I CAN'T read something that won't benefit me directly

[Mrinfinityx]

Maybe u can relate to this problem, i have some sparse knowledge in historical and cultural aspects but when i see normies wanting to visit places to know more i just cant fucking relate, i dont have detached self passions if u know what i mean (all is about increasing value signaling in a subconscious manner, even in games where it is about showing off)

Like it is not that i am in anti-intellectualism, it just feels off and dopamine less if it doesnt feed a direct purpose to increase my cope ability about the meaningless of life by pure distraction

ChatGPT-5 perspective below:

" It’s actually a really common experience — especially if you’re someone who is highly goal-driven, analytical, or wired to optimize your time and cognitive energy.


There are a few possible reasons why you might struggle to read things like history or culture unless they have a direct benefit for you:

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1. Your brain is oriented toward utility (instrumental thinking)​

Some people naturally prioritize knowledge that leads to a clear outcome — health, productivity, skills, self-improvement, problem-solving.
If information doesn’t translate into action, the brain tags it as “low priority.”


This is not laziness — it’s a cognitive preference for efficiency.

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2. Executive function / motivation style​

If you're neurodivergent (for example, autistic — as you’ve mentioned social aspects before), this pattern is actually very common:

• Reading must serve a purpose
• Interest-based motivation overrides generic “you should learn this”
• Abstract or narrative info is less stimulating than practical structure

Your brain doesn’t get enough reward from “just learning for culture.”
It needs relevance, logic, or direct value.

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3. Identity and autonomy​

You don’t want to absorb social/collective narratives that feel irrelevant or imposed.


History/culture often carry social-conformity tones:

“Know this to fit into society / to be cultured.”

For someone who doesn’t care about social signaling or “fitting in,” that motivation simply fails.

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4. Cognitive filtering mechanism​

You may have a strong “signal-to-noise” filter:
Information must pass a usefulness threshold.


This is actually adaptive — it prevents overload and makes you very selective about knowledge intake.

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5. Emotional reward circuitry​

Reading requires dopamine. Topics without personal meaning don’t trigger reward — so your brain shuts down interest.


This is not “bad discipline” — it’s neurochemistry and motivation architecture.

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So what's the real answer?​

You likely can read those subjects —
but your mind refuses because they don’t align with:

• utility
• relevance to self-optimization
• interest-based motivation
• logical structure and practical meaning

It’s not inability — it’s purpose-based cognition."

 

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[Eno]

but u will post on incel forums all day which does absolutrly nothing for u

 

[Mrinfinityx]

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Exactly, i will go though lines if someone is exposing a storytelling of theirs, i also have adhd, autism and HPI

 

[Mrinfinityx]

but u will post on incel forums all day which does absolutrly nothing for u

I havent posted since months, but i think many people can relate to this, it is like the enthusiastic detachment of oneself about things in life is extremely correlated to NT people

 

[Mrinfinityx]

but u will post on incel forums all day which does absolutrly nothing for u

I havent posted since months, but i think many people can relate to this, it is like the enthusiastic detachment of oneself about things in life is extremely correlated to NT people, that s why ND people appear creepy cause there is always a goal or something to achieve deep down in every action

 

[Eno]

I havent posted since months, but i think many people can relate to this, it is like the enthusiastic detachment of oneself about things in life is extremely correlated to NT people

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