I am self conscious about my intellect and don't know what to do

[coreym1374]

I never thought I was really all that dumb before. But recently I've been seeing the accomplishments and skills of those around me and it makes me feel dumb. Even when I do things well it feels like there's always someone doing so much more.

I don't really know why I feel this way. I've been wishing to have a more secluded life so I don't have to worry about this and I don't wish to impress anyone. It also shouldn't make sense as people with higher intellect often reckon with themselves and it's more rational for me to not wish to have that, but I don't. I like the idea of sorrow or misery if it means I can think deeper about myself and what I am. I've tried shrooms, I've tried other things, I really don't see a difference in anything.

How do I get that sense of assurance? How do I believe maybe I do have some bit of general intelligence? I whole heartedly believe I am average yet I don't want to be anything more purely for attention, just to feel better about myself. I've been suffering with this for way too long and not sure if I should see a psychiatrist or something. I don't want to be in this self conscious loop anymore and I do not really know what to do.

TL;DR I really just need some help and opinions from those who are "smart"

 

[JoKhao]

One time in my life I felt that what was my purpose..

Find what is you made for, people always try to aim higher and higher but they still don't have any satisfaction because they don't know who/ what they are and what they want, they always think they want something but is never that.

I get u completely I feel like that aswell but then some of my skills that I didn't value them come into practice and then I'm useful.

Idk tho i will eventually kms or something.

 

[JoKhao]

I never thought I was really all that dumb before. But recently I've been seeing the accomplishments and skills of those around me and it makes me feel dumb. Even when I do things well it feels like there's always someone doing so much more.

I don't really know why I feel this way. I've been wishing to have a more secluded life so I don't have to worry about this and I don't wish to impress anyone. It also shouldn't make sense as people with higher intellect often reckon with themselves and it's more rational for me to not wish to have that, but I don't. I like the idea of sorrow or misery if it means I can think deeper about myself and what I am. I've tried shrooms, I've tried other things, I really don't see a difference in anything.

How do I get that sense of assurance? How do I believe maybe I do have some bit of general intelligence? I whole heartedly believe I am average yet I don't want to be anything more purely for attention, just to feel better about myself. I've been suffering with this for way too long and not sure if I should see a psychiatrist or something. I don't want to be in this self conscious loop anymore and I do not really know what to do.

TL;DR I really just need some help and opinions from those who are "smart"

You should start writing poetry or something