Gengar
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I joined this forum when I was 22. I found out about the blackpill formally in 2017, when I was 21 years old. I was actively posting on r/horror back then, a subreddit on reddit. In the comments, a person was made fun of by others for posting in r/incels, back when it wasn't banned from reddit due to its policies. Out of curiosity, I decided to check the place out. As soon as I did and went through the posts, I felt at home. For the first time, guys were admitting they were ugly and that it was the reason behind their lack of success in the dating world. This was especially refreshing for me, because all my life I read and was told "Looks don't matter," or "women don't care about looks, men do." Blatant lies, of course, but I guess it's because it keeps men from becoming depressed/suicidal if they're not attractive, like me. However, the concept of the blackpill is something I experienced way back in high school, when I was 15. I got rejected by my oneitis. Initially I thought she liked me, so I forced myself to like her back. I felt it was the right thing to do. Then, after almost two years, I confessed my feelings for her but she rejected me. I wanted to know why, but she never would say it. Eventually, she caved in and said "What if (insert name of the ugliest girl in class) asked you, you wouldn't go for her just because she asked you to, would you now?" That's when I realized she meant to say "dude, you're ugly." That's not the first time I was called ugly, though. In freshman year of high school, when I was 12 or 13 I had a female classmate who apparently made a poll on a social media website, asking who the ugliest boy in class was. There were 5 or 6 boys, including myself. 30 votes were cast in total. Not only my classmates voted but also a few other people whom I didn't know. Keep in mind, back in freshman year of high school I had a moustache because well, I'm ethnic and we have strong facial hair genetics, don't we? I grew a full beard at 17, but I digress. I found out about this poll because a guy in my class told me about it, he was trying to make fun of me. Initially I already felt the poll was rigged because the dude telling me that was ugly himself yet he wasn't an option in the poll. Some time passed before I realized why he wasn't included but honestly I didn't care about the poll at all. I don't remember feeling sad or anything, even though I had a tiny little crush on that girl before she had made that poll haha. Anyway, the rest were all white guys in the poll. I went to a mostly white high school, so most students were white and I wasn't. Either way, I checked the results of the poll and everyone got 5-6 votes in total, but I got zero votes.. Which I found surprising, I expected everyone would vote for me. That's basically how I learned about the blackpill as a concept in my high school but officially as the blackpill when I had already left high school and went to college. As for looksmaxxing, I haven't done any at all. I don't looksmax. My base is dogshit, so there's no point in looksmaxxing. It's literally like polishing a turd. I have instead of looksmaxxed, looksminned. I'm chubby/fat now, I've grown out my unibrow and that's about it. I look worse than I ever did my entire life and that's saying something. I've never been attractive, I've always been unattractive. And I still am unattractive, because I'm universally unattractive.