ApacheMaxx
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I’m 18 and 5’9. I started going to the gym at 17, weighing about the same as now. So i went on a bulk obviously, and gained about 44 pounds in a year. Even though I didn’t know shit about the blackpill back then, I started to get displeased with the look of my face when I was near 154 pounds, even though as I am aware now, it starts to look noticeably bloated quite sooner. In my peak bulk, when I was over 154 pounds, my face looked actually obese on photos, like if someone would have seen it without my slim neck on a photo, they would probably assume I weighted maybe 187 pounds or more, compared to my height. I discovered the blackpill on the end of the school year, and started a caloric deficit over summer.
In September, I was noticably leaner, but I didn’t want to ever check my weight, because - as I correctly suspected, my face looked more fat than it should be. So i stayed in caloric deficit all the way until this point, and as of today, I decided to finally check my weight. Being 121 pounds again wasn’t that shocking, as I was expecting a simillar weight. However, it’s just so frustrating that almost nothing changed, my ogee curve didn’t really improve much from when i was 16, I just started taking better photos, and have a better diet. My face is still fucking round with very inward gonions and no ramus, I’m still a boneless cuck. My facial structure is basically the same as my mother, who had a fucking moonface when anorectic in her youth, while my father has above average bones, but I got just his coloring. I already sent my pics here twice, was rated MTN - high MTN. I will now just send my face privately to someone. In the end, I want to say that my life quality greatly improved when I started improving my looks, but is still pisses me off that I have to be sub 12% bodyfat to look average.
In September, I was noticably leaner, but I didn’t want to ever check my weight, because - as I correctly suspected, my face looked more fat than it should be. So i stayed in caloric deficit all the way until this point, and as of today, I decided to finally check my weight. Being 121 pounds again wasn’t that shocking, as I was expecting a simillar weight. However, it’s just so frustrating that almost nothing changed, my ogee curve didn’t really improve much from when i was 16, I just started taking better photos, and have a better diet. My face is still fucking round with very inward gonions and no ramus, I’m still a boneless cuck. My facial structure is basically the same as my mother, who had a fucking moonface when anorectic in her youth, while my father has above average bones, but I got just his coloring. I already sent my pics here twice, was rated MTN - high MTN. I will now just send my face privately to someone. In the end, I want to say that my life quality greatly improved when I started improving my looks, but is still pisses me off that I have to be sub 12% bodyfat to look average.