
Xheca
Iron
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i dont want to think about this anymore, even if i am ugly or not im not sure anymore, but what i know is that i am being deluded by bp, how can i avoid these thoughts/recover from bp
i litereally have moments where i use bp slang in my mind just walking around, i am always nervous outside, i cant even be in public without having emotional rollercoasters, i used to be a happy and sociable kid and now i quite litereally can not stop thinking about my face whenever anyone exists around me that isnt a close family member
although these happen i can not recall a single time my looks harmed me, ive always been able to socialise freely, have fun and laugh with others, never facing any discrimination although everyday i fear it, i have never been called ugly to my face ever outside ONE single time i distinctly remember although i have discussions about my looks with every one i deem close enough with me/know of the topic, and they all say that in reality i am good lookingf
i dont know if i look good enough to not be discluded from social circles and that people are just lying to me to make me feel good or am i actually somewhat good looking, i can not tell the difference and i believe that just bc i think more about which is true or not makes me go even more deeper in this shit hole
my goal currently is to remove bp from my life, and to remove looksmaxxing from my life, what do i do?
i litereally have moments where i use bp slang in my mind just walking around, i am always nervous outside, i cant even be in public without having emotional rollercoasters, i used to be a happy and sociable kid and now i quite litereally can not stop thinking about my face whenever anyone exists around me that isnt a close family member
although these happen i can not recall a single time my looks harmed me, ive always been able to socialise freely, have fun and laugh with others, never facing any discrimination although everyday i fear it, i have never been called ugly to my face ever outside ONE single time i distinctly remember although i have discussions about my looks with every one i deem close enough with me/know of the topic, and they all say that in reality i am good lookingf
i dont know if i look good enough to not be discluded from social circles and that people are just lying to me to make me feel good or am i actually somewhat good looking, i can not tell the difference and i believe that just bc i think more about which is true or not makes me go even more deeper in this shit hole
my goal currently is to remove bp from my life, and to remove looksmaxxing from my life, what do i do?