Olympus
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But I have mixed feelings about it.
I have had women interested in me in the past, but I never did anything with them.
On one side, Im happy to have never had a relationship, to never have had that stress or worry about my girlfriend/mate, and to be my own person and worry about things that directly concern me, and for example not worry about if she's out cheating at a party and etc, and just to be able to focus on myself.
But on the other hand, love is all I long for, I long for a deep hearted connected relationship with someone decent (which is very hard to get nowadays).
Life is nothing without love, your entire purpose in life is to find a mate, be in love and in a deep connected relationship and to have children. Humans have the ability to perceive love in completely different ways to other animals and it's beautiful. As soon as you come out of your womb, you are surrounded with love, your mum and dad, grandparents even are there and love you from the second you are born, so what makes you think you can survive life without loving someone?
There are stories where millionaires cope and buy all of these materialistic things with zero value to them and they always say they have an empty void in their heart and its because they have never had a genuine deep loving connection with another human of the opposite se.x. When a baby is born and it doesn't get touched with love, the baby literally dies. Most people are incapable of loving anyway, not on a deep level, most only care about money etc... none actually care about you..
When I am on my bed at 3am, imagining someone I love deeply next to me, I feel like it would solve all of my problems. But honestly, I am loosing hope.
So yeah, but realistically, I wish I had someone I can love, someone to be in my bed with, someone to care for, to share happy moments with, to laugh together, to cry together, just to be together, and connect and understand one another on a whole different level.
Most of my friends are in relationships, I have also always been the third wheel in the friend group.
Honestly, when I think about it, it is probably over.
The last time I hugged or kissed a girl was well over 3 years ago now, I felt nothing with her anyway, so it does not even matter. I never think about her, and she's a dried out woman now, so who cares.
I think this is why when I rewatched Avatar yesterday, I have felt this deep connection to it due to Jake and Neytris love in nature, how pure and passionate it is. Call me a loser, I don't care, I have nothing to loose as you can see and I am just writing my thoughts right now. The movie writes love in a completely different way.
For example, I won two of the rarest blackjack hands in under 10 hands, it was suited trips and a straight flush, I won 1000 pounds from it from 40 pounds but it didn't make me feel a single thing, I wasn't even that happy. I won money, yay. That's not what I want. I want deep love....
Oh well.
I have had women interested in me in the past, but I never did anything with them.
On one side, Im happy to have never had a relationship, to never have had that stress or worry about my girlfriend/mate, and to be my own person and worry about things that directly concern me, and for example not worry about if she's out cheating at a party and etc, and just to be able to focus on myself.
But on the other hand, love is all I long for, I long for a deep hearted connected relationship with someone decent (which is very hard to get nowadays).
Life is nothing without love, your entire purpose in life is to find a mate, be in love and in a deep connected relationship and to have children. Humans have the ability to perceive love in completely different ways to other animals and it's beautiful. As soon as you come out of your womb, you are surrounded with love, your mum and dad, grandparents even are there and love you from the second you are born, so what makes you think you can survive life without loving someone?
There are stories where millionaires cope and buy all of these materialistic things with zero value to them and they always say they have an empty void in their heart and its because they have never had a genuine deep loving connection with another human of the opposite se.x. When a baby is born and it doesn't get touched with love, the baby literally dies. Most people are incapable of loving anyway, not on a deep level, most only care about money etc... none actually care about you..
When I am on my bed at 3am, imagining someone I love deeply next to me, I feel like it would solve all of my problems. But honestly, I am loosing hope.
So yeah, but realistically, I wish I had someone I can love, someone to be in my bed with, someone to care for, to share happy moments with, to laugh together, to cry together, just to be together, and connect and understand one another on a whole different level.
Most of my friends are in relationships, I have also always been the third wheel in the friend group.
Honestly, when I think about it, it is probably over.
The last time I hugged or kissed a girl was well over 3 years ago now, I felt nothing with her anyway, so it does not even matter. I never think about her, and she's a dried out woman now, so who cares.
I think this is why when I rewatched Avatar yesterday, I have felt this deep connection to it due to Jake and Neytris love in nature, how pure and passionate it is. Call me a loser, I don't care, I have nothing to loose as you can see and I am just writing my thoughts right now. The movie writes love in a completely different way.
For example, I won two of the rarest blackjack hands in under 10 hands, it was suited trips and a straight flush, I won 1000 pounds from it from 40 pounds but it didn't make me feel a single thing, I wasn't even that happy. I won money, yay. That's not what I want. I want deep love....
Oh well.
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