How do I get rid of slave morality? Why am I so selfless/soulless?

[Deleted member 22511]

I have very low standards/expectations and also no self-determination. I have no ambition. When I go out, I don't care about "picking up chicks", I am completely uninterested in any form of romance or eroticism, I just get as drunk as possible. I am nice to people, I like giving out cigarettes, or helping in other ways. But I have no Interest in helping myself. I am completely empty, with no desire or goal or pleasure. I have no personality or identity, I simply exist, I have no soul.

Why am I like this? Is it depression or some other form of mental illness? How do I become less selfless and empty? How do I learn to help myself and stop being a slave animal?

 

[Lonely]

Unironically convert to Islam

 

[Deleted member 15854]

I have very low standards/expectations and also no self-determination. I have no ambition. When I go out, I don't care about "picking up chicks", I am completely uninterested in any form of romance or eroticism, I just get as drunk as possible. I am nice to people, I like giving out cigarettes, or helping in other ways. But I have no Interest in helping myself. I am completely empty, with no desire or goal or pleasure. I have no personality or identity, I simply exist, I have no soul.

Why am I like this? Is it depression or some other form of mental illness? How do I become less selfless and empty? How do I learn to help myself and stop being a slave animal?

how is your dopamine and testosterone? have you engaged in stuff prior which could've led to this like addiction etc?

 

[Deleted member 17791]

You have an IQ below 150

 

[Deleted member 22511]

how is your dopamine and testosterone? have you engaged in stuff prior which could've led to this like addiction etc?

dopamine receptors are probably dead.
idk about testosterone, never checked my levels, but if physical strength and libido are good indicators of it, I am by far the strongest guy in my class, way stronger than all the guys that have been gymcelling and playing sports for years (meanwhile I've barely gymcelled and play no sports, though I do regularly run 5 - 10 miles, last month I ran 10 miles daily). I usually jack off every day, though recently I haven't been doing it because I'm at a new low in terms of happiness and don't feel like doing it. I guess I should get testosterone checked out, but I doubt it's that low.

I'm an on and off smoker (cigarettes not weed). I also have alcoholic phases where I get very drunk several days in the week, but also phases where I don't drink for months. Also I have phases where I take kratom. Generally switch on and off from using these "drugs" every couple months.

I'd say one part of this sadness is also the fact that I'm extremely lonely. I used to have 2 good friends about a year ago, with whom I connected heavily, but it turned very toxic so we stopped being friends, now I have no close friends. I also have a poor relationship with my parents, I occasionally speak with my mother, but in general I rarely talk with them. When I see everyone else with friends, making fun and important life experiences it depresses me extremely. The thing is I have no trouble speaking to people, I'm not shy. I just feel alien and can not relate or connect with 99% of them, so socializing leads nowhere.

 

[Deleted member 15854]

dopamine receptors are probably dead.
idk about testosterone, never checked my levels, but if physical strength and libido are good indicators of it, I am by far the strongest guy in my class, way stronger than all the guys that have been gymcelling and playing sports for years (meanwhile I've barely gymcelled and play no sports, though I do regularly run 5 - 10 miles, last month I ran 10 miles daily). I usually jack off every day, though recently I haven't been doing it because I'm at a new low in terms of happiness and don't feel like doing it. I guess I should get testosterone checked out, but I doubt it's that low.

I'm an on and off smoker (cigarettes not weed). I also have alcoholic phases where I get very drunk several days in the week, but also phases where I don't drink for months. Also I have phases where I take kratom. Generally switch on and off from using these "drugs" every couple months.

I'd say one part of this sadness is also the fact that I'm extremely lonely. I used to have 2 good friends about a year ago, with whom I connected heavily, but it turned very toxic so we stopped being friends, now I have no close friends. I also have a poor relationship with my parents, I occasionally speak with my mother, but in general I rarely talk with them. When I see everyone else with friends, making fun and important life experiences it depresses me extremely. The thing is I have no trouble speaking to people, I'm not shy. I just feel alien and can not relate or connect with 99% of them, so socializing leads nowhere.

yeah, connection and interaction is vital for humans. loneliness is literally a bigger risk for mortality than smoking etc ive heard. tbh, this falls outside the scope of what i know so idk if i can help you here, im no psychiatrist lol. you might need to see a specialist etc but idk, ive heard they arent that helpful either. maybe theres another user here more knowledegable than me to help you with this matter.

either way, gl OP, i hope things get better for u bro