How to be less of a mentalcel

[Celt]

Its so bad I’m almost 21 and never had a relationship or even a talking stage that lasted longer than like 3 weeks

Had quite a few slays purely because of the inhibminning from alcohol and whatever other drugs I can get my hands on but I just can’t do it sober

The thing is, I’m not even unattractive, I get plenty of IOIs and I’ve had romantic opportunities I’m just too retarded and paranoid and anxious to actually capitalise on them

Yesterday I was on my way back from the gym off of like 5 scoops of pre, was lowk mogging with the pump and the debloat from the sheer diuretic effect of that much caffeine

And I was sitting on this bench waiting for the bus with my headphones in and this cute girl sits down on the other side. There were multiple other available benches so she intentionally chose to sit next to me. She was making an effort to make her presence known, kicking her feet and constantly looking over at me and then back again playing eye tag

But my brain, for some godforesaken reason interprets this situation as if I was stuck next to a sleeping lion and, just full on freezing up and not being able to look in her direction. Just crazy levels of paranoia and amygdala activation, to the point that I eventually just got up and went for a walk, missed the bus and ended up getting the next one

Like it sounds so retarded when I type it out but its just biological, I *know* that I need to be able to interact normally to get the things I want but I just *can’t*

Are there any drugs I can take all the time for this that won’t cook me in the long run (im very addiction prone, adhd bpd autist), or some sort of psychological protocol or method, or am I just cooked

Living like this just becomes more unbearable every day

 

[Celt]

up

 

[eyenerf]

Kinda just realise that shes probably more scared then you. If she acc likes you its also hard to fuck it up so don’t stress the interaction

 

[Celt]

Kinda just realise that shes probably more scared then you. If she acc likes you its also hard to fuck it up so don’t stress the interaction

I assure you she isn’t
Which is crazy to say as a 6’3” almost 200lb lean man but yeah

 

[Celt]

Its kind of like with spiders
people say its more scared of you but to an actual arachnophobe that probably isn’t true even if they could effortlessly squish the spider

 

[romanstock]

Just gotta force yourself through it there's no easy way

 

[Celt]

Just gotta force yourself through it there's no easy way

The problem is how? When your biology works against you rather than your conscious thoughts its kind of impossible
Not frying my amygdala with stimulants might help a bit but ultimately my words aren’t going to come out right

 

[krieg]

U need positive reinforcement

You’re basically an abused dog

 

[Celt]

U need positive reinforcement

You’re basically an abused dog

True
I’m not as bad as I used to be but I don’t exactly have until I’m 30 or something to eventually reach normalcy I kind of needed it 5 years ago

Honestly to any youngcels here please please fix your looks and get well socialised early don’t wait
I was a fat shutin until university and it ruined me

 

[romanstock]

The problem is how? When your biology works against you rather than your conscious thoughts its kind of impossible
Not frying my amygdala with stimulants might help a bit but ultimately my words aren’t going to come out right

'hey.'

 

[Celt]

'hey.'

‘hey’ => (mentalcel filter) => ‘h-h-h-h-e-e-e-y-y-y

 

[romanstock]

‘hey’ => (mentalcel filter) => ‘h-h-h-h-e-e-e-y-y-y

more likely it will just come out quietly, but they dont care

 

[Celt]

more likely it will just come out quietly, but they dont care

it’s annoying because I actually have kind of a mogger voice when i’m not stressed out but when i’m anxious i just can’t articulate words and speak super fast and quietly

i can speak to the 60yr old punjabi bossman with the intonation of a seasoned public speaker and then sound like a giga-autist when I have to interact with a woman my age

 

[TheOneTrveCel]

I heard you have to kill yourself since that's the only cure to larping on a looksmaxxing forum

 

[romanstock]

it’s annoying because I actually have kind of a mogger voice when i’m not stressed out but when i’m anxious i just can’t articulate words and speak super fast and quietly

i can speak to the 60yr old punjabi bossman with the intonation of a seasoned public speaker and then sound like a giga-autist when I have to interact with a woman my age

it doesn't matter, all that suave stuff is bs. almsot every guy girls get with is a retarded speaker copying retarded american nigger culture. all that matters is looks, if she finds u physically attractive u can be as verbally retarded as u want so long as u persevere with it

 

[Celt]

I heard you have to kill yourself since that's the only cure to larping on a looksmaxxing forum

“larp” has lost all meaning

 

[Celt]

it doesn't matter, all that suave stuff is bs. almsot every guy girls get with is a retarded speaker copying retarded american nigger culture. all that matters is looks, if she finds u physically attractive u can be as verbally retarded as u want so long as u persevere with it

its not about how eloquently you speak but you absolutely need to be able to speak confidently

yes if she’s into you she won’t care if you spew 80iq niggerbabble but those people speak with confidence and no underlying inhibition

 

[TheOneTrveCel]

“larp” has lost all meaning

It really hasn't in this context, when you are asking for "advice" about how to actually want women, being GL and tall you are just bragging for no apparent reason, if you are actually serious, just don't fap for like 3 days

 

[Celt]

It really hasn't in this context, when you are asking for "advice" about how to actually want women, being GL and tall you are just bragging for no apparent reason, if you are actually serious, just don't fap for like 3 days

Are you illiterate
I WANT women I am just too retarded to properly interact with them successfully