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Vermilioncore
Fear…
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Thinking makes me feel pain, when I don’t think, I don’t feel pain. I don’t wanna think about what I lost and I don’t wanna be reminded of happy times that I spent with her. I don’t wanna revisit any spots associated with our memories because it’s too much…
I don’t wanna think about the future, I don’t wanna think about what I could’ve done or should’ve done, I don’t wanna think about what I should do or shouldn’t do.
I just wanna live for this exact moment and pretend that there’s a reason to live and find hope in some placebo bullshit that makes me think that something has changed when it’s just my mind tricking me into thinking it.
Most of all, I just wanna not feel emotions.
I don’t wanna think about the future, I don’t wanna think about what I could’ve done or should’ve done, I don’t wanna think about what I should do or shouldn’t do.
I just wanna live for this exact moment and pretend that there’s a reason to live and find hope in some placebo bullshit that makes me think that something has changed when it’s just my mind tricking me into thinking it.
Most of all, I just wanna not feel emotions.
