I can never be human

[Danish_Retard]

I am always divergent from the norm, incapable of comprehending what normal people think and feel.

The only person I've ever had a genuine two-way connection with is my autistic cousin.

I used to think that looks would cure this, but it will change nothing. I could the god emperor of the solar system and I'd still be living on another phase than 99.9% of people, still be different.

 

[lasnt]

Just SEAmax when you 20 and abandon Danish women

 

[Danish_Retard]

Just SEAmax when you 20 and abandon Danish women

And what'd that achieve jfl? Did you even read the literal 3 sentences I wrote?

 

[Isekaicel]

Just SEAmax when you 20 and abandon Danish women

you can't max at anything if you're truly autistic

 

[lasnt]

Did you even read the literal 3 sentences I wrote?

No

 

[loksr]

I mean, looks could change it (in the sense that nobody would give a shit) but if what you’re describing is accurate you’d probably have to be gigachad ngl

 

[Deleted member 24278]

Just Eastern Europe maxx bro

 

[Danish_Retard]

I mean, looks could change it (in the sense that nobody would give a shit) but if what you’re describing is accurate you’d probably have to be gigachad ngl

I can already fake a NT persona very well, people will tell me anything about themselves after a couple hours of conversation, I don't lack the ability to make people think I understand them, I lack the ability to actually do so or be understood myself.

Just Eastern Europe maxx bro

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[ReadBooksEveryday]

I know that feel

Thankfully for me it comes in waves. Its incredibly hard to have those kind of realizations constantly. My prayers with you boyo!

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

I am always divergent from the norm, incapable of comprehending what normal people think and feel.

The only person I've ever had a genuine two-way connection with is my autistic cousin.

I used to think that looks would cure this, but it will change nothing. I could the god emperor of the solar system and I'd still be living on another phase than 99.9% of people, still be different.

Combine your autism powers with your cousin and become super autistic.

 

[Danish_Retard]

Combine your autism powers with your cousin and become super autistic.

brb creating a new strain of autism

Super autism

but fuck man, if only she wasn't my cousin, I'd have fallen in love with her many times over.

 

[loksr]

I can already fake a NT persona very well, people will tell me anything about themselves after a couple hours of conversation, I don't lack the ability to make people think I understand them, I lack the ability to actually do so or be understood myself.


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unless you’re talking about regular social norms, nobody understands each other. You give people the most basic of psychoanalysis and they act like you’re a magician.

Unironically the thing that I’ve seen work the most for autists for understanding behavior and expressing themselves is to actually LEAN INTO the autism rather than pull away from it. You’ll probably never understand people on an intuitive level, which means you have to autistically analyze every aspect of behavior until you have a logical understanding of it, once you’re there you’ll be able to accurately express yourself. You’re already like 3/4 of the way there if you’re able to fake being nt.

 

[incel194012940]

brb creating a new strain of autism

Super autism

but fuck man, if only she wasn't my cousin, I'd have fallen in love with her many times over.

ypu do realize her being your cousin will only make it more likely your offspring will have a new strain of autism?

 

[TsarTsar444]

Yeah you have actual autism which means not understanding peoples emotions, hate how many self diagnosed copers claim autism for having turbo social anxiety instead

 

[ReadBooksEveryday]

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brb creating a new strain of autism

Super autism

but fuck man, if only she wasn't my cousin, I'd have fallen in love with her many times over.

Nigga shut yo goofy ass up and marry your cousin

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

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brb creating a new strain of autism

Super autism

but fuck man, if only she wasn't my cousin, I'd have fallen in love with her many times over.

She?! I thought it was a he. Revert to Islam and make her revert too so you can marry her, as cousin marriages are permissible. Do it bhai, this is your way to ascend.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

Nigga shut yo goofy ass up and marry your cousin

She?! I thought it was a he. Revert to Islam and make her revert too so you can marry her, as cousin marriages are permissible. Do it bhai, this is your way to ascend.

 

[TsarTsar444]

Do you smile by instinct unconsciously if someone else is smiling in a group, or when you look at a cute smiling baby video somewhere? Also what about yawning, do you yawn if someone else does it?

 

[cytoplasm]

You brutally lifemog me and im not autistic at all. Lmao

 

[Danish_Retard]

Do you smile by instinct unconsciously if someone else is smiling in a group, or when you look at a cute smiling baby video somewhere? Also what about yawning, do you yawn if someone else does it?

With yawning, yes

With smiling, idk, I've conditioned myself to smile every time someone smiles at me, like I've conditioned myself to do the friend signal nod at people (a pain to do automatically when near sellers)

But probably sometimes, depends on the situation I'd guess.

You brutally lifemog me and im not autistic at all. Lmao

How do I lifemog lol? I'm a highschool dropout NEET KV. lmao

Even if I've gotten social experiences you haven't, I'm like an outsider looking in, not really truly present.

 

[Deleted member 23115]

i also had a girl i had good interactions with bc she was autistic. This was when we were 10ish so obviously it was platonic and also i looked better pre puberty like a lot of inkwells. We built stuff together, climbed and explored abandoned buildings, played pokemon, yugioh, club penguin, minecraft, we were ying and yang. Now all adults are too “mature” for me and only care about status and money

 

[Danish_Retard]

Nigga shut yo goofy ass up and marry your cousin

She?! I thought it was a he. Revert to Islam and make her revert too so you can marry her, as cousin marriages are permissible. Do it bhai, this is your way to ascend.

If only bros...

She's like 5 PSL blonde and only ~5cm shorter than me, if we got married we'd have mogger autistic kids lol

But it's impossible, even if she felt the same which I very very much doubt my own love is more familial than romantic. Not even to mention how looked down upon it is in Denmark.

 

[TsarTsar444]

With yawning, yes

With smiling, idk, I've conditioned myself to smile every time someone smiles at me, like I've conditioned myself to do the friend signal nod at people (a pain to do automatically when near sellers)

But probably sometimes, depends on the situation I'd guess.


How do I lifemog lol? I'm a highschool dropout NEET KV. lmao

Even if I've gotten social experiences you haven't, I'm like an outsider looking in, not really truly present.
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The yawning thing is interesting, autists lack this trait but i guess it depends on severity of autism. ADHD and Autism are almost polar opposite in symptoms, how some have both makes me confused in general, more then a decade ago they were considered things that can't happen together, but it changed in recent years overnight, probably from severe mentally ill larping zoomers

 

[Deleted member 23115]

i know those hobbies are normal but she was genuinely autistic.

 

[cytoplasm]

How do I lifemog lol? I'm a highschool dropout NEET KV. lmao

Even if I've gotten social experiences you haven't, I'm like an outsider looking in, not really truly present.
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I've never been to a party and havent had a friend since 2017. Feels like i'm living in another dimension, if I was trucel i would understand

 

[TsarTsar444]

On a side note, why are all morwegians and danes here autists while swedes are bpd narcies

 

[Deleted member 21661]

I am always divergent from the norm, incapable of comprehending what normal people think and feel.

The only person I've ever had a genuine two-way connection with is my autistic cousin.

I used to think that looks would cure this, but it will change nothing. I could the god emperor of the solar system and I'd still be living on another phase than 99.9% of people, still be different.

I feel you. Getting along with other people is doable for me, but I've never really had a genuine connection with anyone. Any kind of relationship/friendship I've had always felt tame and forced, like I never really felt anything about it and just forced myself to take part of. It is what it is. I know it's my fault and not anyone else's. But I just feel so weird that way.

 

[n0rthface]

we must go to the forest and take high amounts of psychoactive hallucinogens, then we might be free…

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8846292/

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

If only bros...

She's like 5 PSL blonde and only ~5cm shorter than me, if we got married we'd have mogger autistic kids lol

But it's impossible, even if she felt the same which I very very much doubt my own love is more familial than romantic. Not even to mention how looked down upon it is in Denmark.

Run love jihad on her and then do it anyway. She will not be able to resist. You can also alternatively move to the Netherlands to get married where no one knows you.

 

[TsarTsar444]

I feel you. Getting along with other people is doable for me, but I've never really had a genuine connection with anyone. Any kind of relationship/friendship I've had always felt tame and forced, like I never really felt anything about it and just forced myself to take part of. It is what it is. I know it's my fault and not anyone else's. But I just feel so weird that way.

Im the opposite but this makes me suffer from not having it returned as much

 

[TsarTsar444]

Have you ever tried concerta or ritalin btw? Ive read it helps with autism symptoms alot

 

[ReadBooksEveryday]

If only bros...

She's like 5 PSL blonde and only ~5cm shorter than me, if we got married we'd have mogger autistic kids lol

But it's impossible, even if she felt the same which I very very much doubt my own love is more familial than romantic. Not even to mention how looked down upon it is in Denmark.

Its only looked down upon if you are incel

If @Niklaus Mikaelson marries his cousin, which he is likely going to do considering his mom is forcing him to do so, so his cousin can leave Poland for Denmark
And all his Danish soyboy friends are cheering him up for it

I doubt it will be any different for you

And keep in mind Niko is a 5'7 manlet'

 

[Danish_Retard]

The yawning thing is interesting, autists lack this trait but i guess it depends on severity of autism.

I'm aware of this, but recent studies have shown that (in children) it's because they miss the facial expressions and social cues, not that they won't yawn if properly stimulated.

ADHD and Autism are almost polar opposite in symptoms, how some have both makes me confused in general, more then a decade ago they were considered things that can't happen together, but it changed in recent years overnight, probably from severe mentally ill larping zoomers

They really aren't that opposite in symptoms, I have 2 friends with both autism and ADHD. I myself and probably getting a diagnosis for ADD/ADHD, I don't have many hyperactive or impulsive traits but I can't (gun to my head) start a bigger project (this is why I dropped out) or not arrive late to everything

I've never been to a party and havent had a friend since 2017. Feels like i'm living in another dimension, if I was trucel i would understand

Brutal bro, you've got to challenge yourself socially, no one cares for vulnerable men, you're all alone in this.

 

[n0rthface]

. You can also alternatively move to the Netherlands to get married where no one knows you.

nice try fed…

literally like inviting a jew to nazi germany in 1939.

 

[LookmaxBlau]

I feel you, man. It's hard to deal with the fact that you are not "normal" in the eyes of other people, which results in you feeling like absolute shit in the long run. Even with the perfect looks, it still doesn't help with being normal. You will always envy the people who can have a conversation without any fear in the world and who can go up to a person and hang out with them, whereas we can't even say a word most of the time. It's ok, man. Life is unfair, but just know that there are people like you, and once you find them, whether online or offline, it will feel like you are on cloud 9. That's all I've got to say to that OP.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

nice try fed…
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literally like inviting a jew to nazi germany in 1939.

Ill protect him at all costs.

 

[TsarTsar444]

I'm aware of this, but recent studies have shown that (in children) it's because they miss the facial expressions and social cues, not that they won't yawn if properly stimulated.


They really aren't that opposite in symptoms, I have 2 friends with both autism and ADHD. I myself and probably getting a diagnosis for ADD/ADHD, I don't have many hyperactive or impulsive traits but I can't (gun to my head) start a bigger project (this is why I dropped out) or not arrive late to everything


Brutal bro, you've got to challenge yourself socially, no one cares for vulnerable men, you're all alone in this.

Yeah i guess its because the only core autistic symptom is not understanding other humans, but adhd has alot more. Tho, the conflicting symptoms for example between the two: background noise, overstimulation, regime/plan for the day, inhibition of actions and spoken words, facial expressions, obsessions (autists have obsession/big passion on some particular topic while adhd is the opposite).

 

[Danish_Retard]

On a side note, why are all morwegians and danes here autists while swedes are bpd narcies

Culture I'd guess, in Denmark we have Jantelaw social/cultural law which states 10 things about behavior

Spoiler: janteloven

The ten rules state:

1. You're not to think you are anything special.
2. You're not to think you are as good as we are.
3. You're not to think you are smarter than we are.
4. You're not to imagine yourself better than we are.
5. You're not to think you know more than we do.
6. You're not to think you are more important than we are.
7. You're not to think you are good at anything.
8. You're not to laugh at us.
9. You're not to think anyone cares about you.
10. You're not to think you can teach us anything.

I feel you. Getting along with other people is doable for me, but I've never really had a genuine connection with anyone. Any kind of relationship/friendship I've had always felt tame and forced, like I never really felt anything about it and just forced myself to take part of. It is what it is. I know it's my fault and not anyone else's. But I just feel so weird that way.

I'm lucky to have experienced a genuine connection with my cousin, but it just makes the farce that much harder to keep up with NT's.

Have you ever tried concerta or ritalin btw? Ive read it helps with autism symptoms alot

No, they're pretty tightly regulated here and I don't have a source. But caffeine does nothing for me, only makes me tired, so idk if they would be useful.

nice try fed…
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literally like inviting a jew to nazi germany in 1939.

god damn bro, so much for the EU...

 

[TsarTsar444]

Culture I'd guess, in Denmark we have Jantelaw social/cultural law which states 10 things about behavior

Spoiler: janteloven

The ten rules state:

1. You're not to think you are anything special.
2. You're not to think you are as good as we are.
3. You're not to think you are smarter than we are.
4. You're not to imagine yourself better than we are.
5. You're not to think you know more than we do.
6. You're not to think you are more important than we are.
7. You're not to think you are good at anything.
8. You're not to laugh at us.
9. You're not to think anyone cares about you.
10. You're not to think you can teach us anything.

I'm lucky to have experienced a genuine connection with my cousin, but it just makes the farce that much harder to keep up with NT's.


No, they're pretty tightly regulated here and I don't have a source. But caffeine does nothing for me, only makes me tired, so idk if they would be useful.


god damn bro, so much for the EU...

Caffeine and methylphenidate are very different

 

[Danish_Retard]

I feel you, man. It's hard to deal with the fact that you are not "normal" in the eyes of other people, which results in you feeling like absolute shit in the long run. Even with the perfect looks, it still doesn't help with being normal. You will always envy the people who can have a conversation without any fear in the world and who can go up to a person and hang out with them, whereas we can't even say a word most of the time. It's ok, man. Life is unfair, but just know that there are people like you, and once you find them, whether online or offline, it will feel like you are on cloud 9. That's all I've got to say to that OP.

This is nice to hear, thanks for writing it bro. I don't know how to cope with feeling like an alien tho, I hate the feeling so much. Like going to class and everybody has people they talk to and do things I don't understand. I guess it'll hurt less when you find like-minded people.

Yeah i guess its because the only core autistic symptom is not understanding other humans, but adhd has alot more. Tho, the conflicting symptoms for example between the two: background noise, overstimulation, regime/plan for the day, inhibition of actions and spoken words, facial expressions, obsessions (autists have obsession/big passion on some particular topic while adhd is the opposite).

For my friends they still want routine, they just can't stick to it, intensely frustrating.
also, hyperfocus is a recognised trait of ADHD, while the trigger for it in autists might be different it exists in both. And most autists do not have all these traits lol, I have friends with barely any sensory problems meanwhile sounds will incapacitate me lol.

Same with me, I barely have any "special" interests, I am not really interested in anything and I am yet to experience getting intensely obsessed with one small thing. Well, I get like mini episodes of it but compared to other autists it isn't that big.

 

[TsarTsar444]

nice try fed…
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[Artemis]

I am always divergent from the norm, incapable of comprehending what normal people think and feel.

The only person I've ever had a genuine two-way connection with is my autistic cousin.

I used to think that looks would cure this, but it will change nothing. I could the god emperor of the solar system and I'd still be living on another phase than 99.9% of people, still be different.

Yeah bro... mental-pill is brutal...

 

[Deleted member 28896]

Same, I've never had a genuine connection with anyone.
At this point, I'm basically living inside my own head having hour long conversations with myself.
Because I can only connect with myself.

 

[Esteban1997]

Body control

 

[LookmaxBlau]

This is nice to hear, thanks for writing it bro. I don't know how to cope with feeling like an alien tho, I hate the feeling so much. Like going to class and everybody has people they talk to and do things I don't understand. I guess it'll hurt less when you find like-minded people.


For my friends they still want routine, they just can't stick to it, intensely frustrating.
also, hyperfocus is a recognised trait of ADHD, while the trigger for it in autists might be different it exists in both. And most autists do not have all these traits lol, I have friends with barely any sensory problems meanwhile sounds will incapacitate me lol.

Same with me, I barely have any "special" interests, I am not really interested in anything and I am yet to experience getting intensely obsessed with one small thing. Well, I get like mini episodes of it but compared to other autists it isn't that big.

I feel you, OP. I go to class and try to understand what my classmates talk about, but it's just not interesting for me. Even if I wanted to talk to them, the minute I try to say something, they "sense" how weird I am and dislike me. But Op, there are so many people on this earth; the chances might be low, but they're never zero. You will find someone to who you can relate to. I know you can do it, OP.





I know we can do it, OP

 

[Deleted member 21661]

Im the opposite but this makes me suffer from not having it returned as much

Wdym opposite? Like you can't get along with people but you feel a connection?

 

[Tusseleif]

Yeah, those descriptions that living as an autist is like being in a play without a script while everyone else has a script, or that it’s like being on an alien planet, is all too true.

Funnily enough, I recently was on a date with a girl who said a guy in her class was autistic. That guy had special interests and wanted to make a professional movie and "cast" classmates into roles, and also try to hire professional actors such as Kristoffer Hivju (lol). Ah the innocence of some autists. What’s funny is I did the exact same thing when I was 11 (this guy was 18 tho), in 2012 I was obsessed with Titanic (it was its 100th anniversary) and I wanted to make a movie on it so I also cast classmates into certain roles. It was insane to me hearing another autistic guy did the exact same shit. No NT people would ever do this

 

[Tusseleif]

I feel you, man. It's hard to deal with the fact that you are not "normal" in the eyes of other people, which results in you feeling like absolute shit in the long run. Even with the perfect looks, it still doesn't help with being normal. You will always envy the people who can have a conversation without any fear in the world and who can go up to a person and hang out with them, whereas we can't even say a word most of the time. It's ok, man. Life is unfair, but just know that there are people like you, and once you find them, whether online or offline, it will feel like you are on cloud 9. That's all I've got to say to that OP.

They live a completely different reality than us, I have a hard time even trying to imagine what it must be like to freely be social without hindrances, knowing a lot of people, having many friends

 

[LookmaxBlau]

They live a completely different reality than us, I have a hard time even trying to imagine what it must be like to freely be social without hindrances, knowing a lot of people, having many friends

I wish to live like that as well; I want to be like my peers and hang out with them, make memories, just be happy, and stuff, but I can't. All because of something I can't control. All we can do now is find people online who we can relate to, and who knows, maybe we can find someone we can relate to in real life.

 

[Danish_Retard]

I know it's my fault and not anyone else's. But I just feel so weird that way.

It isn't your fault tho, it's entirely outside of our control whether or not we can connect with another person, we can't control others brains.

Yeah, those descriptions that living as an autist is like being in a play without a script while everyone else has a script, or that it’s like being on an alien planet, is all too true.

Funnily enough, I recently was on a date with a girl who said a guy in her class was autistic. That guy had special interests and wanted to make a professional movie and "cast" classmates into roles, and also try to hire professional actors such as Kristoffer Hivju (lol). Ah the innocence of some autists. What’s funny is I did the exact same thing when I was 11 (this guy was 18 tho), in 2012 I was obsessed with Titanic (it was its 100th anniversary) and I wanted to make a movie on it so I also cast classmates into certain roles. It was insane to me hearing another autistic guy did the exact same shit. No NT people would ever do this

Some autistics really are innocent lol, it's like they've never been beaten down for it, or if they have they just haven't learned. Then again, probably better to be freely yourself and continue to get beaten than repress yourself until you slowly disappear, a shell doing just surviving left.

What is it about the casting of roles tho? The control/knowledge of how certain people will act or just pattern recognition and categorising?

I wish to live like that as well; I want to be like my peers and hang out with them, make memories, just be happy, and stuff, but I can't. All because of something I can't control. All we can do now is find people online who we can relate to, and who knows, maybe we can find someone we can relate to in real life.

In a way it is kinda freeing, before my diagnosis, I just thought I was broken, but now I (theoretically) should be able to guilt-free just ignore normies and their rules and just worry about my own people.