weed because I'm high inhib and 100% friendless and aquaintainceless, so there's no way for me to get any connections, and with the way my brain is weed would likely make me anxious as fuck anyway due to years of ostracization because I'm ugly having an impact on my subconscious and making my brain geared towards anxiety, you can only really enjoy weed if you're a normie, anything besides that and you're way more likely to have a bad time, chads will NEVER get paranoid from smoking weed because of all the positive reinforcement they get causing their brains to actually develop healthy and normally.
I have kratom with me but it doesn't really last very long, maybe an hour at most, maybe not even that, the buzz/nod is over pretty quick but I enjoy playing games whilst on it, sometimes I take some benedryl before I dose the kratom because it makes it hit stronger or something, also jerking off whilst on benedryl is amazing, especially if you do it whilst on 100mg of the stuff
These are pretty much my only copes, obviously I can buy some booze and drink again if I want to but the shitty feeling I get the day after has just really put me off, drinking is kinda like a chore to me now, if I buy alcohol im not excited to drink it anymore I'm just like " eh guess I'm drinking tonight"
So yeah, do any of you guys know any good chemical copes? Any illegal drug is pretty much off limits to me since I'm a fucking autist with no friends or even aquaintainces, but I just want a way to fucking escape this shit reality that is having to live life when my face looks the way it fucking does
I used to like drinking but it's almost as if I've developed some weird intolerance to it, and whenever I get drunk I feel like shit all day after, not just in the morning, like all day until night.
The problem is tho, I fucking hate being sober, I can't get my hands on any weed because I'm high inhib and 100% friendless and aquaintainceless, so there's no way for me to get any connections, and with the way my brain is weed would likely make me anxious as fuck anyway due to years of ostracization because I'm ugly having an impact on my subconscious and making my brain geared towards anxiety, you can only really enjoy weed if you're a normie, anything besides that and you're way more likely to have a bad time, chads will NEVER get paranoid from smoking weed because of all the positive reinforcement they get causing their brains to actually develop healthy and normally.
I have kratom with me but it doesn't really last very long, maybe an hour at most, maybe not even that, the buzz/nod is over pretty quick but I enjoy playing games whilst on it, sometimes I take some benedryl before I dose the kratom because it makes it hit stronger or something, also jerking off whilst on benedryl is amazing, especially if you do it whilst on 100mg of the stuff
These are pretty much my only copes, obviously I can buy some booze and drink again if I want to but the shitty feeling I get the day after has just really put me off, drinking is kinda like a chore to me now, if I buy alcohol im not excited to drink it anymore I'm just like " eh guess I'm drinking tonight"
So yeah, do any of you guys know any good chemical copes? Any illegal drug is pretty much off limits to me since I'm a fucking autist with no friends or even aquaintainces, but I just want a way to fucking escape this shit reality that is having to live life when my face looks the way it fucking does