LebenistneHure
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Basically, I'm trying to find out what is causing me to look like a completely different person depending on lighting. Objectively, my IPD is shit, I have a below average ES ratio, my face is long and narrow, no jaw, long midface. But despite multiple falios, I can either look handsome, have been told by multiple individuals I'm attractive/cute, I've had a GF, and my day can be great if I lock an image of myself in my head looking good, OR I can see myself in a different lighting, decide it's over, and question how I ever found myself looking decent the day before. My issue is, I can't represent this issue through a picture, because I literally look different with every picture, and my face looks normal in most pictures because lens distorts my face and I look harmonious.
Depending on how the light hits my face, my IPD can look bad, or in harmony. It comes down to how the light hits my face, I can look handsome or ugly, which is good in my opinion because it means there is something that's causing it, and I think it's due to the contour of my face. Light either hides or accentuates the lines on my face, and depending on that my perception of myself changes. This isn't even a mental thing, it's literally perception. I'm looking to fix my face in a way that lighting doesn't affect my perception. My face looks very gaunt because I lack under eye support, I have nasolabial folds, lacking cheekbones, midface volume, and I think many of those issues are simply hidden depending on light.
I'd need a fellow autist to help out with this, maybe someone else can put a finger on the culprit. Btw, I'm not looking to become a male model like too many autists here, I simply want my perception of myself to stop changing on an hourly basis, depending if I saw myself at 10am, or 6pm. I don't think many can relate to this problem, it's quite specific.
Depending on how the light hits my face, my IPD can look bad, or in harmony. It comes down to how the light hits my face, I can look handsome or ugly, which is good in my opinion because it means there is something that's causing it, and I think it's due to the contour of my face. Light either hides or accentuates the lines on my face, and depending on that my perception of myself changes. This isn't even a mental thing, it's literally perception. I'm looking to fix my face in a way that lighting doesn't affect my perception. My face looks very gaunt because I lack under eye support, I have nasolabial folds, lacking cheekbones, midface volume, and I think many of those issues are simply hidden depending on light.
I'd need a fellow autist to help out with this, maybe someone else can put a finger on the culprit. Btw, I'm not looking to become a male model like too many autists here, I simply want my perception of myself to stop changing on an hourly basis, depending if I saw myself at 10am, or 6pm. I don't think many can relate to this problem, it's quite specific.