I Am Alive. Are You?? I'm not sure about everything. What if hes lying?

[astatin]

does anyone else ever snap awake

like really awake not sleepy

i mean every nerve liting up like god shoved your soul back into your body too hard

i can feel my tongue sitting in my mouth right now

my teeth

my heartbeat

my skin touching my clothes in 10000000 different places at once

my eyes blinking

my lungs dragging air in and out

every step feels interesting

like how am i moving

how am i thinking

how is any of this real

people just walk around buying groceries and answering texts like this is normal

like we are not flesh creatures on a spinning rock in endless blackness

how are they not screaming

everyone is laughing at work talking about lunch and traffic and weekend plans

meanwhile i am standing there fully aware i exist

fully aware they exist

billions of separate minds walking around with memories and fears and favorite songs

and somehow we all act okay????

i look at strangers and it hits me that they are real too

they have a life

entire private worlds

and i am just some background figure in theirs

it makes my skin crawl

like am i seeing too much?????

i am a body

i am in it right now

i have hands

i have a face

people can see me

this is happening constantly

no breaks no pause no exit

just endless awareness

sometimes i wish i could go back to not noticing

but now every second feels WEIRD

every sound too QUEIT

every thought echoing forever

i am here

i am here

i am HERE
I AM HERE
HERE
AM I HERE
HERE I AM
I HERE AM
I AM HERE
HERE
SM
I
I
AM
HERE
I
AM

 

[filipbrah]

does anyone else ever snap awake

like really awake not sleepy

i mean every nerve liting up like god shoved your soul back into your body too hard

i can feel my tongue sitting in my mouth right now

my teeth

my heartbeat

my skin touching my clothes in 10000000 different places at once

my eyes blinking

my lungs dragging air in and out

every step feels interesting

like how am i moving

how am i thinking

how is any of this real

people just walk around buying groceries and answering texts like this is normal

like we are not flesh creatures on a spinning rock in endless blackness

how are they not screaming

everyone is laughing at work talking about lunch and traffic and weekend plans

meanwhile i am standing there fully aware i exist

fully aware they exist

billions of separate minds walking around with memories and fears and favorite songs

and somehow we all act okay????

i look at strangers and it hits me that they are real too

they have a life

entire private worlds

and i am just some background figure in theirs

it makes my skin crawl

like am i seeing too much?????

i am a body

i am in it right now

i have hands

i have a face

people can see me

this is happening constantly

no breaks no pause no exit

just endless awareness

sometimes i wish i could go back to not noticing

but now every second feels WEIRD

every sound too QUEIT

every thought echoing forever

i am here

i am here

i am HERE
I AM HERE
HERE
AM I HERE
HERE I AM
I HERE AM
I AM HERE
HERE
SM
I
I
AM
HERE
I
AM

This may be top 3 schizo post

 

[filipbrah]

But it's relatable