I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.

[foidslayer1944]

I seriously dont know what to do with my life anymore. Im so thinking about killing myself. I don’t know what to do anymore. I ruin everything. I finally got a gf. Online but whatever she likes me and my looks that all that matters, right? She was so pretty aswell but I fucked everything up like I always do. I always wanted a gf but don’t have much actual female connection so when I actually got one I didn’t know how to keep her it all started well we even talked abt moving in together eventually and everything. I brought up a fatty ring and all that bs yk (I was in love ok, maybe still am). But none the less I ruined it by distancing myself from her cause I don’t know how to show real love and affection to an actual female. We broke up and she immediately got another bf but after hearing how broken she was with her bf before me it hurt to see her move on this fast, and I should’ve felt anger but all I feel is sadness I’ve fallen into a deep state of depression and everything and even wrote a long ass paragraph to her apologizing for everything like a lover boy (FML) but it’s my last straw I genuinely don’t know what to do.

 

[BOX13]

dnr rope

 

[foidslayer1944]

Typo fml I meant Darry ring

 

[Jrzabun69]

I seriously dont know what to do with my life anymore. Im so thinking about killing myself. I don’t know what to do anymore. I ruin everything. I finally got a gf. Online but whatever she likes me and my looks that all that matters, right? She was so pretty aswell but I fucked everything up like I always do. I always wanted a gf but don’t have much actual female connection so when I actually got one I didn’t know how to keep her it all started well we even talked abt moving in together eventually and everything. I brought up a fatty ring and all that bs yk (I was in love ok, maybe still am). But none the less I ruined it by distancing myself from her cause I don’t know how to show real love and affection to an actual female. We broke up and she immediately got another bf but after hearing how broken she was with her bf before me it hurt to see her move on this fast, and I should’ve felt anger but all I feel is sadness I’ve fallen into a deep state of depression and everything and even wrote a long ass paragraph to her apologizing for everything like a lover boy (FML) but it’s my last straw I genuinely don’t know what to do.

She probably didn't even love you in the first place from what you just typed out, I had the same situation and way of thinking as you when I was 14

 

[romanstock]

Online gf? Jfl

 

[TheNextOPry]

what the fuck are you talking about? did you even ever meet? jesus christ you never had GF , there is no such thing as an online GF that is OUR girl bro, or not a real woman. sorry to break it to you buddy, but you should turn off the computer and start living in the real world cause you are clearly cooked