I am sure I will commit suicide in like 6-8 years

[Abhorrence]

Because ever since like 15 my depression got 10x worse each year and I can't find purpose or something to clinge on to

I dont think I can even wage being this depressed sooner or later I will end up NEET

Basically I will be old fart without wife and nothing to look forward to and I am already hella depressed since 15 might as well call it quits then

I didn't lose all hope yet still trying out new things and healthmaxxing hoping it will get better but nigga who am I kidding I have been waiting for it to get better since like 6 years

I am going to ask parents for money to go travel I want to reconsider stuff, see new places and get away from this bullshit for a while

I feel so agitated and depressed you don't even know I snap out once in a while bang my head against walls and stuff and punch myself

Is it common for someone in his early 20s to feel like this

 

[Abhorrence]

The cake is a lie

 

[Abhorrence]

I have terrible anxiety

 

[Deleted member 53670]

My superior neurochemistry makes it impossible for me to rope, in fact I rarely feel stressed. Constant serenity without high, serotonin constantly elevated from learning new things, worries alleviated from realizing we’re just temporary animals moving through space time. Over if this isn’t your brain state 24/7

 

[Abhorrence]

My superior neurochemistry makes it impossible for me to rope, in fact I rarely feel stressed. Constant serenity without high, serotonin constantly elevated from learning new things, worries alleviated from realizing we’re just temporary animals moving through space time. Over if this isn’t your brain state 24/7

I couldn't achieve this state even with antidepressants and good diet its over

 

[Abhorrence]

Elon Musk is an anglo god

 

[Deleted member 53670]

I couldn't achieve this state even with antidepressants and good diet its over

Take 2-4 hours out of your day to learn something, you literally can’t get depressed if you do. Serotonin is life

 

[Deleted member 42240]

Wife's not guaranteed

 

[Deleted member 49037]

do drugs it will save you

 

[Abhorrence]

Wife's not guaranteed

im certain i wont have one

 

[try2beme]

My superior neurochemistry makes it impossible for me to rope, in fact I rarely feel stressed. Constant serenity without high, serotonin constantly elevated from learning new things, worries alleviated from realizing we’re just temporary animals moving through space time. Over if this isn’t your brain state 24/7

Did u never do drugs or drink

 

[try2beme]

do drugs it will save you

Happiest ppl r sober

 

[autistic_tendencies]

I care

 

[Deleted member 49037]

Happiest ppl r sober

try mdma then you’ll be the happiest person

 

[Abhorrence]

I care

liar

 

[try2beme]

try mdma then you’ll be the happiest person

I did it many times. As happy as u feel u get just as depressed thags why i always take 2-4 in one night bc i cant handle losing the powerful ass high like many others

 

[Deleted member 53670]

Did u never do drugs or drink

I don’t do drugs except edibles, never drink. I’ve always been relaxed by nature. I prioritize my human experience by controlling the content I consume and placing myself in positions for positive feedback.

As an example, I don’t use apps like Instagram or tiktok. I lift for health and endorphins, study for serotonin, anime/play video games for dopamine and I engage in social activities that distracts me from my seemingly pointless existence.